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Need help with marriage

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Posted by: Yamaira007

Father God I need help with my marriage- my husband and I whom is my highschool sweetheart (even though he didn't go to the same high school - nor was in highschool when we met) had a huge fallout while we were coming home tonight- I cannot stand his lieing sister. I can't believe a word she says - and he inhales everything she says no matter how far fetch it is. She lied on me in the past over something serious (calling her other brother a molester) and then pointed the finger at me. I don't think I will ever had that settle in my stomach correct. We have so much on our hands right now trying to get a home (his grandmother's home) and right now we don't need his sister's drama. Because she isn't getting enough attention. She is the only girl and you have to take in what she says with a grain of salt. I don't talk to her no more - because she will twist whatever you say or don't say. So I feel like I am safe not being bothered with her no more- blocked her emails and have a new cellphone where she can't reach me. She dont' call the house phone no more because she is afraid that I will pick up the phone - and she knows how I still feel about that lie she started claiming that I was the source of it. Which hurted because the brother it was about I stood up for -- now I am a piece of ******** to him.

I hate arguing with my husband but sometimes I wonder about him. I wonder about our marriage. I think I am not suppose to have an oppion with this marriage. So from now on I will keep to myself and won't say anything to him. He goes out all the time with his "friends" do I think he is cheating ? not sure. Ex girlfriend whom claim he has a baby by whom he won't do a dna testing with but did it with our baby and his first baby - this ex girlfriend is writing him letters stating for his eyes only. Whats up with that? And that they need to sit down and talk and that if need be she will take off from work and come down here ( we live in different states nearly 2 hours drive difference) and have a talk with him alone. And I am not suppose to be worried?

Haven't gotten my monthly cycle yet either. And when I brought that to his attention a few weeks ago he said right away I better not be pregnant. But next week I will be a full month late. I took one ept but it was too early I think. He said I took one test and it said that I was negative. But I know my body. I was pregnant early this year and he wore me down about money issues and that he didn't have a job and that where we are living at isn't alot of space - etc etc. And God Forgive me but I had an abortion earlier this year and was so happy because I thought we was going to go through the pregnancy he was rubbing my stomach and kissing my belly and even picked out a name if I had continued on and the baby would have been a girl. Mercedes. Now when its time for to purchase a house he gets up off his behind and gets a job in less than two weeks. Why couldn't he find a job that quick when I told him I was pregnant before. I am afraid to take another test. Because I have a feeling that I am . he claims that it is because of all the stress of purchasing his grandmother's house.

I don't know what to do with this marriage and I don't know what to do if I find out if I am. I can't talk to anyone in my family or in his. I wouldn't know who to turn to - I feel like laying down my head and just dieing. Because I the main person I thought I could turn to I can't. I love my husband but he don't listen to me nor does he take heed of what I say to him.I registered for online college to get my AAS in Business Management today. I wanted to tell him - but that wouldn't raise too much from him anyhow. I am sorry for this letter being so long - I just have so much on my heart and in my head that it hurts because I have no one to turn to physically that I can talk to. As I sit here - he is in the bedroom sleep and I am sitting here alone again near tears with no one to wipe them away. Please pray for us --- thankyou

Michelle H.


Posted by: shalu

Michelle,

Wow, as I began to read your post I just felt such a heaviness surrounding your situation. How hard it must be for you right now, the sorry and the loss of your dear sweet child. Yet I am so glad that you posted your request, and as you lay down all around you, lift your eyes up to the heaven and proclaim Him Lord of Your life, His goodness and mercy, inviting him into your life and into your situation, you will begin to fill a lifting of this heaviness. Receive the forgiveness of your sins, and allow the Lord to fill You with the Holy Spirit. I am not saying that all in your life will just fall into place, (deliverance could happen immediately or could take some time, it is the Season and the timing of the Lord our God) allow the Lord to do a mighty work in you, raising you up to be a Godly wife towards your husband and Godly mother towards your children, praying every day for your husband to be the man of God he is called to be and praying over your children. Be aware of the small changes, keep your eyes on Jesus and He will walk you through this situation and through your life, from Season to Season to Season, building you up, teaching you, guiding you, sending you out, healing, mending, and delivering you. Dig deep into His Word, read the Psalms, read the Proverbs, read how the Lord delivers his people, casts out demons, has given us, His precious children, to stand on HIS promises, has given us authority to cast out and bind and loose.

You need to place your trust in the Lord, now more than ever, that He will take care of your little baby inside you, your precious children the Lord has given to you, these precious little gifts from the Lord. Focus on the Lord, allowing Him to deliver you and your family from what satan intends to destroy, the Lord will turn for your good!!!!!!! Find a church to be planted in, get in the Word, listen to praise music and keep coming here for prayer!!!!! We love you and are praying for you and your family!

Shalu


Posted by: shalu

Michelle,

I wanted to know that I read your PM and for some reason I am unable to send you a PM. I am not at home at the present time so this evening I will check again and try to respond via PM.

Feel free to email me, I think it is listed in my profile.

Your PM touched me greatly, and yes, I TOTALLY agree with all that you said and hope to expand upon it soon.

God bless and have a WONDERFUL DAY!!!!!

Shalu

P.S. I LOVED the verses you shared, I have found tremendous verses in those as well!!!!


Posted by: alexx

michelle....i just read your post this morning....i am so sorry for all you have been going through....shalu gave you some very good advice...and i agree with all she said to you....just know that i am here for you and im praying for your situation all the time...love you sister....lisa