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Things are so much better since Jesus came into my life!
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Posted by: Renewed Faith
It really is just amazing!
At the end of May I started having panic attacks. In a matter of 1 week they were so frequent I had to take sick leave from work. By mid-June I was depressed and seeing a psychotherapist, leaving the house only to take my daughter to daycare and then hurrying back home to sleep under the covers all day because I was AFTRAID - afraid of what, I don't know!
All day long I would either hide in bed or be on the Internet looking at anxiety bulleting boards, owndering if it was my thyroid, my heart, if depression ran in my family, if I would EVER get out of this!I felt so hopelss and alone!
2 weeks ago it was so bad, that one day I just fell to my knees and paryed to God and aksed Him to forgiv ethat I had drifted so far from him in my life and in my actions.
I then picked up the Bible and read Matthew and it was difficult for me but I stuck through it.
Well, since then, a whole bunch of great things have happened to me! Some would call it co-incidence and the power of the mind! Well, scientifically and psychologically I would agree with that, but then I would add - Who controls the mind? Who refreshes the spirit and lifts it? God!
Here are examples from the past 2 weeks of just mgreat miracle sin my life:
- I told the psychoterapist that I was reading the Bible and she said that was the best therapy! She is herself very Christian but does not bring it into therapy until the patioent does - since then, I feel even more connected with her.
-we went to our trailer and 2 camps over from us is a Bible Camp - which I knew soince last year. Well, this weekend I went for a hymn sing on Saturday night and for service on Sunday! They were holding a garage sale on Saturday and I had been wanting a purse-sized bible but could not afford it and guess what? There was a New Testatment, purse size, for FREE!
-I have learned new hymns and instead of all the neagtive thoughts coming to my mind, especially in the mornings when I wake up, now I just sing all day long - it's only 3 hymns that I now know, but I just keep repeating them and they are wonderful!
-I look forward to every day. I now clean the house, do the groceries, cook supper, yesterday I cut the grass. The lethargy and loss of spirit that was with me 2 weeks ago is gone!
In 2 weeks time I go back to work for 4 hours per day. I'm not even scared about doing that! Yes, the people there are very negative and they had affected me before. But now I know that all I have to do is BELIEVE and God will bring forth amazing powers into my life (By the way, I put out my resume on the Internet, and I have a company close to home that looked at it!- I would not have taken this chance during or even before my depression).
Things are really looking up for me!
I prais ethe Lord for all the wonderful favours He has shown me. I pray that I may humbly serve Hima nd do what is right. I repent all my past sins, and know that God has fogiven m. I pray that he show me how to forgive myself. I pray for guidance in dealing with my negative and anti-Christian parents. And most of all I thank- I thank Jesus for helping me to understand!
Amen.