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could this have been a warning ?

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Posted by: Frederik

I just had my latest faith crisis. I was really angry at God today, like so often. I had so hateful thoughts against him cause he never shows me his love etc. When I feel unloved or neglected I become angry.
However I asked God for forgiveness and felt sorry (afterwards I always feel sorry) and later I went to bed. Actually I should be sleeping right now cause in germany it's 4:34 am but I'm not. I fell asleep and then I woke up and my heart was racing. I have no clue why but it didn't get any better. It was really scary, I felt like getting an anxiety attack every second and maybe fainting. I didn't know what was going on cause usually your heart doesn't race for no reason. I tried to calm but nothing worked it even became worse. I prayed to God to help me but nothing happened. Later I took a beta blocker and then the heart beat became slower. Could this have been a warning from God ? Maybe his patience with me is over cause I trip on the spot and get angry at him over and over again. Maybe this is a last warning.
I don't want to know what God would have done to somebody like me back in biblical times. I don't think he would have been very patient with me. Maybe he is up there boiling of anger cause I behave so disrespectful.


Posted by: eagle4him

Don't be so hard on yourself. We all make mistakes because of our sinful nature. Our sins are covered by the blood of Jesus, and as soon as you confessed them He forgave you and forgot! Rest in peace, in Jesus mighty name!


Posted by: jedijeb

Frederik, I will tell you from personal experience that God can and does do some very powerful things to get our attention when we are not following His will. If this made you think about what you are doing then by all means listen to your heart and act on it. Dont just blow it off because warnings only get more drastic the more we ignore them. Open your eyes and your heart to this and know that God is there, just maybe how He has been working in your life is not how you have wanted Him to. God does what is best for us not just what we think is best for us, because who is to better know what is best for us than the very One who made us. Please Frederik, open your heart and know that God does love you and is wanting to give you the very best you can have.


Posted by: Woofy

God's character doesn't change. He LOVES the world, and how much
more His believers? He knows what we are made of and He is full
of mercy and compassion. His love never fails.
You may fail, you may fall, over and over, but He doesn't.
God hates sin but loves you.
He knows your searching heart. He IS there, and has not left and is
not hiding from you. Just believe that He IS, and you are loved.
This isn't 'Christian Science', and lofty simple words.
This is truth. Spiritually speaking, the Holy Spirit waits for you to
surrender and then wait. Wait. He will come to you.
And even if He seems not to be there, know by faith that He is.
His Word does not lie.
Woofy


Posted by: Frederik

I wish I would never get angry at God again, but it has happened so often and when I'm angry I cannot control myself. I wish I could say that it'll never happen again but I cannot. If I could do anything to stop it from happening again I would do it.


Posted by: ANOINTED WARRIOR

man if he did that to us all we would all be dead, yeah your just so important that he is only singling you out and is going to kill you because your angry at him, I think what is going on here you are finally starting to undersatnd there is spiritual warfare, that there is a devil that wants to kill you, I have had panic attacks anxiety attacks etc real bad before a long time ago so bad I could feel the fluid in my nerve endings, all panic attacks and anxiety attacks are the root of one thing the spirit of fear, so one day the devil literally was trying to kill me by trying to choke me on the floor, couldnt really breathe was having really bad anxiety and panic attacks for about an hour, then all the sudden somthing inside of me said enough is enough and the power of God came upon very powerfully and the devil left very quick and since that day havent had any panic or anxiety attacks, yeah those attacks are demonic, but are triggered because we open the door to the spirit of fear from dwelling on fear etc, or on stupid thoughts when we are supposed to be dwelling on the grace and mercy and love of God, there is no truth what so ever in the devil every thing he says to us is a lie he is the father of lies, so should be ignoring him always but we dont, we should instead be listening to God and walk in his anointing which is the Holy Spirit, all I can say to you is you are about to get real close to God from this you know why cause when your laying there having these panic attacks and you dont know what to do all you can do is call out to God and he is already there the whole time holding you up and helping you, we just get so focused on fear we cant see through faith to see Jesus helping us during those times of panic attacks love yu


Posted by: Frederik

I had no panic attack, I nearly got one as a result of the tachycardia.


Posted by: talena

Frederik, once I woke up in the middle of the night with my heart racing like that. What really scared me was that I thought I also felt someone's hands around my throat, but no one was there. I couldn't breathe and my chest hurt because I was breathing so hard, and my heart was pounding. I was taken to ER and told that I was having a panic attack. When I told my pastor about it I was told me I was under oppression. This was at the time I was struggling to know God more and TRYING to leave the craft.

I believe I was oppressed. I think you are as well.

NOW...I do hope that you take it as a warning, but it is not God that did this to you. Oppression comes from the enemy and is aided by yourself. It is kind of like you are at a crossroad and you have both sides coming at you spiritually. The reason this attack seems to have been so strong is because that is the amount of "slack" that you allow the enemy to have in your life. AND the good news is you have now reached a point in your spiritual journey with God that YOU have the authority (through Jesus who saved you) to stop this yourself.

Some symptoms of oppression are lack of self control, depression, feeling that life has no meaning, loneliness, fear, anxiety, conflicts with authority.
There are many causes though. So, it is up to you to determine what the cause is and remove it from your life. I will tell you that anger against God is a major cause of oppression. So, you may be on to something.

So I want to ask you to examine your life and figure out the causes. Repent and confess them as sin...and TAKE ACTION to demonstrate to God true repentence and purify your life. Release the anger...Ask Jesus to take complete control of your life and to protect you from oppression with HIS will, not your own...for HIS glory. Continue to seek God, even if you feel like He is not hearing you.

AND, of course, we will always be here to help you out. I am praying for you. I love you Frederik, and I have deep respect for you. You have stood and prayed for me when I needed prayer and I am here praying for you...stay strong!


Posted by: Frederik

Thanks.
I don't want to go that far to call it oppression. I have had that before a couple of times, I cannot really say what it was.


Posted by: talena

Just pray and ask God to reveal to you what needs to be done to fight this. And after you pray keep your eyes and ears open...search the scriptures, listen to ministers on the radio or TV. Ask God to use them to minister to you and tell you what you need to do. He will answer you.


Posted by: Frederik

But the bible can't answer all my questions. When I read the bible I become even more confused cause I get hundreds of new questions. I am simply pedantic and I have many questions.
There are simply so many things which I don't know and which I can't answer on my own.


Posted by: WHG

I don't think God is punishing you; I don't think He acts like that. We get angry at our family and our friends many many times over our lifetimes. You wouldn't strike down your friend (assuming you had the power to do so) if he got angry at you, would you? Of course not! You'd probably feel upset and want to talk things over, and if you both were honest with your feelings you'd end up understanding each other even better than before the fight.

If your physical reaction caused you to consider why you are so angry at God, then it's a positive thing. What are you angry at Him about? Is it anything you yourself can actually fix? I have been very angry at God before because things weren't going my way. When I sat and thought about it (and talked it over with God) I realized a lot of what I was blaming on God was my own problem, not His.


Posted by: glory_one

Bro

I do not know how I ended up here but I did..

I should share I am a VETERAN regarding the spirit of fear and panic attacks and STILL deal with it to this DAY..

Its is part of my affliction NOT a thing I claim simplt reality which FATHER ,if He so chooses could eliminate ANY TIME He wanted,amen

Syillthis diagnosis has allowe dme to walk very closely to HIM..
I have suffered this strange thing SIXTEEN YEARS BRO..since I was 24..

PLEASE BRETHREn DONT BE DISCOURAGED
DONT FEEL "USELESS" OR "DISMAYED""
GOD CSN STILL USE YOU ALL AND I CAN CLEARLY SE EHERE IS USING YOU AS WE SPEAK>>

YOU ARE NOT ALONE>.

CAPS FOR EMPHASIS BRETHERN AND NOT SHOUTING
IF YOU GUYS HAVE ANY PROBLEM WITH PANIC OR ANXIETY
PLEASE PLEASE WRITE ME /US HERE

WE HAVE A BROTHER WHO HAS AN EXCELLENT MINISTRY FOR THIS

HIS NAME IS RUSSELL POND
HIS WEB SITE IS SEAON OFPEACE
PLEASE PLEASE AVAIL YOURSELF OF THIS HELP..

THE LORD USED HIS MINISTRY TOWARDS MY HEALINS WHICH I AM STILL COMING THROUGH TODAY SWEET SAINTS

SO CAN YOU
BUT WE MUST NOT FEEL SHAME OR PRIDE IN SEEKING HIS HELP..PROVIDED FOR US..

I PROMISE IN THESE SUG\FFERINGS YOU ARE NOT ALONE..

MUCH PEACE AND HEALING TO YOU ALL

PAM AND WALTER

please please write me i know A LOT about this stuff truly brethren i KNOW whence i speak..


Posted by: glory_one

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Posted by: cgirl

Quote:
Originally Posted by Frederik
But the bible can't answer all my questions. When I read the bible I become even more confused cause I get hundreds of new questions. I am simply pedantic and I have many questions.
There are simply so many things which I don't know and which I can't answer on my own.

Fred, it says in the Bible to trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. Also, I found this the other day and wanted to share it with you. Reading one chapter 5 times a week. Check it out and print it out, helpful stuff...

http://www.anchorageffc.com/NewYearsAd.pdf


Posted by: Starya

I think God loves you no matter what you do but he could have been trying to get your attention