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There is a sift occuring in my marriage for good or for bad, please pray.

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Posted by: thornygrace

My husband has checked his email again in less than two weeks it has been twice. This is very unusual. Perhaps he isn't in Italy anymore, or perhaps he is about to make a big decision. (Or both.)

He has been into my email account and deleted an e-greeting he had sent to me at Easter. I don't know why he would do this, but I didn't and it is gone. Then I noticed that there I had a lot of things in the "trash" at the email site that are missing.

He has done this before and I am not upset about it. (We have an understanding about email being not private from one another.) However, the fact that he is doing this tells me that something is shifting.

He has deleted email he sent me before and when he did it was email that had some very bad things in it. After sending it, he changed his mind and even apologized in case I had read them before he deleted them. I think that is what happened. i think he was trying to delete something bad that he had sent me and had gone back and accidently deleted too much.

And I did check his email and noticed that he had deleted an email I had sent him recently but kept another one there.

So I know for sure that he has been on line and doing something. However, he hasn't communicated anything to me.

A part of me is excited. I think that this could be a breakthrough. He didn't send me a "good bye" email. And if he did, he changed his mind.

I believe that he is right now at a cross roads, he is nearly able to return home to me and is trying to decide if he will or not. (And I think God is telling me that I am right about this.)

God has told me to pray and pray like I have never prayed before. I plan to pray all day tomorrow and to fast and to pray at church tomorrow night (although I might go to a different church than my own to find a praying focused session instead of mine which is praise and worship focused but I will see what God wants.)

Please send me extra prayers right now. I really feel like a break through is immanent (sp) and that he may be home very soon.

On the other hand, he might go the other direction. We have some time limits and if he doesn't come home at one point he will not be allowed back in the US for many many more years as he will lose his immigration status. (And will not be eligible for even a visitor visa).

I also believe that my husband is being negatively influenced by two men. (God has shown this to a friend of mine and I think he showed it to me too.) At least one of the men are not family. These man have a hidden agenda and they do not want him to return to America because they want him to do something for them that is not really on the up and up. (Again, this is something a friend of mine says she saw in prayer and I feel she is right.) My husband is not saved (as far as I know) and he may not be as open to the influence of God (In other words, he might not hear God's voice and direction as I might.) However, God influenced Pharao who was clearly not saved and there are other examples of God influencing people who are not His people.

Please pray for protection for my husband, especially for protection for his mind.


Posted by: Copper

Father God, I come to you right now, and first wish to ask forgiveness for any sins I committed today. Lord, I want to be clea so you will hear me right now. God, please heal this man. God, I am asking for a breakthrough, that he come to You. Lord, send someone into his midst whom will help to lead him to You. God, first and foremost we want him to know You., and then Lord, if it be your will, bring him back to our dear friend thornygrace. God, please keep him safe, place a hedge of thorns around him. Lord, we trust in you to do these things, Lord, bring strength to mysister, to continue to endure and stand, and Lord show her some special way tomorrow to have some fun seperate of this. Lord, I see her praaying and going to church to worship you, but Father, send a special friend to knock upon her door and bring a bit of laughter. Thank you Jesus, amen.

hey chick, so r u fasting until 8 pm each day, after 8 u eat?
i'm with ya if u want some umph i got your back chick!!!
just let me know the details, luv ya, kimbo


Posted by: thornygrace

Yes Kim, this is the fast I did before. I have some health problems and this is a fast that I think is safe for me. I fast from the moment I wake up in the morning until 8 pm at night. I can start cooking something but can't taste or eat anything until 8 pm. (I picked 8 pm as I was going with sunset but now we have day light savings time so I just picked the time.) I try to keep the evening meal something that doesn't take a lot of work to fix or clean up so that my focus is still on God.

(Although during this fast I will be doing housework, but like someone here said, I will dedicate the housework to preparation for my husband's return.)

I will drink anything I want. If I get really uncomfortable, I drink half a slim-fast shake. But other wise I drink lemonaide, water and even soda and milk. (I'm not a tea or coffee drinker and I have some juice but tend to drink it sparingly to keep costs down.)

I start the day with prayer and then go and do something for a while and then pray some more and I try to spend time reading biblical material (My bible reading is usually done at night before I fall asleep as I am reading the bible in a year.) I watch Christian shows on TV and listen to Christian radio or tapes and I come here to this site and other Christian sites, but I avoid secular stuff. And I run errands for a little bit each day. I plan to work out at the health club tomorrow and then Friday. (I don't work again until Monday.)

There is a job I am applying for in the next day or so as well and some papers for work I have to take care of but that wouldn't be for more than an hour a day.

I am not expecting any company to stop over. I am having my mother over on Sunday but the fast is over when I wake up Saturday morning.

(My mother is not supportive of my standing so I am not looking forward to it. I have decided not to tell anyone in "real life" about my intuition that my husband is about to come home. I get so tired of my mother saying"Sometimes God says 'No'" This is her way of being negative and she is getting worse and worse about it. She will then go on and criticize my husband and say I am better off without him. I am just going to stay quiet about this and let my husband's return home speak for itself. Then she will see the power of prayer! And when my marriage is healed I have told God that I will start a support group and do some teaching at local churches about the power of standing for marriages and help them to see that our churches need to stop only offering support for divorce. We need support for marriages in trouble. (My church does support marriage but with enrichment classes and workshops which is good, but does little for the more serious problems.)

God and I have talked about it. I want to do this support group and teaching stuff outside my work so that I get no profit directly from it. I just want to do something to wake up these churches and help them to see that they are allowing for a bitter root! It is time to do some serious weeding for the Lord is coming back to a church that is pure and spotless in the eyes of the Lord! We need to stop the enemy from taking our marriages. This effects our families and the family is the heart of the church! NO MORE!!!!

(oh, sorry, got up on that soap box again.)


Posted by: Copper

Thorny, I am with you!
okedoke, well, then, we will fast next 3 days for the marriages again, but me primarily for u and carrie ann and a few others, but will also focus on my list.
hey sweetie, i think the church support group is a great idea, i too have felt that God wants my husband and i to do something like that when he "returns" emotionally to me. anyway, um, sounds terrific! i agree, that churches have allowed this to go on too long, i wouldn't mind doing something like what the rejoiceministries have done, but of course have to wait on God. i too have felt led to help and minister to people whom have lost loved ones, due to my parent's death.
anyway, have to get my children off to school, just know i'm with you fasting and praying, i have to work, but get on my knees in the stock room often.

luv ya, kimberly


Posted by: thornygrace

Hope you are feeling less depressed Copper.

I woke up this morning very hungry. It is like a test.

I have been praying and praying and reading and doing not much else. I always feel so tired and weak when fasting.

I have been praying for favor. I pray for wives to be seen with favor by their husbands and for husbands to be seen with favor by wives.

I felt really led to pray this way. I know that my anger toward my husband and my hurt has not helped the situation (although I do understand that these feelings are natural and don't condemn myself for having them.) But I have this new found warmth feeling for my husband in the last couple days. I don't even feel angry with him... even when I start to think about the situation, I don't get angry. I used to get so very angry that I would walk around my empty house and yell at my husband. I would think of how when he came back he was going to "have to make this up to me."

And I started confessing this attitude to God and correcting it and the other day I prayed that my husband would see me in a favoirable light whenever he thought of me. I prayed that he would feel unconditional love from me. Then I prayed that I could give my husband unconditional love. And suddenly it hit me... I needed to pray to see my husband in a favorable light too.

I am not capable of forgiving him myself. That is beyond me. But God can work forgiveness out inside of me and with His Spirit, I can forgive my husband.

I have been thinking a lot about the story of the Prodigal Son and then blending that story into the story of Job. I don't know why I wanted to combine them but I did.

I am going to post this all seperately so that I can get other people's views on it. So look elsewhere.

I also saw something for Carrie-Ann this morning while praying for her but God has not given me permission to tell her just yet. (It isn't bad.)

When I do this kind of fast it seems that I hear more clearly from God. But then, I also focus more on praying in tongues and I was reading today a book by Joyce Myers that mentioned out speaking in tongues edify's our spirit and helps us communicate better with God. I think that is why I see things differently when fasting and praying in tongues (or even just praying in tongues.)