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Posted by: magellan63
Hi everyone,
I havent posted for a while now, I've just been on and off not feeeling led to post. I've seen many new "faces" here and some old "faces" seemend to have either been feeling the same way or have decided to "move on". God Bless those who have been the "mainstays" on this board, you should tuly be rewarded by God.
I have continued to reseach and even read the latest post on yet another "take" on when not continue standing for your marriage and just move on with what God has planned. I am at a point in this continuing trail where I have,since the beginning, said to God its Yours take it and do with it,i have spent the last 7 months waiting, enduring the occassional phone call with demands from Jodi, no change in her attitude towards me or our marriage. I spent 40 days prayng for her salvation, no breakthrough there either. I feel like her pawn...the only contact she has wit me to to verbalize what she needs to do for me in a very demanding tone and I have tried to be patient, kind etc., but at this point Im exhausted physically, mentally and spiritually. Ive even and I AM guilty of putting some distance between God and myself. Ive been silent, Ive yelled and declared war on satan Ive even given thought to just giving up totally, the problem I cant get Jodi out of my head and heart...I promised myself earlier this week I would no longer cry about her and our marriage....I failed miserably...I even came close to taking my life, in thought, this week. So I guess I will continue to pray and believe for those who need it....but my belief for us is but a smoldering ember....I dont know what I have or have not done to see, hear or experieice at least a little sign of "hope"
I have just reserved myself to compiling a list of questions to ask God when I see Him.
Take care of each other
God Bless
Troy
Posted by: Praying For Restoration
Hi Troy,
I'm so sorry you are hurting and going through so much.
When you wrote about praying for 40 days for her salvation, and that nothing happened, the thought that came to me is that we don't know what is happening in the spiritual realm. You may have opened up some really big stuff there for her that will bear fruit at the right time, in the right season.
I know that is not a great comfort when right now you are wanting your restoration and for your family to be put back together again.
The Lord is with you, hearing you, caring for every hurt and tender place in your heart.
Blessings and I'll be praying for you two,
Erika
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Posted by: czynka
Dear Troy, you are so precious to us all here, and when you hurt, then we all hurt.
I wish there was something i could say to make you feel better, i wish we could come to you, all of us, and all take turns to give you the biggest hug ever.
Lord, oh Lord please take Troy and hold him ever so carefully, tend to his pain and the deep deep hurt within him.
I dont know what Your plan is dear Father, but i do know that what You do is good, it is always good. Help him now because he feels lost, feelss confused, oh please straighten out his path, straighten his mind and put an end to the confusion and pain.
Rebuild his trust in You, take his hand and lead him down the road You have chosen for him. His eyes are closed, he knows not where he is going , but he trusts You. Take him further and let a new day dawn in his darkness, let the sun rise up to bring an end to the night. Show him his new day Lord, with new expectations, new enthusiasm, new hope. Lead him in Your will dear Lord, and please bring back the joy in his heart.
It is never too late for a spouse to return. Maybe it doesnt happen when we want it too...and we get sick of hearing it...but it IS and always will be, in Your time. We dont know Your plans for Jodi, but we do know tht this is a covenant they made before You, and You will continue to honour it. Lord, have Your way with Jodi....strip her clean of her sins as she comes to conviction. Turn her eyes to look at You, right at You, full-face...eye in eye with her mistakes...turn her heart to Youand back to Troy, in Jesus name.
Strip away all feelings of guilt if Troy feels he is not good enough to be called Your son. He is so precious, so loved and cherished...so much that You gave Your life for him. Touch his heart with Your nail-scarred hand, warm it with your love. Show him how precious he is and how You live every moment with him, Your tears mingling with his tears, your heart aching with his heart. Oh Lord, he is not any less for having these feelings of doubt or confusion....Your love will NEVER fade, or grow any less strong..never. Build up Troy's confidence Lord, give him renewed strength and just love him Lord. Please, just love him.
In Jesus name. Amen. Amen.
Bless you Troy....we are praying for you. Always. 
Posted by: all4jesus
Hello My Dear Friend Troy,
It has been awhile since we both have been on the board. It is no supurise we are back for it the leading of the Holy Spirit that has brought us back to the prayer board! My computer had been down for weeks since the end of Feb. Holy Spirit led me back last night when I got off work I came to the computer. Draw near and strength from our Lord Jesus who is with you always and those around you of God as well as strength from all here at annointed. net! The Lord led you back here for deep within your spirit He knows you are tired and your heart is for your marriage to work! God plan is for your marriage to be restore! It is His word in the bible and that is the authority in our lives! I know it can be hard at times not to doubt because we don't understand or see the signs we want or need at the time but our God's ways are higher & better than our own, His understanding superceedes ours so we can't always see nor figure out how He is working but believe He is working it out! He will not fail you so stay faithful to Him! I want to share with what the Holy Spirit is speaking to my heart right now! He knows the 7 months are a long time to you and He loves you and will contuine to see you through for He has went ahead of you to make the way for you and Jodi. Your miracle is coming from Heaven, He has heard your prayers & cries to Him and He wants you to know that your miracle is within YOU! For Greater is He that is in YOU than he that is in this world! Jesus our Holy Spirit lives inside of you and He is far greater, mightier than the devil in this world! It is you who have to receive His miracle and to do so you must keep believing in Him, His word & promises, worshiping, praising Him in good times and bad times. When you feel you can't go on or through anymore in your circumstances, feeling discouraged & doubtful and don't feel like praying is when you need to obey the Holy Spirit nudgings and continue to praise Him and pray for then your miracle and unfold! It is through the time when you just feel you can't do it anymore that it is so important to praise and sing to the Lord! I know this can be diffcult for this is what I too have had to overcome. Don't let Satan steal your miracle for your marriage! I have been separated from my husband for 22 months now and it is hard as well as satan has tried to discourage me, I am watching the Lord work my miracle. It is a process just as being pregnant is, so remember there will be a delivery to you too! Just don't give up! God says He will answer before we even release the prayer! He has answered your prayer already and your marriage is Healed in His eyes! Start thanking Him and worshiping & praising Him for who He is and He will allow you to see the manifestations of your prayer that He already has answered! No matter what others say or do or what you think you see with Jodi remember He is faithful and loving & has answered your call for help! You can make it through this for the Lord is bringing you through and I know in my heart Jodi will come home to you! Bless you my friend and stay strong in the word! Love, Dawn
Dear Heavenly Father, In the precious Name of Jesus I come to you Lord now for you to reach down from the Heavens and touch Troy's heart letting him believe and trust in you fully that you are a Awesome God who is faithful and keeps His word! I thank you Father that you have made Troy and Jodi whole again with each other and YOU! I thank you father that there is no strife between them but love! That with you they have become one flesh again til death does them part! I praise your sweet name for healing and restoring of their marriage and letting them be a testimoney to your greatness for Your Glory and Honor! I thank you father for giving strength and courage, wisdom, knowledge, understanding to Troy and for giving Jodi the desire to serve you Lord and that she has given her heart, soul and body back to her husband of her youth! I thank you Lord for this precious miracle you have given! I thank you for your Word that it will never fail and you will never leave us! Glory to you Lord! In Jesus name. Amen Amen
Posted by: koppen
You must trust in the Lord, for it is not in our understanding but His. His will will be done....Sometimes we don't understand why things happen but it all happens for a better purpose wether we see it or not. Ask God to comfort you and rest in His peace... It is in God's timing not ours... I feel your pain and I am praying for you... Rest in His peace.... Lay it all down at God's feet.... Let go and Let God...and then watch Him work...
I hope that my words are encouraging to you....Be strong in the Lord... Draw closer to Him and His word....worship Him....
Your sister in Christ
Kelli
Posted by: magellan63
Thanks for the kind words of support!
I just am still at the same point....last night after over o week of no contact, the emails and a phone call with the same old "demands" and requests for PROMPT action....including Jodi deciding now that she will not "honor" the agreement she wrote, submitted to the court and agreed to honor in front of the judge....putting a greater "burden" on me.
I wonder, when is ENOUGH!. I prayed last night that God forgive her, give me the continued strength to forgive her and not become hateful, she enjoys pushing the envelope and my last nerve to the extreme. I also said that I didnt understand what He was doing or had planned but I was to the point of saying God, "I think "its time" to stop standing and look in a new direction. I have been faithful to Jodi during our marriage and the last 7 months we have been "apart" enduring VERY lonely times especially weekends...and the human side of my needs to feel loved. So I will let happen in my life what God wants to happen. I also know that I am human and I will not spend the rest of the time God allows me on this earth to be without someone, I just can no longer look at living that way.
Forgive me Lord, if this is wrong!
Take care of all of you
Troy