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Could I get some prayer please

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Posted by: fifi37

Hello everyone,

I'm new to your boards, but I'm very grateful to have found such an incredible site for Christians to come together and pray. I'm in need of some prayer, not much, but if any of you could spare an extra minute, I would be very grateful.

The only man I've ever truly loved left back in July. I'm 37, and waited a long time for him, and God provided. He was an incredibly loving and supportive man. We met in May 2002, and he asked me to marry him in September 2002. He lived in New York, and I lived in San Fran, and I told him I'd say 'yes' when I returned to New York.

Unfortunately, I had a terrible accident which left me in a lot of pain, and in a lot of debt, and it was some time before I made it back to New York. He had lost his job, and I was living off credit cards. I became truly depressed, I didn't turn to God (my biggest mistake) and I treated this good man very poorly. I was mean, inconsiderate and quite emotionally unstable. As much as I can justify it, I wont, it was inexcusable. I made a decision to return to California, because I lacked the confidence to find work in New York, and 2 months after coming back, he broke up with me.

God has truly changed me in these last months, and for that I am very grateful. Work has been done in me which will not be undone by circumstance. However, if you asked any of my friends about my experiences of this last year, they will tell you it was almost Job-like. I lost my home, my health, my finances and my loved one. It has been an extraordinarily painful journey.

Now, I understand that God may have someone else for me, and that's fine. Although I know God has forgiven my behavior, I would love the opportunity to show Walter what a different woman God has created in the last 5 months. I think I know that if I had relied on God, and not my own understanding, things would have had a very different ending.

Right now, Walter and I are not in contact, and he has told me that he has met someone. There are no hard feelings, I just felt that contacting him wasn't right when he clearly wanted to move on, and also I felt I was hindering more than helping God. Ultimately it is God's will, but I do still love this man. I want him to be happy, and if that isn't with me, then I accept God's will. But it would really warm my heart to at least have an opportunity to spend time with him, and see if there is any hope.

I hope this isn't frivolous, I wouldn't want to waste anyone's time. I'm really trusting God for a "new day", no matter what happens with Walter. A new day which sees what was lost, restored. I'm recovering from knee surgery, and living with a friend because I haven't been able to find work. Restoration would be such a blessing

Thank you for reading this, and God bless you all.

Fiona


Posted by: Kari

Lord our Father, I come before You lifting up Fiona for Your blessing in her life. Lord, You know the deepest desires of her heart and the lessons that she has learned through her pain. Lord I ask for healing in all aspects of her life, physical, spiritual and emotional. Lord, You have a perfect plan for her and if it includes Walter then we know that You will bring him back into her life. If You have a different path for her then give her peace with that Lord. We know that Your plan is better than any we could ever imagine. Thank You Jesus for your love, it is in Your name we pray, Amen.