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Originally Posted by Soliloquy
A little more than a year ago, I started proceedings on my divorce. My husband and I had a terrible marriage, been separated and even tried other relationships. Two weeks before my divorce was final, I felt the urge to call off the whole thing. I had been to a Christmas celebration with our daughter, my ex and his family in a neighboring town when I got the feeling. I cried all of the way home. That night, I even told my boyfriend (who had been waiting for me at my house) that If everything was right in the world, he wouldn't be the man in my house. After that evening I allowed pride in my way and allowed the divorce to go through (it was final on the anniversary of my husband proposing to me). In March I suffered a deep depression and took my Bible out. I cried out for an answer and opened my Bible to a chapter heading that turned out to be my ex-husbands name. I felt at that time a strong desire to reconcile with him. I realized that all of the problems in our marriage had not been his alone, as I would have liked to pretend. The love of God uplifted me. Now months later, my ex and I are still friends, and I even wrote him a note telling him my feelings. I still feel like a reconciliation is part of God's plan for us, but I have had doubts. Pray that God will show me His Will and that He will bridge the gap of this divorce and reconcile me with my husband. We have a four year old daughter that needs her dad. My ex does need prayer, he needs to allow Jesus to take control of his life. He is a believer who is caught up being of this world.
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