Pages: 1
pray for a hypocrite
(Click here to view the original thread with full colors/images)
Posted by: DarkSkies
I know someone who is the most biggest hypocrite when it comes to religion.
It is a man who promised me many things and I believed him because he was a devoted man of God... a typical catholic which I thought you could trust... he lied he loved me for 15 months and then he forced himself opon me... which I was so traumatised in the earlier months to properly tell these boards what really happened and blurted it out making everyone see a different picture to what really happened.
He told me he will marry me and stay with me forever because I am too good to be true... his perfect wife like his Beulah.
Then after a while he confessed to me there was never any love in his heart for me this was 2 weeks after he forced himself upon me and I must stress to you all it was good enough to be called rape the way my virginity was took... but at the time I loved him so much I couldn't bring myself to reporting it.
Because he had forced himself upon me and he said he loved me I allowed him many other times to take me as he pleased because promises of marriage were still there... but ofcourse when he confessed there was no love for me u can imagine how I felt... I was 21yrs old when he took me... I was serious that the 1st man who takes me will be the last... he dumped me a year ago maybe longer by a couple of weeks... still kept to my promises that 1st is last and I want children... but I want justice and I would not be decent if I allowed another man to touch my body in that manner I am in a way quite prudish about that.
I say Gene which is his name... is a hypocrite to God because after he dumped me he confessed time after time - each time he took me he would go to the church and pray to god for forgiveness of his lies and Gene even confessed he did it so often he couldn't be bothered with God anymore... he thinks God will not bring justice to him for me because he said sorry to god many times after what he did to me - but he did it so often...
What I am basically trying to say here is... I think a true man of God, wouldn't go to a church and lie to God I am sorry, and wont do it again and forgive me and then go back and do it time after time... then give up and get on with his life with another woman or a bachelor... a true man of God would do things in the way God would want...
and i believe god would want Gene to do the right thing... and that is... yes ok... confess to god he has sinned and ask for forgiveness... but to also... punish himself for the sins he did against me with his lies and other sins he had done... steal, lie, cheat... punish himself for accepting he had lied to me and keeping me no matter what to make God proud of him and to show him he truly repents of what he had done to me... not only will that prevent me from sinning by finding a man who would be faithful to me and allow me to maintain my decency for allowing Gene to be the 1 and only man in my life sexually... but I am sure than would cleanse himself too???
God will see then... when Gene comes back to me that he truly repents of the sins he prayed to god for....
if he continues without this reconsiliation I am afraid for Gene... because he has lied directly to our lord.... and that is worse than lying to any mortal man wouldn't u agree?
wouldn't u think God would see true repetance in Gene if Gene lived his life back with me and punishing himself for the lies and stuff he put me trhough and taking my innocense and pride... and say god thinks he had truly repented?
I think u would agree if you are truly a Gods person a religious person who has true faith in the lord our god.
and u would pray for Gene to return so he does purify his soul and truly repent... I would beg of you... if you are a man or woman of god... than you would urge the lord to ask Gene to truly repent and come back to me to not be hypocritical.
My name is Tina Cousins... this man is Genebrardo Quispe-flores.
Thankyou.
And I hope you are like men of God and see this is true repetenance.
Posted by: ANOINTED WARRIOR
Hi darkskies you seem very frustrated and angry with all that has happened in your life with this man. Wont you say this prayer with me: Jesus I come to you as I am and ask that you save me from all that I am going through, I cast all my cares and burdens onto you even now and leave them there the best I know how, let your forgiveness and love wash away all my sins, may you even now come into my heart as friend and saviour, let your Holy Spirit as well come into my heart,spirit,soul and body filling me with your fire anointing to overflowing...
Posted by: czynka
Wow !!!
Darkskies there is a whole lot of bitterness there ! And i didnt even finish reading your post.
Its time you took your eyes off of Gene and got them on to Jesus sister! Only YOU are responsible for your actions. Just as Gene is responsible for his. God has seen every little detail of what happened...and He also says "Vengeance is mine". It is not your job or responsibility to bring this man to justice in God's eyes, no matter what he has done. Stating the facts is fine, but it seems to have taken on the form of an obsession .
Darkskies, you alone are responsible for your walk with the Lord, and that has nothing to do with this man. I know you're hurting and feeling ashamed, but the Lord forgives if we confess with a sincere heart. Take care of your relationship with Him, because one day we all have to give an account of ourselves to Him, you , me and also Gene. Let the Lord take care of him...you just get your life back in order with God and don't let the past weigh you down. You have to try to move on, so take the hand Jesus is holding out to you and let Him lead you on to the path He has waiting for you.
Let God deal with Gene. Let the Lord deal with this hatred and bitterness in your heart sis, before it takes root .......God will help you.
If you let Him.
He is asking you to forgive as He forgives you.
He loves you and so do we.
God bless you 
Posted by: Tatian
Darkskies you should ask and have agreement with a pastor (preferably a woman) to be restored of your honour lost in sex outside of marriage. God restores all losses and provides the best partners to young women. Whatever your virginity was worth can be given back to you. Now that you have gone through sexual contact you are married in spirit to Gene. He should obey Moses law and marry you if your father permits it.
You want him to come to love you now as he said he did but he never really did? Is that what is best for you? Or for God's glory? Or your family (your dad)?
I think you should violently and strongly apprehend the kingdom of God. Go for what God has for you. Seek first the kingdom and all these other things will be added to you as well. Matthew.
If I were you Darkskies I would pray for a spiritual divorce and ask for the man God planned on me to meet instead of the one that found me and used me. You are worth dying for!
When Jesus was being killed for His friends, He suffered immense dishonour... They ripped of His clothes and stretched Him out onto wood and nailed Him there and hung Jesus on the cross. He was cursed for us being hung apon a tree. All man's sins went into Him. He was made sin who knew no sin so that in Him we may be the righteousness of God. 2Cor 5:21. It was like and in excess of forced sex experience. From our sins His body was warped like a root out of dry ground, the Romans thought Him smitten (bashed) by God. Their spit was all over Him.
Jesus was pure absolutely, magnifying the ignominy and horror of many trillions of sins going into him. Jesus took our sins so we can be righteous. Pray for the exchange, to have His righteousness. Remember the promise of beauty for ashes? God loves you. I think you are precious and now pray with you for Gene's repentance and also for God's kingdom concerning you, for his will (plan), holiness (light and love) to live in you. May you experience God's love. And have His honour and righteousness ten times your losses, amen.
Jesus blood is the blood of the highest reality and this has by His divine work the power to remove sins and wash us from all the bad deeds and dishonour (lesser realities). Spirit, soul and body, cleansed, imputed with Christ's likeness, his righteousness and it claims that to which it is applied or sprinkled on for God's own possesion and use. He calls it clean and then we shall agree with the truth Himself.
Also when you receive Christ and are born again all things are made new. You can be a virgin again.
God overlays and overlays the sin and other irritations with more and more righteousness. Like pearl over sea debris !! Get pearly Tina!
Posted by: Tatian
I think Gene may be despondent from the lack of salvation in the traditions of the church, as I was. We learned morals but lacked discipline and only had our own strength. Only our own wisdom and the priests'. From confession to confession, the same sins. Wanting salvation, wanting out from sin, wanting forgiveness and a clear conscience. Afectung.
Pray for yourself, and Gene later, for the Holy Spirit to come in and give divine strength and salvation in the heart with continually more of the Spirit each week. We need that for salvation! Salvation from sin and other things. Jesus blood in quiet moments. Only God can give us repentance and confession by itself is not enough. Ask God to reveal Himself to yourself, also to Gene and I agree for a rebuke, conviction in heart and repentance with the incoming of the Spirit. Amen.
Look also for a foot up from a Spirit filled preacher. Get prayed for to receive the Spirit. Ask and prepare your heart. Read Bible promises...
Posted by: Tatian
How are things with you now Darkskies, any better?