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Pray for me to be strong and not give up.

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Posted by: thornygrace

I have had one bad thing happen after another. My health was getting bad and then my husband didn't return from a trip just before the holidays, and my grief response to that resulted in greater health problems and since I am in business for myself my income dropped and my husband kept taking money from our accounts and I was evicted. I lost friends when I refused to "come to my senses and divorce" and "get on with my life." They literally stopped being my friend because I wanted to try to save my marriage. Now I had another huge disaster when I lost my livlihood, the primary contract that I relied upon to cover my expenses.

I didn't have the money to pay my taxes, I am behind on my student loans and now they will garnish my wages if I do work, so really I can't afford to go out and get a job.

I have had other smaller attacks by people just doing hurtful things to me as well.

I did the prayer vigil for Easter for marriage restoration and it was just too emotional for me. I nearly had a nervous breakdown facing all the pain I feel inside and not having distractions from that pain for only three days. I feel weak still even though I am eating again and back to doing my normal things.

I just don't know how much more pain I can handle and believe me, I know God has not forsaken me. I just need a breakthrough very soon.

Sometimes I just feel like giving up on life altogeher. If I wasn't saved, I would have killed myself back in January. I know this to be true. What keeps me alive is knowing that God is with me and He has a plan.

My husband has not said when he will be home but he has not said that he will not come home. He has said what the delay is and it is about paying back money he borrowed by working for the man who loaned the money. This is not all about marital problems.

I am asking for prayers for God's peace and for God to show me a sign that soon I will be out of this desert and that there is a promised land for me. I also need prayer that I will get more emotional support from others and not feel so rejected and lonely. It has been a couple weeks since I had anyone give me a hug let alone to encourage me (I mean in real life.) Other than the people on this web site I have absolutely no support for standing for my marriage.

I also need favor in the eyes of referral sources that I am communicating with to rebuild my business. And I am praying God sends someone to share my office or opens the door for me to move the office somewhere less expensive.

Thank you.

(Oh, my friend "Bigheart" is having exactly the same problems. She lost the same contract, her husband has told her he wants a divorce, her friends (other than me) have left her side, she has a lot of debt and her health wasn't good to start with. So please say a prayer for "Bigheart" too. She asked me not to use her real name for privacy reasons.)


Posted by: JeriRose12

Dear Lord, help!!! Don't even know how to pray. Dear Lord, we cry out for breakthrough!!! Don't let thornygrace or Bigheart give up!!!

Lord, Lord, Lord... one thing on another on another on another -- no end in sight. It's so very hard. What can be done?

Send help, oh, Lord, in whatever form You can. Send support emotionally. Send finances. Send friends who are true and loyal. Dear Jesus, send all they need.

I pray that You will send the hope they need.

You know I felt only yesterday. And am going through much less.... Dear Lord, give us all the breaks we need, the hope and rest we need. The encouragement. Send someone who truly understands!!!

Know what, thornygrace? You are a prayer warrior, and prayer warriors are strange breeds! We tend to stand for stuff other people give up on!!! That's why you have friends here. We aren't quitters!!! My non warrior friends just don't get it. Why am I on here so much? Go to bed, get some sleep! Why can't I stay away? It takes an intercessor to know an intercessor!!! I'm sorry you have no supportive friends, except Bigheart (thank the Lord for her!!!), but be glad for your friends up here, because outside of this site I am little understood for my tenacity in prayer and my isolating to pray.

Your faithfullness is a huge encouragement to me!!! Keep standing!!!

Hallelujah!!! We prayer warriors are going to pray these breakhtroughs in!!!

~JeriRose~
Forever Grateful!!!