Missed Out

Originally Posted by mastenjulie

MamaCat-
I just Praise the Lord for having you as my sister in the Lord. You are a very special person because he loves you so much. I do hear what your saying and I know the feeling that you have. I to have be in the places where the words of encouragement have be spoken and it seems that every one around you will recieve precious words from the Lord. I can't count on all the places that I sat there watch all those recieve a word from the Lord . Each times in those place many emotions rose in my heart. Feeling or rejection-unworthiness. It made me angry and hurt. I know what the Lord has ask me to do. And it has been by faith in my spirit and I had to hold on to that and it has been 10 years now. The word said "That the trial of your faith being much more precious than of gold that perisheth though, it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ-Whom having not seen, ye love, in whom, though now ye see him not, yet believing, ye rejoice with joy unspeakable and full of glory". And Matthew 13:4-32 talks about the seeds. I look at it like this- The words of the spirit are like seed being spoken over the hears and they fall in manys place. The Lords words of enocourgment are so special full of life . And those that recieve have a responsible to hold on to them. And to me that is alot. I have had to fight to keep the words that have been giving to me. Knowing that I must trust him alone. And if he moves on the heart of the one who yeild to speak the seeds in my heart they a like gold to me. I'm at a place of rest now. I just stand back watch our precious Lord do his touch upon all those and having my faith line up with those people hearts and watch the Spirit blessed them mighly. Praise the Lord. I hope you recieve this with the knowedge of the spirit. I love you and you will recieve words of strenght and encouragement from the Lord this day and everyday of your life upon this earth and I believe also this night. Love Julie

Originally Posted by MamaCat

I stayed home tonight because I was so tired and I listened on the internet. I listened to the teaching and I listened as you spoke into the lives of many there. Yes, I missed out again! I sometimes joke that the one meeting I miss will be the one where God splits the pulpit, shows up in the cloud of glory or pours out gold dust from heaven!!
I was praying as you spoke to the people and blessed them.

I know you'll think I'm being selfish and complaining [again!], but I would have LOVED to have been there tonight to have you speak encouraging to words directly to me!! I suppose by now I should be more mature, able to feed myself, to study the Word, do spiritual warfare and hear and obey the Spirit of the LORD. Sometimes I am able to do that, but not often as I should. When Galilee spoke and prophesied to me last night [and I almost didn't go down to receive it!], it was only the third time anyone has spoken and prophesied over me the entire time I've
been saved. You would be surprised to hear how often I do NOT hear encouraging uplifting words directed at me!

I want so much to be a strong mature Christian, a mighty warrior for God, ministering to people and speaking the Word. But I can't do any of that without Jesus and I am still learning to trust Him with everything in my life. After 11 years of salvation, I'm still amazed that Jesus even accepts me, let alone loves me. Of all the horrible experiences I've gone through in my life, you have gone through worse. You are an incredible overcomer, Jerry. In these meetings I feel like I'm following Paul around, "following you as you follow Christ." As a mighty man of God, Jerry, what you say is important to me, in your teachings and personally.

I don't know why I've gone on like this, but could you please sometime when the group is smaller, do again what you did tonight, speaking into the lives of our group? I know you're not there to babysit or spoon feed, but sometimes a shoulder shaking, a kick in the hiney and some encouraging words are needed!!

See ya tomorrow night!