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Noise and Trouble

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Posted by: Praying For Restoration

Hi!

You all know the basic story -- hearing is a week from tomorrow for a final divorce action. (Final in the world's eyes, that is!) I'm still trusting and believing the Lord to deliver our family from this mountain of divorce and separation and for a miraculous healing of our marriage and family.

I see the Lord working. In the vigil thread there is an update to an answer to prayer that my daughter would speak out to her father over the weekend about how she truly feels about the divorce. She did, praise the Lord! And now the request is that he have a father's heart and truly allow himself to feel it, and to be easily entreated.

Suddenly there are some other "troubles" that feel like "noise" to me. Annoying, static-y, distracting and upsetting. My new neighbor below me is complaining about noise when all I'm doing is softly walking across my bedroom floor to turn out the light! She has come up twice now, very upset and telling me how I'm ruining her life, and then last night she was banging on the ceiling very hard everywhere my feet went. She is young and incredibly difficult to talk to. I stay up late a lot to pray, and now I feel very unpeaceful in my own *temporary* home. And honestly, I'm one of the quietest neighbor's you'll ever have. The building is old and the floor is creaky. I'm having some troubles relating with people too and some recent troubles here at anointed are upsetting me quite a bit. The people I was nannying for didn't need me for the month of April, then they wanted me back in May. I reserved myself for them, and did not look for other work. Then I called last week to get the schedule and they never returned my call. They were going to be my reference for other jobs. I am actually glad it didn't work out as I feel such a need to pray right now, but I do need the work and I'm just feeling kind of "off" about it, wondering what happened and why they aren't even telling me what the problem was.

It is weird. Just weird that stuff like this popped up RIGHT NOW. RIGHT NOW when sleep is harder to come by, and I really need peace, my support system, and comfort.

Any thoughts as to why this is happening -- NOW? I have wondered if some of it comes as a test from the Lord to see how I'll handle things. To strengthen me in preparation for restoration. I mean, with my neighbor, my flesh wants to run down there, and yell at her to say that her banging on my floor when all I did was take seven steps across the floor is more disturbing to my peace than my walking was to hers. The Lord, of course, stops me, and I'm bowing to His sovereignty there. This girl needs the Lord. I can tell she does, and I may be the only Jesus she ever sees. I used to be someone who felt and reacted. Felt and reacted. That is a large part of what went wrong in my marriage. So now I'm trying really hard not to just react, but to pray, and to seek the Word for direction on how to behave. It is very opposite of my personality, but I want to bow to the Lord's direction in all things and be pleasing to Him.

Job disappears? Forgive and trust. I found myself running through scenarios in my head today if I should run into them at church (big church, never seen them there before except to meet and say hello when they hired me). The Lord is my provider, not a job, and He is sovereign in my life and must have had a reason for this to fall through. Besides, you never know what happened. They could have had a death in their family or something and be out of town suddenly. The father works in another state, and all of their family is far away. But then I start thinking about it again . . . LOL

Any thoughts? Anyone else have something like this happen to them? I'm thinking it MUST have some significance in regards to how close to the hearing it is happening.

Blessings,

Erika
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Posted by: A.Sturgill

PFR,

All of this "weird stuff" is no fluke, you are being given a test I believe. The Lord will open a door for a job, if that's the need. The neighbor is being used, I believe that. It sounds like you are handling things in a positive way! You go, keep the faith, keep believing, God is with you right now and will be.

I am praying for your family and for victory to be yours. Your daughter will be fine, she is covered in prayer. You have the strength, just use it for good as you are now. There are no accidents here on earth and I think good will come from the trials you are having. I claim that for you. Sing praise and victory!!! I keep praying, you hang in there!!

Love, Ann


Posted by: shalu

Wow, if I may ever be so bold to say this, because the sense I got when I read this is not only that these things might be happening as a test to prepare you for restoration, but the greater sense I got is that well.....HE IS PREPARING YOU FOR RESTORATION. As in the sense of not getting to comfortable where you are right now. Creating the "slight" event of the downstairs neighbor, not only to to show the Lord to her, but so that you don't get too comfortable in where you are staying. And the no job thing? So you don't get too comfortable where you are...

And even with the people, not being able to relate to people very well, with that, it isn't not to stop talking to these people or anything like that, prayerfully uplift the situations you have discussed, giving them to to the Lord, and just not to get into a comfort zone because the Lord is going to widen your horizons.....

wow, wow, wow...pray about it, PFR and see what the Lord reveals to you, but I see him dealing with all areas of comfort...

Shalu