Prayer Board Requests - Under attack since Jan., need rescued, please pray for Gods intervention

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Originally Posted by Kristie

Husband, Kevin, salvation, break the spirit of pride & sin within him, remove unGodly people & things from his life, transform into a Godly man, husband, father, leader & provide of this househould. Marriage healing, restored closeness & love between us, God centered relationship. Financial blessing - restored blessing & prosperity with my book sales. Car to sell quickly for relief of bank debt & quickly enough to obtain much needed sales tax credit. Son, Corey, healing of injured leg (hurt at work, ran over from behind by forklift driven by owners son - they are trying to get out of responsibility for care also) & return home to family (he ran off with girl met on internet (first time on his own, first time to work, only worked one week & was hurt, not even eating - no food, we need him home and safe, living a life for God instead of shacking up with girl he just met 7 living this way). Daughter, Danielle, free from addictions of iv drugs & the bad relationship keeping her bound to drugs, become responsible Godly mom to her two babies, good job, good home, & God bring her the helpmate He would designate for her, a Christian man that will give her & babies stability. Step-son, Kevin Jr., salvation & respect for others. All my children be knowingly saved & hold close walk with the Lord. Protection of my mothers health that she may be here with us for a long time to come yet. Acceptance and healing for myself in the tragic senseless death of my father on Jan. 11th, and something from God to let me know my dad is with Him in Heaven. I led him to Christ on his death bed, but he could not talk, he was on a ventilator. I had no way to know if he was reconciled to Christ, if he loved and forgave me for missing out on spending time with him the last month of his life. Right before he went into unconsciousness, he kept looking up at the ceiling, then immediately to me, then the ceiling again, and back to me. His eyes looked so wounded. I have not been dealing with his death and how it happened, why it happened. Following his death seem to come a steady stream of attack on every area of my life, every loved one in my life. Sept., my husband cheated on me and moved in with other woman. He returned home in Nov., we stayed away from parents because dad was having hard time being around him due to how he had done me. Dad collapsed Dec. 19th, and died Jan. 11th..I never got to hear his voice again. They kept him sedated throughout time until end, and then he could not speak or move. He died from staph infection in his lungs that he got due to negligent care of hospital staff, they carried it into him. Since, husband has turned back on God again, marriage has suffered, son has ran off and he was my only help here at home as I am disabled and husband does nothing to help. Raising daughters baby due to state took her from daughter. Now she has moved in on me as well and still a mess, pregnant again, yet another load for me to take on. Stepson is also back slidden and goes out of his way to break the house rules, defying authority and disrespecting me. I support all of them, no one contributes to the bills or helps around the house. God blessed me with writing a book to support the home, and blessed me abundantly for the past year, overflowing financial blessing, but the past three weeks sales have cut in half to almost subsided, and I am going under financially as well. The enemy keeps infiltrating my life, family, non stop attack from every direction. I need Gods help, rescue and a permanent change, the enemys hands removed from my life, family and loved ones. I have prayed day and night for God to intervene, have rebuked the enemy day and night, fasted in prayer, and it goes on and on it seems without end. I need a breakthough, I am weary and faint from the battle, tears daily, feeling broken of spirit, hopeless, wondering where God is, why is He not coming to my crys of desparate need for help.

God promises me my household as a child of His, & His healing of things in my life, prosperity, protection, joy, peace. I ask for prayer agreement from my brothers & sisters in Christ as I claim all that God promises me in the precious name of Jesus. Myself, my home, family have been under this attack. God rebuke the enemy - tearing down the strongholds once and for all bringing permanent transformations in husband & children, and our household. God, defend your me as Your beloved daughter. Restore to me in double portions what the enemy has stolen in all areas of my life. All praise, honor & glory be to God. I love You Lord, please rescue me, Your faithful servant and child, quickly I pray. Amen

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Originally Posted by Kristie

Thank you so much Scarlet. I have tried to get on the board several times over the past months, and Jerry has asked me to keep up my prayer help, which I would have done, but I could not access the board for some reason. I finally just went to re-register today to be able to get on, and it then told me I was already registered and finally accepted my password. Probably just another venue of blockage by the enemy all this time.

It is hard to keep up the fight when it seems to go on so long, 3-4 years total now for me with marriage problems and husband walking away from the Lord, and the enemy keeps bombarding you, up and down, back and forth..and it seems I am the only one who gets hurt and damaged from it all...all the adultery. The word says you reap what you sow. I try to sow good, my husband sows all this adultery not only to me but to God when he turns to other things over God, but yet he seems to flourish financially and not a care in the world, and I am constantly fighting off the enemy on my side, finances, children, illness, parents..all angles. Sometimes I feel like I am reaping what he has sown and he reaps what I sow...we seemed to be turned around when it comes to this word. Pastor made a statement in church last Weds to the men about they need to be very careful how they treat Gods daughters, that it is not wise to do harm to a daughter of God, you will get the wrath of God over it. Seems all my husband gets is forgiveness and smooth sailing. And that is okay, that is what I have wanted for him..if he would just stay grounded and learn from it..but he doesnt, he goes on to do it again over and over. I beg God for protection from my husband hurting me, but I get slammed over and over by his actions and deeds. I cannot help but wonder if just one time he suffered the wrath of God for his actions, really hit something serious, such as life threatening disease related to his sin of adultery to prove to him that his sin will reap him harm, that he would really permanently fall to his knees and know without a doubt that God is God and he better stop testing Him over and over like he does. I love him and I do not want harm to come to him, but I have come to the point that I will welcome anything that will get him right with God and keep him that way, even if it shortens his life...if he dies right with God, that is better then dying in his sin eventually as he surely will do! Even I have plead with God to take my life for Kevins, that I would give my life, welcome death, if it would serve to bring Kevin into a permanent relationship with God. Whatever it takes, it would be worth it to know my husband is right with God! Obviously sliding on through on forgiveness and grace is not grounding him...he walks right for a month or so and then is right back with the unGodly doing the unGodly, committing adultery against me and God again. I do not know if he has cheated on me, but there is nothing going on here, I can tell you that..nothing since Jan. and very sparse between Nov and Jan. Our extent of physical contact consists of a peck on the cheek. It angers me more that he is committing adultery against God by dropping out of church again and on Sunday mornings choosing to go hand out all day with his drug addict, unGodly band friends instead of giving the Lord His time. John Haggee made the comment that if you are more comfortable sitting with the unGodly then you are sitting with the family of God, it means you are not a member of the family of God. This is my husband. He will not have anything to do with our brothers and sisters in Christ, refuses their invites, barely speaks to them when he did go to church..jumping up and leaving quickly, ready to go. But he spends eight plus hours every weekend day with the heathens. He has started smoking pot again, and cigarettes..he quit those years ago! The dust grows heavy on the new Bible I gave him when he gave his life back to Christ in November. For the first month he had his nose bured in it daily..not if sits unattended..like I do. I do not understand how someone can be so shallow with God.

One thing I can say is that my faith has been tested to its limits with my dad mostly and then all this following behind. I have never failed to stick close to the Lord, and never have been down and out enough that I did not dance and sing in worship to Him. I very much know from all of this that I cannot be waivered in my relationship with the Lord by anything the enemy brings at me, our relationship is solid and nothing can come between me and my Father God. I may not understand, and I may even voice anger to Him at times, but I cannot be shaken from Him. I feel blessed for that. I am tired though...very tired of fighting all the time, fighting off these attacks, praying through them..I just want to know some joy and peace in the Lord..that is what He promises us, I just want to see the promise manifest once and for all and stay with me.

I have just really come to the point of "No more!", I am tired of fighting, of feeling this heart ache all the time and no joy or peace which is rightfully mine being a child of God. I have the right to a Godly husband and helpmate as His daughter. I need God to stop all this one way or the other and for good. I am totally open to His will be done! Whatever it may be, whatever it takes to find happiness. I want to finally be able to move on from this burden to other things..to be able to grow because I am finally and forever released from the same old bondages put upon me by someone elses actions.

I need God to put His foot on the devil and bind him from my loved ones permanently..no more falling to the side or dropping out. No more forsaking God for idols and the unGodly. No more being blinded and decieved by the enemy. I need rooting for my loved ones...deep rooting and a walk that cannot be touched..like I have with God. I need that same level from my mate..or higher, as he is intended to be the leader! Seems I pray them to their knees, God forgives them, the seed is planted..but then it never roots and off they go and we are right back at this same battle. I am tired of fighting the same old battle for the same people over and over, it is draining me and they are just having a free for all, never a care or worse yet, a fear of what their sin will bring them. No fear of the Lord whatsoever...which to me is mocking His word, His power. Sometimes I just want to let go of them instead, but then God quickly reminds me to keep fighting. Seems He is silent in the battle, seems like He is not here, until I throw my hands up and want to quit, then He is right here telling me no, I cannot quit. I need God to take hold of them, take this burden from me, God deal with them once and for all...or free me from the responsibility of fighting for them, especially my husband. I feel like my life is passing away without love or companionship, without a helpmate..and I am very sad and lonely. Like I am a single person with no hope of ever having someone who loves me and shares my life, no hope because I am married even if you could never tell it by our relationship which is more on the level of roommates or at most brother and sister. If he cannot root and be the child of God he should be, the husband he should be..then remove him and God bring me a real helpmate. Everytime I pray this, God quickly shows me I am to stay with Kevin..not leave him..but it goes on and on..and this sadness is overwhelming. I need God to move upon this, win the battle so victoriously that the sword never need be picked up again to fight this one. Others are sure to come, that will always be..but I cannot get off this same old battle field to fight any others, and I fight alone instead of as a family because they are all off playing somewhere!

Sorry for all the outpouring...seems all I can do is vent..wait and vent, wait and vent, everyday a struggle to keep going on with it all. I know God will prevail though. Never doubt Gods power, never doubt what He can do..just fret over if He will do it and when He will do it...how many more years..I am a my whits end here. This is not a case of whining over waiting a week or a month..this is years, I need a reprieve..need to move on with God. It would have been easier if He would have never bought Kevin back home then to bring him home and we start this saga all over again for the umpteenth time. Enough already! Please God, enough....

Thank you again for your kind words and prayer. I hope you recieved the answers to your prayers that we were praying over. :-)