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Please Pray.... It may mean life or death.
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Posted by: anthony

My Dear, Dear Friends, and Family,

      I am aware that what I am typing here will probably lead to the sacraficing of so many things, dreams, and plans for the future, but I have the faith in God that it is right. Please, don't let the fact that this is long keep you from reading it. It is really important. Jerry, this is how I want to teach....

     I have spent the last few weeks and months focusing on one young man. He is very troubled. Life at home is ok. He is struggling in school, but his grades are still good. He had a wonderful relationship with the Lord, but put it aside for a girl. Oh man, it kills me, because he saw it, that he was putting her before the Lord. He even asked an old wise man, " All of these things which I do for her, how much greater for the Lord?"   As it was going to, that relationship fell away, and was consumed by fire. If nothing else, give him a smile for the strength with which he fought to keep it. He now knows the costs of keeping a Godly relationship. He knows now how to fight, but his trust, and faith have been broken. This young man smoked for a season, and then gave it up. He was doing great, until he realized that he was the only one who he was friends with that didn't smoke. Of course, he was pulled back into that. Later came the drinking.. He is still killing himself, and trying to find God in the drunkeness. He has been so totally consumed by inner-rage that it scares even him. He tells me that he is afraid that the anger may cause others pain, and he is even afraid that he may "snap" and hurt somone, should an altercation arise. I am proud of him, in a way. He still talkes to the Lord, and still tries each day to listen. ALso, he has been consumed by lust. He is my age, and its not easy. The shame that was so long a memory, is back and greater. I confide in his knowing better than suicide, but he is going to have to do something. He gave away a car the he bought with his own money, to a friend who was doing "better" work for the Lord, and he thought it a blessing to enable this friend, but yet, he is still out on the town come the weekends. He has tried, really hard, to get back to where he was, or even close, but there is a force that is stopping him. He used to know how to fight that force, but he has forgotten, for the tree that doesn't bear fruit is cast into the fire. He has an un-dying fire for the Lord, and a great desire to do the Lords work. It terrifies me, some of the thoughts he is thinking. I have done evenything I can, but now, that I have reached my limits, and I yelling, calling, and begging for you to pray for him.   Everything is going wrong, and satan is bullying him just like he was when Jerry and him first met. Jerry TOUGHT him how to defend himself, but he is a silly kid, and he forgot. His faith has been challenged, but as you can tell from my sitting here, appearantly, God still has a hold on him.   I am afraid because he has turned anger towards the Lord. Each time he asks forgiveness, but still, he is caught up in a world that is literally tearing him apart. I am asking for 10 thousand angels, just to get him back on track. I can't do this alone, and I am on my knees asking you all, pray for him.   He is trying really hard, but until he gets things right, he will never be able to get on with life.   I know him very well, and his heart is in the right place, but he needs a kick. He even gave blood today, hoping it would do good. But, he is hearing the wrong message, because of the primary goal of the enemy, To stop everyone from building their relationship with the Lord.  Robert, Jerry, Steve, and everyone else, please, I am asking you, break your hearts out unto the Lord. It is really important.

How do I know him so well....    Because that 17 year old son of God who has but one hand left above the sand is me.

Posted by: elisha

I am a 22 year old single mother of 3 and I am pregnant with my fourth child I know what You are saying . I was there from Oct-02 to feb1st -03. I wanted so badly to please God and I could not go the right way no matter what i had to give up all the pain to God that I held because my husband choose another girl and his own self gratifacation over myself and the lord . Well I blamed God for what my husband did. God had nothing to do with it. It was me I had chosen my husband over god a long time before. So I hated God and the church even thoe while I was drinking I still felt bad because I new i was killing and putting my god threw soooo much pain. i would not give up the anger and give up the sin for god . I too lost everything including my children I am now back with God and I still dont have my kids back but it have learned that as long as it took for me to mess up my life God will help me in his timeing. I even did things I would never do like shoot up with my kids in the same house and the person who stuck the needle in my arm was the person i loved sooo much and left God for (My Husband). I quit drinking because I got pregnant . But i kept going to the bar and smoking ( all this time I was praying for God to help me live for him and quit hurting him) then one night friday the 31st of jan my mother told me that jerry was here at the CHURCH I HATED. so I told them I would go on sunday well I went at 11 and my parents had been there at 6 am and were going to go home( I was Going to be left at a church I HATED by my SELF) I thought about leaving but i could not get up people came up and huged me told me how much they missed me . I was stuck !!!! jerrys son was preaching and God Hooked me ( answered my prayers) That night my parents did not come but I did and even brought a friend. she gave her life to hte lord also . then she brought a friend who brought a friend starting from my parents ( who were back slidden also) came nine people home to my lord. my point is I new Christ lived for him I left but he did not leave me eather. dont wait he has somthing Great for Us dont let it pass you bye if you go to God now you could bring home many like my family. I am not perfect but I want to be. I read your prayer request and I saw me I am praying and will be till u tell me other wise I love you My brother in Christ if I can do it so can you .

Posted by: JG

Let's break this long letter down:
First of all it is quite clear your conscience is bothering you
That is good if you will do something about it.

It is quite clear in the word
1JO 3:21-22   Beloved, if our heart condemn us not, [then] have we confidence toward God. And whatsoever we ask, we receive of him,
because we keep his commandments,
and do those things that are pleasing in his sight.

You said: I have spent the last few weeks and months focusing on myself
2TI 3:2-4     For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy, Without natural affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, despisers of those that are good, Traitors, heady, highminded, lovers of pleasures more than lovers of God;

Who do you love first:
MAR 12:29-31   And Jesus answered him,
The first of all the commandments [is],
Hear, O Israel;
The Lord our God is one Lord:
And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart,
and with all thy soul,
and with all thy mind,
and with all thy strength:
this [is] the first commandment.
And the second [is] like, [namely] this,
Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.
There is none other commandment greater than these.

You said: He had a wonderful relationship with the Lord, but put it aside for a girl
ECC 2:10-11    And whatsoever mine eyes desired I kept not from them, I withheld not my heart from any joy; for my heart rejoiced in all my labour: and this was my portion of all my labour. Then I looked on all the works that my hands had wrought, and on the labour that I had laboured to do: and, behold, all [was] vanity and vexation of spirit, and [there was] no profit under the sun.

You said: He now knows the cost of keeping a godly relationship
PRO 7:1     My son, keep my words, and lay up my commandments with thee. Keep my commandments, and live; and my law as the apple of thine eye. Bind them upon thy fingers, write them upon the table of thine heart. Say unto wisdom, Thou [art] my sister; and call understanding [thy] kinswoman: That they may keep thee from the strange woman, from the stranger [which] flattereth with her words.

You said: He is still killing himself, and trying to find God in the drunkeness
You said it well enough

You said: He has been so totally consumed by inner-rage that it scares even him.
Sounds like rebellion because you are serving yourself first. These are self-inflected wounds
MAT 6:24    No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. .

You said:   he has been consumed by lust.
PRO 6:25    Lust not after her beauty in thine heart; neither let her take thee with her eyelids. For by means of a whorish woman [a man is brought] to a piece of bread: and the adulteress will hunt for the precious life. Can a man take fire in his bosom, and his clothes not be burned? Can one go upon hot coals, and his feet not be burned?

You said: He used to know how to fight that force, but he has forgotten,
Not true.. He has been told by me many times, but refuses the counsel

You said: he is caught up in a world that is literally tearing him apart
Amazing concept. God said:
DEU 30:19   I call heaven and earth to record this day against you, [that] I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing: therefore choose life, that both thou and thy seed may live:
You are chosing death not life therefore it is tearing you apart

You said:   he is hearing the wrong message, because of the primary goal of the enemy, To stop everyone from building their relationship with the Lord.

Are you listening to God or yourself?

You know what to do:
2TI 2:19-26
Nevertheless the foundation of God standeth sure, having this seal,
The Lord knoweth them that are his.
And, Let every one that nameth the name of Christ
depart from iniquity.
But in a great house there are not only vessels of gold and of silver, but also of wood and of earth; and some to honour, and some to dishonour.

If a man therefore purge himself from these,
he shall be a vessel unto honour,
sanctified, and meet for the master's use,
[and] prepared unto every good work.

Flee also youthful lusts:
but follow righteousness, faith, charity, peace,
with them that call on the Lord out of a pure heart. .............

And the servant of the Lord must not strive;
but be gentle unto all [men],
apt to teach, patient,
In meekness instructing those
that oppose themselves;
if God peradventure
will give them repentance
to the acknowledging of the truth;
And [that] they may recover themselves
out of the snare of the devil,
who are taken captive by him at his will.

Anthony: You are asking for prayer. What I pray is that
That God peradventure
will give you a spirit of repentance
to the acknowledging of the truth;

and that

And [that] you may recover yourself
out of the snare of the devil,
who are taken you captive by him at his will.

Anthony You must do this daily.
1: Confess daily  Get rid of shame.
2: Pray daily. Get spiritually dressed; put on armour of God; be fit for battle.
3: Die daily. Die to yourself and your desires - delighting in the Lord
4: Run after Jesus daily. The word is a lamp unto your feet.
5: Feed on the word daily.  You feed your flesh - do you feed your soul?
6: Obey daily.   This breaks idolatry and rebellion.
7: Learn to love daily - prefering others over yourself.
8: Humble yourself daily - puts Jesus first.
9: Praise daily  - teaches the love of God.
10: Thank the Lord daily - it is commanded.
11: Witness daily - keeps you on your toes and teaches God's desires.
12: Submit to leadership daily -  is the perfect trying of your faith .

Posted by: April

Anthony: I found this photo on the web site. .......... IT SAYS IT ALL
I have been where your are.
I loved boys more than my self.
I loved them more than Jesus.
I had to tearn the hard way, non of them loved me as much as Jesus

Don't let the storm come into your life like it did mine.
Run to the Lord. See the storm coming. Don't wait till it hits you and then you blame everyone but yourself.

Posted by: anthony

Thank You, elisha, Jerry, April. You have cretianly taken time to reply to my need. It is something that I can see you mean... because you have laboured to give me a blessing. You have taken a minute of time to search your hearts, and have given me the meat which you have found. I can do nothing but this: I promise you that I will take the time equal and greater than what you took to reply in order to make sure I receive the full understanding and knowledge in your replys. Thank you, Thank you so much. - Anthony

Posted by: JeriRose12

Anthony, you have to make a choice. You have to make a decision. It was "Choose ye this day whom you will serve." You must choose Jesus,
NOW. Where else would you go? Too many times I have thought to
give it up, its too hard--but before I really rebell, I come back to "There's
No-one else but Jesus, Nowhere else but in his arms."

Obviously, this girl did not satisfy. Was it worth it? Jesus is the only
One worth pursuing. You must go after him with all your heart. You
cannot be of two minds. A double minded man is unstable in all his
ways (James 1:8).

Listen to Jerry's counsel. James 1:22 ays, "Do not meerly listen to
the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it sayus. Verses 23-
25 (Of James 1) say: Anyone who listens to the word but does not do
what it says is like a man who looks at his face in a mirror 24) and
after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he
looks like. 25) But the man who looks intently into the perfect
law that gives freedom, and continues to do this, not forgetting what he has heard, but doing it--he will be blessed in what he does.

I know it is a sturggle, but you must not let the flesh win!! Cry
out to Jesus with everything in you. He is your only hope!!!!!!
Sometimes everything in you is a weak, "Jesus, I don't know wher
to start...." Then, start there. JUST START!!!!!!!

Praying for you,
JeriRose

Lord, give Anthony the strength to call on You. Give him the courage
to choose You 100%. Let him say, "Bye, bye world, bye bye." and go
after You whole heartedly. The world has nothing to offer. Show him
Your beauty, Lord, that You are the prize worth going for, that You
are the ONLY prize.....

Posted by: robertcyders

Anthony, I read your post and it looked a lot like me when I was 17 years old. At that time in my life I loved a young girl for what seemed all the right reasons, gave my time, my heart, and some of my finances to pursue her. At this time of my life I only knew Jesus as Savior and had a lot of head knowledge. I spent all sorts of energy pursuing someone and not pursuing a personal relationship with God. I had kept honor as my badge preventing my self from getting physical with her that would tempt to sin. I thought that in doing so God would surely bless this relationship.

The bible says that bad company corrupts good morals, I know it well. I had friendship with a young man who liked to party. My faith in God (the part I understood with my mind) would hold me back from his invitations to join him in sin and to drink yet I kept company with him. Because I had given my heart away to this young lady I had created a vacumm that God only should of filled. When this young girl that had my affections decided to not call or write for a period of three weeks I went to visit. Again with bad company driving the car, as I did not have a car to drive myself to her house.
Upon visiting I found that she was pursuing a physical relationship with another guy as I watched him come in from the direction of her bedroom. Now because I had not spent time laying a foundation on the word, having not pursued a relationship with Christ with the devotion that I had shown in persuing this young girl I was devistated. The devil took opportunity and in this I then blamed God. I got angry with God, my faith, and myself. I ran into temptation that day as I told the driver that I wanted to get drunk and to party. In a rebellious act for the period of a whole summer I got drunk as a skunk. I smoked and that not tobacco. I put my head in a place where it was not meant to go. I puked my brains out. Some nights my head seemed as if the room would not stop spinning. Was I having fun? Looking back at it not at all. What finally changed my mind about this life of sin is when I found myself at a party that a friend from my church youth group was attending. I went into a dark room by mistake only to find her in a compromising situation that made me want to beat the brains out of the guy who was taking advantage of her drunkenness. I did at least stop his attempt to use her though to her emberrassment. The following day I had really thought what was I making out of my life in these decisions to now pursue sin? What benefit was I then deriving from the things of which was ashamed?

Rom 6:16-23
16 Do you not know that when you present yourselves to someone {as} slaves for obedience, you are slaves of the one whom you obey, either of sin resulting in death, or of obedience resulting in righteousness?
17 But thanks be to God that though you were slaves of sin, you became obedient from the heart to that form of teaching to which you were committed,
18 and having been freed from sin, you became slaves of righteousness.
19 I am speaking in human terms because of the weakness of your flesh. For just as you presented your members {as} slaves to impurity and to lawlessness, resulting in {further} lawlessness, so now present your members {as} slaves to righteousness, resulting in sanctification.
20 For when you were slaves of sin, you were free in regard to righteousness.
21 Therefore what benefit (fruit) were you then deriving from the things of which you are now ashamed? For the outcome of those things is death.
22 But now having been freed from sin and enslaved to God, you derive your benefit, resulting in sanctification, and the outcome, eternal life.
23 For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.
(NAS)

Mark 8:36-38
36 For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul?
37 Or what shall a man give in exchange for his soul?
(KJV)

The young man who I have referred to as Bad company and I were at the table at home with my parents and in tears I repented for my sin to them and the Lord. Bad company repented in tears as well and he received Jesus as both Lord and Savior. I then started to pursue Christ, to know Him and the power of His ressurection. I had been reborn from death to life. The Bible says if any mans sins we have an advocate Jesus Christ the righteous, if we confess our sins he is faithful and just to cleanse us of all sin. As I was getting my life back in order seeking the Lord that week Then my Heavenly Father started to set me up for the person who I have been married to now for over 15 years. But that is another story....

Anthony, I agree with my our brother Jerry has posted. Please do not only read what he has stated in his post but apply it to your life. Print it,read it, apply it. Then you wll make your way prosperous and then you will have good success.

Josh 1:8-9
8 This book of the law shall not depart out of thy mouth; but thou shalt meditate therein day and night, that thou mayest observe to do according to all that is written therein: for then thou shalt make thy way prosperous, and then thou shalt have good success.
9 Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the LORD thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest.
(KJV)

My prayer for you would be what Jerry posted for you...

"That God peradventure
will give you a spirit of repentance
to the acknowledging of the truth;
And [that] you may recover yourself
out of the snare of the devil,
who are taken you captive by him at his will."

Jerry wrote:
Anthony You must do this daily.
1: Confess daily Get rid of shame.
2: Pray daily. Get spiritually dressed; put on armour of God; be fit for battle.
3: Die daily. Die to yourself and your desires - delighting in the Lord
4: Run after Jesus daily. The word is a lamp unto your feet.
5: Feed on the word daily. You feed your flesh - do you feed your soul?
6: Obey daily. This breaks idolatry and rebellion.
7: Learn to love daily - prefering others over yourself.
8: Humble yourself daily - puts Jesus first.
9: Praise daily - teaches the love of God.
10: Thank the Lord daily - it is commanded.
11: Witness daily - keeps you on your toes and teaches God's desires.
12: Submit to leadership daily - is the perfect trying of your faith .

Anthony, you know what you need to do.
Just do it...
This is the confidence that I have that He who began a good work in you shall complete it till the day of Christ. Your Father has placed a compass in your heart, even though you get off coarse some times your compass always points you to your Father. Why do you think that David had a heart after God. He too had a compass within to lead him home...

Your brother in Christ, Robert Cyders....

Posted by: anthony

Robert, JeriRose12, you guys are great. Thank you so much. Robert, as you said, I will print these things out, and carry them with me, just as you did when we prayed over the teen who's family lived down the street. Yes, all, I know the things well that I need to do, and I am looking for a place to start. Sitting here, I can tell you that place came about what must have been a million times; a day. Jerry, the test begins. I thank you all, because you have taken a moment of time for a single person. It shows me you have the character the Lord is looking for, and give me proof in my wrongs. I thought, and God forgive me, that there was no real reason to persue the Lord anymore. It seemed like the measure with which I, and others, measured out, were greater than which we received. In a little, but magnificant way, you have proved me to be silly. I am glad. It does me good to hear than I am now alone, but just silly, at my age. You know, there have been times when the Lord asked me, "Which way will you go?" And I dug to find the pride in myself, to start away from the light of the Lord. I told Him, I chose this one path. When I saw things going bad, I turned to Him and asked "why". Its silly, that I would turn my back on Him in thie way, only to turn and ask why. I have done some silly things, and expected my exploitations of the Lord to cover me. I am very glad, because just these few prayers from you all (Y'all) have given me the strength to say no to the direction I was headed in. I was looking to be one of those which you fid lying on the road. God only knows how long I would have laid there before the third person came about. With that, I am going to give myself rest, because the sun will rise again in the morning. I hope to be with it, as I have important things to do tomorrow. (*wink Jerry) It took me breaking to see something that was there all along Jerry. Will I recover instantly? No, but progress is being made. No matter how many times I would look at Him on the cross, and curse Him, he has never left my side. That says much. That, for me, says that He is with me. I want to be his friend, Jerry. .. .. .. His Friend.

Posted by: JG

Anthony: you said,
I hope to be with it, as I have important things to do tomorrow. (*wink Jerry) It took me breaking to see something that was there all along Jerry

So I ask-
Did you go to church today?...

Posted by: anthony

Jerry, you asked if I went to church today.

And I answer... Yes, Jerry, I did.

Posted by: JG

where

Posted by: anthony

DCC

Posted by: teamjesus

anthony,
Greetings in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ...

I would like to take this time to share with you how i came to know the Lord, i beleave this is what the Lord wants you to have a read over,

Abba Father, We come to you now in Jesus Holy and mighty name, We life up this message for your glory and may it go and sow good seeds in Jesus name amen,

I begin at the time i was born, My mother tryed to do away with me, but my dad saw 2 it that she would not do that through the justice systems, God had his hand upon my life even back then, in the mean time i was born and dad got custody of me and mum shot the gab so to speek, and was not seen for the next 9-10 years, I remember when i was allmost 4 The Lord was well and truly with me then and i didn't know it, I was sitting out side on the back door step with my pet dog, and then the next i knew it i was at the back fence, i did not walk there, or even run, i was just there... i walked back sat down, and it happend all over again, the Lord was showing me, that he was there and wanted so dearly to help me, but i was young and confused enuff as it was ,meanwhile i suffered mass rejection at every school i went 2, i was beten up by my dad, and sexually aussalted as well when i was young, we also moved a lot as well, then when i was about 10 years old mum decided to come along and see how we was going and stuff, the Lord put my mom and dad back together again, and then i suffered even more, i was beaten up by my mom, so i had a difficult up bringing... when i was 15-16 i was in them "Teen age years" you know you think you know it all when your that age, if only i did!!! If only i had The Lord then!! but never to mind, God has his perfect plan for us all.... 16-- i was kicked out of home, that day i remember well it was snowing out side i had no place to live, that night i ended up in the police cells charged with break and enter and fraud... silly move... But even then the Lord had his hand upon my life, i spent that night in the lockup got released the next morning, i was in the middle of town where i live, called the square, and i was walking thorugh and then this lady who i have never meet since, came up 2 me, said nothing, but had a wonderfull smile upon her face, she handed me a bible track, that night i ended up in church and got what i thought was saved, little did i know then i didn't really know God, i "Thought" i did... at 17 i was stealing not trusting anyone or cared for anything but my self, i did what i saw fit, but once again the Lord was with me, i still failed to see what God was trying to show me, because of my blindness, i was in one of them times.... so about 18 i ran, as faw as i could but that was not far enuff for God, one of his faithfull servants eneded up ringing me, the Lord gave him the phone number of where i was, and the time i would be there, and he told me " why are you running away from God?" i could not answer him, nor did i care at that time, But even then God was faithfull in his word < Glory to him! > at 20 i was smokin weed lying and never caring for anything, i got what i could out of anyone, and that meant i lost a lot of friends, but then i didn't know what friends were or even love was... so this carried on untill i was 26 years old, life as i knew it was about 2 change. I remember this well, i shall never forgett how Jesus came to meet with me in my room... Let me explain...
not long after my 26th birthday i was stoned drunk and having all sorts of woman, i thought that was life.... but never did i relize what was about to happen next, all of a sudden i was alone in my room, no one was there but me and them 4 walls < was like a cube of a room 2 > so i went to sleep, since i had nothing better 2 do, sleep was all i could 2 escape my own world... 2am: I got woken up by this voice, calling me, saying "Jeff" but i could see no one, i tryed opening my door, but i could not open it, it was if someone was holding it shut, so i started for the window, could not even get within an ince of them, so i had down back in bed again, and i heard this small soft voice again "Jeff" 5 more times this happend, then i fell into the deepest sleep i could have had in my entire life, when that happend i was taken to the day of calvery, And i saw Jesus our saviour on that old rugged cross.... he turned his head and looked at me, he smiled, i looked back into his eyes, and all i could see was pure love, nothing else, he looked at me 3 times, and then said " I have done all this, because i love you " i saw jesus the was he was on that cross as the old testament says, ripped beard his face was unreconizble, his back was a mess with them 39 stripes, then i was wisked back to when Jesus got them 39 stripes, i saw the wip, 39 leather strips each end had glass and stones and all sorts of objects on them, and as each strip of leather hit Jesus, as they pulled it off him, it ripped his flesh off his body... they rekcon that a man can only handle 20 of them, But Jesus had to go through this for us to be healed, then i saw them take that crown of thorns, and shove it < yes shove it > on his head, some of the thorns went into his scalp and peirced his brain. then i saw them rip his beard off his face, and then get a mean beating then i relized that this man, everyone seemed to hate envy and throw nasty words at, reminded of me... i began to weep i weep for 3 days i could not stop, even when i tryed to sleep i could not, in the 3 days i never left my room, i couldnt get out the door, it was stuck... meanwhile i was taken back to the cross once again, and i saw Jesus upon that cross again, he looked at me again, smiled, and said " I have done all this, Because i love you " i could not handle it then i broke down and weeped and weeped again and again.... by the time them 3 days was up i had given my life to Jesus forgiven my parents, and everyone else, i was released from all my habbits there and then, but thats not all, i had to go through more... i was hanging out with this woman and then i heard the Lord say " Will you give her up for me? " well you could imagine my reaction since i fancyed this woman i was going with.... but not long i turned to the Lord and said, " Yes " well that was a good move, THe best move i did 1 year and err 5 months ago i meet this woman, she is saved 2, thing was i knew this woman, but never meet her in my life, we talked like were best mates, so i was able to talk as Jesus talks, we were both blown away then on the 9th of Feb 2002 we got married, the Lord showed us we are to work together for him, now i wait upon the Lord for when he sends us out.... I live for God i have nothing but him to live for, if i did not have him, i would not be alive today to share with you all, and so at 29 years old i am Ruled with the Power of GOD!

I pray to God that this testomany of how my life was and how i came to know God, will help you all who reads this...

Peace be with you

Yours faithfully in his service,
Jeff

Posted by: anthony

Jeff,
   I can but thank you for your testimony. Thank you so much. So many things are the same with me, but different at the same time. I will trust you understand that much. You see, it was my dad who wanted to "do away" with me. one night, in my room, my mother confided these things to me. This was a few years after telling me that an old friend of hers who was back in town could be my dad. That didn't matter, because being a father isn't the conception. on to the point, my mom told me that she made it as far as the doctors office, but just couldn't go in. (Again, I wonder why?) She walked out, and had to call my "dad' from a pay phone, because she was so afraid he would hurt her. Well, 17 years later, I am still around. I too have known there has been times when the Lord has called me out, but I have always been afraid. I don't know of what. You know what I am referring to.. First you put your foot in the water, and still yet, he calls me into deeper waters.       I am sitting here, looking down two paths. one, is empty, but I know it leads somewhere. The other, has so many things I want down it. I can see the things I would give time for.   Money, girls, friends, drugs, etc. All of those are things we chase for one reason or another. The reasno I have gone down the second, is because it is too easy, and I know its wrong. I am still tempted, don't get me wrong, but I used to be a person who knew where he was going. He exploited God through prayer and desires. Now, I don't want anything.   The things God has promised me, they can wait, because I will get them in due time, but now "right now" as most would have it. Jerry once said something about how when he was first in the years of being saved, (maybe before too) that he still wanted his "stuff".)   I find myself looking down that path too. I want a relationship with God, but I don't want to give up my "stuff".   Well, that is what it is going to take.

I will go now, but agani, Jeff, I thank you from the bottom of my ehart, your testimony has touched me. Even if I can't type well. :-)   Thanks so much - Anthony

Posted by: teamjesus

Anthony,

Thank you dear brother in the Lord, for reading that message i typed out, i understand perfectly on what your going through, can i ask you something? take a deeper look down that road that has nothing, you will find that there is something there, Jesus who is waiting there, with his arms wide open for you to come running to him, and he will take care of the Rest...

May the Joy of the Lord fill your heart allways dear saint...

Peace be with you
Jeff

Posted by: anthony

Jeff,
    Yes, I understand, because that it what I WAS going to type. I want you as well as everyone else to see this example. I started off referring to the road that was empty (in appearance... This is the test of faith. Will you walk it simply because you know what the end holds? Will you sustain in your walk, even when you have walked for days, and still see nothing? &nbsp   But, I started explaining details of the other road, and it pulled me away from that. I actaually spent more time talking about the second road than the first. This is a prime example, and I am glad you reminded me, because I want everyone to see how these little things work. You have the right place of focus in mind, and then something else comes up, that sucks away your interest into a hole. Then, we may or maynot even realize it.   That is what scares me, as a child of God. That I can so easily be mislead. I am trying to stay focused, and again, as I have said, it will take time.       Well, that is what I wanted to say, again, Thank you and Thank you so much! - Anthony

P.S. Jerry - I didn't make a point to have Pastor John come to you with verification of my attendance, because I went to church this last Sunday, Yes... But Jerry, that is just one day. I'm going to have to work on more than just one day before I want anyone to account for it. :-)

Posted by: teamjesus

Well dear saint, i am glad that i could help in any way possible, you have my prayers, I also pray for an enconter with our Lord for you life, so that you may have meaning in all that you do, Pray without ceasing in all that you do,

Peace be with you,
Jeff

Posted by: JeriRose12

Lord, put Anthony in the fire; put Anthony in the glory!! Surround him by such an awesome visitation that he will know You are the only way to go. Show him that true emptiness is life without Jesus. There is nothing in the world that will ever satisfy.

Send the right person in Antohony's path with a word in season. Let
the Holy Spirit minister those words to Anthony's heart so he will not turn from serving You.

Jesus, You know I stray and wander sometimes but I always come back to You. Without You life is meaningless and chaotic. Bring Anthony back to You now. Put that still, small voice in his heart that whispers, 'I love You. Come and spend time with Me." Once he spends time with You, I know he will refocus and center on Jesus.

Devil, I command you to get out of this situation, in the Name Of Jesus!!
You may not have this young man!!

Anthony, do you think you made it here to throw your life away on
worthless things?? NO!! Jesus is calling You!! Please heed the call!!
Please seek Jesus today and find Him to be everything You are look-
ing for!!!!!!!

JeriRose

Posted by: anthony

JeriRose12 & Jeff,   I just wanted to take a second and say thanks again. Especially for the email, JeriRose12. Thanks a bunch. (In the words of my generation,   "cool" ) <-- Yeah, that is pretty much all they say... In my words, "thanks for being "cool"" - Anthony

Posted by: JeriRose12

How's it going, Anthony? I have been praying for you! The call of God is on your life, and you must not choose the world! I sense so strongly that God has called you to a big ministry and this is the Devil's plan to sidetrack you. So choose the road with Jesus!!!!!!!

In Jesus,

Posted by: anthony

To all those who prayed, and specifically to JeriRose12:

      The past few days have been trying. (weeks really) Decisions have come up, and I'm afraid to say I fought a few of them. one small example would be the fact that there were some "less than appropriate" things on my computer. For hours I tried to get online, and I realized that (more or less, God told me) I wouldn't get online until I got rid of them. This is when I fough... I had that whole, "You wanna bet" attitude. Needless to say, I was wrong, and I deleted said things, and a bunch of extra stuff I didn't need anyhow. Well, to make a long story short, I'm back online with no problems this morning. So, what does that tell you? small steps. JeriRose, I know God has called me into "big" ministry, as you said, and that I would seek the things of the word, rather than Him. You are more right than you know, and in that, I mean that I have unusually extreme desires for "worldly" things. I see the test, laid out right on my desk, that I overcome these things, even when I can plainly see the benefit of both. What decisions will I make from here/? only God knows, but I ask that they are to his liking.   Dear God....     Thank you all for your continued prayers and support. - Anthony

Posted by: Gizmo

Please lord be with this young man and heal his hurts. Deliver him from all the addictions and suffering he is going through. You lord are the God who delivers and I stand with these people asking for deliverence of depression, hurts, alcohol, and nicotine in the name of Jesus. Lord you said if two or more agree in your name that it will be done ont he earth. I am believing with this man that you have delivered him. In Jesus Name I pray Amen.

Posted by: JeriRose12

I am glad you obeyed the Lord. Life is made up of choices. And we have to keep choosing Him.

Have I chosen Him every time? Well, of course not! I have wtched some "inappropriate" things on T.V. It seems liike a life long struggle.
But the more times you choose right, the easier it gets. After a while, you don't even like that old junk anymore. I used to be addicted to the world's rock 'n' roll. When I wanted to get free, I remember saying "it's a minute by minute choice." I had to choose at that minute to do right and if at another minute I chose wrong, every right choice helped me gain momentom. By choosing right every time the temptation to turn on that station came along, I eventually no longer had the desire to do it.
Now, I can't stand that music. I just wish it worked in all areas. I am totatlly free of that music. But some of thje things I watch....

I gained a vicotory recently, though. I put on one of the "world's shows"--tame compared to many, but still promtoing sex outside marriage--and suddently I just said, 'You don't believe in that. Do you want to watch this?" and I said "No," and shut the T.V. off.

Anyway, keep your eyes on Jesus, that's the REAL answer--not on those "inappropriate" things. The Lord told me the reason my mind gets occupied on stuff it shouldn't is because I take my eyes off Him.

Lord, I pray that Anthony and I will keep our eyes on You. There are
so many destractions out there. But they all pale in comparison to Your beauty. Please remind us that You are the only treasure, nothing else matters. I do not want my mind slipping and sliding into bad thoughts;
I want it focused on You and Your goodness. I pray Anthony wants this, too.

I believe it's what Joyce Myers said: some days (ALL DAYS), we have to fight the battle of the mind 24/7. Be praying, praising, worshipping, listening to Christian music, praying in tongues, quoting scripture,
talking back to the Devil (who is throwing thoughts into our mind), be thinking posotive thoughts.

It's a familiar scripture but bears repeating--Phillipians 4:8:

Fianally, brother, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things.

Posted by: anthony

JeriRose,
      You have been a constant source of support and inspiration. I can not thank you enough, because, as you said, it is a minute by minute situation. I have to learn to give this a try like never before, as I sit here, I am struggeling with old things that I didn't have to fight with. I see them come up every once in a while, sometimes more than others, but I just keep reminding myself to walk away from it. It has become easier and easier, but still, an everyday struggle. It is very late, or early, rather, and I have to drive to Dallas in the morning as a favor to a friend. I hope to hear from you see. (sorry for the spelling, I am watching tv as I type.)   Thanks so much. *big hug* - Anthony

Posted by: 7DayJesusFreak

Anthony I think you should go to Bible college ,God has a call on your life. Lord bless anthony daily anoint is step guide his feet to go only where you go. Jesus send a shot fire into Anthony that he may stand against the forces of evil and rises banner of truth in this darken world that will start in Anthony. God ignite passion for your glory stronger then ever in this men that will flow river glory for the kingdom. Heal him inside and out , pour blessing on him double time 24 for 7.    God we pray this in you name Amen

Posted by: romfive8

Anthony,
i would like to tell you that i myself am beginning to fall from the self discipline i once knew so well. i rejoice and mourn, rejoice that i am not to the point that you are, and that what you said i hope will provoke me into rekindling the fire and persevere, i mourn because you are there and just by what you had to say that makes me hurt for you. i will do my best in what i know what to do, i will bring your request to God and continue to pray for you. and there are many people out there it sounds like that are rootin for you, so please head their advice.
brother in Christ Jesus, Danny

Posted by: anthony

Danny and 7DayJesusFreak,

       Thank you two so much. 7Day, please forgive the fact that my thanks to you is shorter, but I feel compelled to write a short note to Danny. Please forgive me if I don't make alot of sence, because I haven't slept for, well, whatever 12 times 3 plus something like 6 is. Anyhow, Danny, I am going to break down your letter, because there is so much written in so few words:

"i would like to tell you that i myself am beginning to fall from the self discipline i once knew so well. i rejoice and mourn, rejoice that i am not to the point that you are, and that what you said i hope will provoke me into rekindling the fire and persevere, i mourn because you are there and just by what you had to say that makes me hurt for you. i will do my best in what i know what to do, i will bring your request to God and continue to pray for you. and there are many people out there it sounds like that are rootin for you, so please head their advice.
brother in Christ Jesus, Danny"

Danny, all I can say is this. I am sure you can see the reasons you are falling, or nearing that point, as if they were tangable. (Maybe some of them are)   Please, PLEASE, fight them. Find the strength that YOU know you have inside, and just kick them off to the side. Please... ANd YES, FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, rejoice in your slide, that you have lesser a walk to regain lost ground. Its not so much that you have to trek all the way back, but rather, just kindof glide. I think maybe you follow me? God won't ever PUT you in a place and then LET you fall so far away that it is a battle to get back. All you have to do is make up your mind that you are back there, and start exactly where you left off. The battle is in giving up the things you said "ok" to. **This is amazing, I am sitting here answering all MY problems too** I can't tell you for sure that I am correct in saying this, but the fire you have inside, if you let it go down, you have to labour to cut that spiritual wood to rekindle it. (That is the task in which you have) That is how you prepare your physical self with the spiritual power to get back to where you were.) I wish I could make better sence, I am trying. With that, i am going to go, before I fall over and act silly trying to crawl into bed!   With a warm hug and a thank you, I say goodnight for tonight to you both. Again, thank you so much... I really, REALLY, mean that.   - Anthony

Posted by: kRyStAbEllE

Dear Father,
You are so awesome father how u can give someone the heart to care for another so much! I just pray for this young mans friend father. I pray that you would elp him in all thats he does to remember your love for him. Father remind him of all the times you have been there for him and picked him up. Lord i pray for his saftey in all that he does and all that are around him. Lord soften his heart towards you and bring him back to you once and for all. Thank you Father and bless anthony for his faithfulness to you! Thank you Father, AMEN!

anthony~ u are an awesome and powerful blessing to your friend. Keep praying