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Posted by: mine on Monday, January 05, 2004 - 12:49 PM

I would first like to say that years before the following experience I had been born again. It was wonderful, something I will never forget. For many years I enjoyed something too great to describe. I was working with people. I was teaching, The Lord was using me in many different areas and I was enjoying every minute. Then little by little I lost it all. Finally everything was gone and I was alone, except for brothers in the Lord coming over to my house and spending time with me---inviting me home for dinner with their families. They took me on trips and helped me take care of my finances that were a mess. At that time I was even unable to balance my checking account, and for many years the name of a Christian brother was always on my checks along with mine so that he could handle the account.

Most of my time was spent sitting in my living room with a feeling of being surrounded by darkness. I had a place to live because my family had helped me to get a house. Cooking even the simplest things was mostly beyond my ability, so for about 10 years I lived on pancakes mostly, with a break from pancakes every once in a while. I had a TV and cable but didn't know how to hook them up, most of the time. I would now like to describe the darkness. Imagine if you were looking at a beautiful picture, but your eyes could only see the small rip in the bottom right corner. You are standing looking at a house. This house, too, is beautiful, but somehow one small part did not get painted and you see nothing but that. You are driving down the road on a beautiful fall day. The leaves have changed and are every color of the rainbow, but there are cracks in the road. Guess what you see. It is winter and it has just snowed. There are icicles and snow on every limb. The sun shines, the Glory of the Lord is everywhere but you can't see any of it because you are in another world. There is a beautiful sky with light fluffy clouds, and the temperature is perfect. But tomorrow's forecast is for rain and cold, and guess what you focus on. Fear rules every part of your life, and you only see the things that are not of God.

One day while I was sitting in my easy chair, watching who knows what on a tape that I rented, drinking coffee (at that time I was consuming about 3 pots of coffee per day), smoking cigarettes (this is another story), something more than wonderful happened. It wasn't my payers that ended the darkness, because at that time I didn't even know how to pray. Jesus came to me as I sat there in my chair. Instantly he took away my sins and my fear. I just couldn't stop praising him. By His Spirit He told me that whatever I asked would be taken away. I knew that he could talk and I could answer. He was offering deliverance. I asked Him to remove my addiction to TV and coffee the next morning I had a great thirst but it was for water. I also got rid of my TV. I didn't ask to be delivered from cigarettes because I thought that would be asking too much!! Consequently, it was several more years before that deliverance came.