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Florida Bar Exam Preparation

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Posted by: Tory

Hi,

I am starting my preparations for the Florida Bar Exam (again). I failed it once before - this is my second attempt. I am an adult. This is a second career for me. I chose this path because a former foster child who was taken from an abusive mentally ill parent I experienced/witnessed abuse that simply cannot be understood. One of my siblings killed herself. One of my siblings is incarcerated for child abuse. One of my siblings has remarried 2 x and abuses women. Both of my brothers were sexually molested by my mother. All of us experienced my mothers mental illness from a point of abuse, and justification from her perspective: that God told her to kill us, etc. We were effectively cut off from the church, and God, at a young age, because we believed that God endorsed our suffering, and her escape from punishment. I am considered a miracle by my teachers, and peers, who know that only 1% of foster children graduate from high school, while most end up on the streets, homeless, in prison, dead, etc. I asked God why so many times? Why? Why? I wept many times..with no answer. I too my undergraduate in Psychology and graduated in the top 10% of my class. I became a social worker and observed the system, state, and families abusing children without consequences. Again I asked why? Why? I applied to law school so that I might be able to change the laws so that children might have a better life.

I have been blessed with beauty, brains, heart, passion, and strength, but all of my works, I carried on ALONE...I felt alone...all of my life I felt abandoned...alone...misunderstood...lost in a wilderness...how many tears can a child cry before someone responds? How long can one scream before someone listens?

Where are you God? Thats what I asked! How can you let this happen? I found my calling in the prisons, and ghettos, where children are being carted off to prison for crimes, but allowed to suffer abuse fron their parents, who walk away scot free - and I asked why? Why God? Why?

At some point, I broke beneath the weight of the burden...trying so hard to do this alone...I asked God to help me. I failed the Bar. I was not ready to pass it. I know that Gods timing is perfect. I ask for help in this matter. I ask help from God to pass this exam. So many children are counting on me...

I ask God for employment, peace of mind, honest co workers, and employers...happiness...joy...

I ask God for everything...he wants me to have..I also ask..why did he spare me? Why me, and not others so much worthier...

Tory


Posted by: cgirl

Dear heavenly Father, I agree in prayer with Tory that she will ace this bar exam. Take away feelings of lonliness and give her joy and peace. Lead her to the right job/places/people let your will be done and we give you all the glory Lord in Jesus name, amen and amen.

I too have been in an abusive home. And have been in foster homes as well. My heart wrenches when I think of little ones being abused and I pray Lord, deliver them, like you delivered me, thank you Lord for saving me! God bless you Tory, I pray God blesses the works of your hands regarding the children in Jesus name.