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Posted by: whitelight

Please please pray for me. I have been through terrible loss and grief the last four months, my whole world has crashed and I am so alone. I hung on and hung on. Tonight I got the final kick in the teeth and I cannot take any more. I have had twenty years of TBI and depression, my partner who I met 12 years ago is with another woman, who he had an affair with for a year before I found out. I trusted him above anyone else I had ever met, and he accepted me as I am, after my husband rejected me and threw me out after the accident (he was driving) which cause my TBI damage. I met him years after my husband threw me out, and I was not looking ever for another partner. We were so happy and he helped me heal and restored my self-worth, of which I never had any, anyway. It was all ok till I found his letters to her on the computer, and hers to him. He lied about me, terrible lies, and she said she would like to kill me. She is a devout Christian,(Greek Orthodox) and he doen't go to Church, but he lied about that to get into her sympathy, just as he lied about me to make her sorry for him. She is still living with her husband whom she despises, and their three children. He now has a flat near her and she goes to him whenever she can. She works in a Government department, he does not work and lives on benefits. I just have to leave them and got on with my life but now I have had one last kick in the teeth and I cannot go on any more. I cannot face living. I have few family left and they never ring or write, except at Christmas. I ring them but they never call back.
Really, please believe me, I cannot face living so alone and scared. It is so cold and desolate here, although the heating is on and I am in my home I might as well be in hell. I am so alone. If I could have found the suicide chat room tonight I would have gone there. I cannot pray any more. I'm sorry.


Posted by: david arroyo

Lord Jesus, I lift this dear woman before You. I ask You to fill her with Your presence, Your strength and Your might. Lord, she is lonely, she has been rejected so many times, she is desperate. I ask You for a revelation of Yourself to her. Reveal Yourself to her as the Heavenly Bridegroom and as her "Abba" Father. Comfort her, Lord, hold her in Your Almighty arms, fill her with the fullness of Your fiery and passionate love.
You must turn to the Lord with all of your broken heart. He wants you to know that your seeking of love and acceptance from people has led you down this dark path. He wants you to know that He has always been there and is there for you even now. He waits for You to turn to Him with all of Your being. Begin following Him and obeying His voice. He will lead you through this dark night. He will fill you with Himself and make you a woman who reflects His image and glory. He will pour the oil of His Spirit into your wounds. He will name you Accepted, Desired, and Greatly Loved of God.
Lead her, oh God, into the Truth of Your Word, lead her to a strong, Spirit filled church where she can grow and be released in her giftings. Lead her to godly men and women who are in love with Christ and will support her. Please break all deceptions of the enemy from her soul. In Jesus name.


Posted by: adnil78

PLEASE, PLEASE TELL ME YOU'RE STILL THERE!!!! I HOPE I'M NOT TOO LATE!!! I AM PRAYING FOR YOU AND I HOPE YOU HAVE NOT DONE ANYTHING TO HURT YOURSELF!!!! I know everything might seem so desolate right now, but you need to hang on!! I've suffered with depression for half of my life and I know the constant battle all too well. It's hard for people who have never experienced it to understand, BUT I DO. If I am not too late, I want you to do 2 things for me RIGHT NOW: 1) Let all your anger & frustration out, knock some things down, break some dishes if you have to, cry it all out 2) When you've vented and are more calm, make a list of ANYTHING you are grateful for (even the smallest things, like a smile from a stranger, a song you like on the radio, ANYTHING. Maybe you will find it hard to think of something at first, but it will get easier and KEEP WRITING. When you're done, sit back and read it and know that these things can only be experienced in LIFE not DEATH and even though it may be a struggle, it's what makes it precious and YOU are precious. I cared enough to respond, I still care and I hope to God I am not too late. Please remember you can only lose the battle by quitting, put up a fight, and don't ever surrender. I'm going to give you my personal e-mail address, please write me and tell me you're alright. I am a good listener and will help in any way I can. God Bless you and with many prayers, blessings and love, take care of yourself.
Linda
e-mail : hartmanm18******.com
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Originally Posted by whitelight
Please please pray for me. I have been through terrible loss and grief the last four months, my whole world has crashed and I am so alone. I hung on and hung on. Tonight I got the final kick in the teeth and I cannot take any more. I have had twenty years of TBI and depression, my partner who I met 12 years ago is with another woman, who he had an affair with for a year before I found out. I trusted him above anyone else I had ever met, and he accepted me as I am, after my husband rejected me and threw me out after the accident (he was driving) which cause my TBI damage. I met him years after my husband threw me out, and I was not looking ever for another partner. We were so happy and he helped me heal and restored my self-worth, of which I never had any, anyway. It was all ok till I found his letters to her on the computer, and hers to him. He lied about me, terrible lies, and she said she would like to kill me. She is a devout Christian,(Greek Orthodox) and he doen't go to Church, but he lied about that to get into her sympathy, just as he lied about me to make her sorry for him. She is still living with her husband whom she despises, and their three children. He now has a flat near her and she goes to him whenever she can. She works in a Government department, he does not work and lives on benefits. I just have to leave them and got on with my life but now I have had one last kick in the teeth and I cannot go on any more. I cannot face living. I have few family left and they never ring or write, except at Christmas. I ring them but they never call back.
Really, please believe me, I cannot face living so alone and scared. It is so cold and desolate here, although the heating is on and I am in my home I might as well be in hell. I am so alone. If I could have found the suicide chat room tonight I would have gone there. I cannot pray any more. I'm sorry.