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Healing

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Posted by: MamaCat

I need some input and understanding from some mature seasoned Christians concerning healing. First a brief background so you know where I'm coming from. Been saved 11 years, baptized in the Holy Spirit 7 years, I work at a Prayer & Healing Room, attend a non-denom Spirit filled, Bible believing, full gospel church. I worship the Lord, talk to Him, read and study His Word. I am as saved, as full of the Holy Spirit, as faithfilled as I know how to be. But something isn't right and I don't know what it is! I've never operated in any of the gifts of the Spirit YET despite seeking that and I'm not sure I'd know how anyway. I barely hear God's voice and even when I think I do, another voice convinces me I'm talking to myself!

I have not experienced much victory in prayer, especially for healing. I sensed a calling to the Healing ministry shortly after being baptized by the Holy Spirit. I stepped out in faith believing, anointing people with oil, laying hands on them, praying and expecting them to be healed. Yet I can count on ONE HAND the number of people, including myself, who've been healed. I read about wonderful healings around the world, I watch the crusades, the preachers and teachers on television, I see posts on message boards like this one, but first hand personal experience of it is almost non existant! Am I expecting too much? If something WORKS, shouldn't you witness it repeatedly and often! Yet people stay sick, some even die. I realize there are many reasons people don't get healed, but overall, it seems to me, there should be more of them healed. Even in the Bible, almost every time Jesus healed someone, it was INSTANTLY. Times I've been sick myself and did everything I knew to do, I suffered THROUGH IT until my body healed itself. Same with members of my family or friends. No one I know has EVER been instantly healed like in the Bible. So why bother praying? Just take our drugs and deal with it, right? I KNOW pain releivers work for me, first time, every time. God, however, just seems to be a hit or miss proposition when it comes to healing. Once I prayed over an hour for a headache I had to be healed. I finally took some drugs and the pain left. I don't even LIKE taking medicine, but I know it almost always works.

This has been a major stumbling block in my walk with Christ. There have been times I have decided to quit trying, to quit stepping out, to quit praying for healing, to just be virtually an ineffective, unproductive and apathetic Christian and wait for the rapture. I mean, if I had an appliance that only worked a few times, I'd dump it. If I had a relationship with someone who had lots of promises for me but never kept them, I wouldn't hang around that person long.

I'm so tired of going around this mountain. I need some insight. What am I doing wrong? What am I not doing right? How can I continue to have faith for healing, despite little evidence of it so far? I feel like the Cowardly Lion who grabbed his tail and repeatedly said, "I do believe, I do believe, I do believe." I'm exhausted and worn out. How to I keep going in faith NO MATTER WHAT??? HELP!! I really need some straight forward, NO SPIN answers from anyone willing to give me some wisdom on this.


Posted by: cgirl

Hi Mamacat,

Let's look to the Word shall we?

Galations 6:9 And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.

John 10:10 The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.

Proverbs 18:21 Death and life are in the power of the tongue: and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof.

The enemy is trying to make you give up. See his tricks and hang in there. Have you fasted? Ask your doctor.


Posted by: JG

1CO 12:28 And God hath set some in the church,
first apostles,
secondarily prophets,
thirdly teachers,
after that miracles,
then gifts of healings , (notice the word gift)
helps,
governments,
diversities of tongues.

As you know I grew up part of my life as an orphan.
When I was a young man something happened that changed my life.
It was Christmas time.
I was with a special group of Christians
I had never been on the inside team before
There were about 100 people in this group
We were asked to pick a name out of a bowl and buy a present for them
When Christmas eve came I was so excited.
I had made the most wonderful present for the person's name I drew

The whole night seem perfect
We had a wonderful time of singing Christmas songs
We had a wonderful Christmas dinner
We had a wonderful time of fellowship and testimonies

Now came time for the present.
You must understand that this Christmas everyone would only get one present.
No more no less, just one that year would come.

As the leader went to the tree I was so excited
You see when you grow up in an orphanage there were no presents.
There was not turkey dinner.
There was not singing.

So Christmas was very sepcial to me.
Now as the leader of this group I was living with called out the names for each person they received their special present from their secret friend with such joy.

There were big presents and tiny presents. Some were wraped with ribbons and bows. Some were almost to pretty to open

Person after person's name was called.
The hug pile of presents some go smaller and smaller and smaller.

Then there were only three left, then two, when the last one was picked up I just knew it was mine. When Don called out the name I had already started to get up. To my horror it was not mine.

I looked around and saw everyone had a present but me.
You see the person who picked my name didn't like me.
There is nothing more painful than an empty tree.

I excused myself and went to my room
The horror of the rejection I felt from that orphanage overwhelemed me all over again.
I cried and cried that deep cry from your soul.
You know the one where your throat hurts so much you can't talk.

You see I was 28 years old when this happened.
I was working at a missions camp.
All these people were missionaries and pastors and students.

As I knelt down and cried
Jesus walked into the room
He said I have a better present for you.
I didn't care
I was hurt
He said one day you will see the present I will give you,
so be patient my friend.

It has been almost 30 years now
Almost none of those ministers are still in ministry.
But Jesus has given me His favor and His miracles.

It took 24 more years for the first gift to come.
It was worth waiting for.
Now no one can ever hurt me that way again
because whenever I see the rejection I see Jesus.

There are so many things that are bigger that healing
His Love
His friendship
His comfort
His peace
His understanding
His since of humor
His Joy

each are a gift
when I open them now they are so special
I just love my Lord for all the wonderful things He has done.

I pray one day you will see all the wonderful things He has done for you.

You see I saw the miracles Jesus did for you
You see I was there when Jesus touched you in Milton
You see I saw the love you felt then.

So you see it was worth the wait my friend.