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lost joy and self confidence because of constnt abuse
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Posted by: edith cate
i have been praying for years that God transform my abuse mate into the man i know he can be. there are many things in his life that are destryng both of our lives. his family hate me because of conflicts we've had in the past and they won't let him forget it. he is abuser. his friends are abusers, losers, and prostitutes. they pretend to like him because he buy drugs with the money we need to live off and tell him negative things about me because i don't like them because they ar no good. between their influence and the drugs i feel that i am fighting a losing battle. we get along fine for awhile and then he become physically and verbally abusive again and acts like he hate me. i love him a great deal and hvave been suffering a long time because that love is not being returned. I'm praying and asking God that if he do truly love me like he says, that whatever is causing us to suffer is remoed from his life. i want to do gods will; if love have me blinded i pray that its strong hold on me is removed. my solitary prayer is that i find the joy of knowing God and that my broken heart heals. i'm hurting and my children have suffered because of demetrius' constant neglect and abuse. i live on a fixed income, my daughter is 15 years old and sooon i'l be alone. i pray for my love to return to me a new man. if this is not gods will i pray that he'll bless me with a suitable companion. I am a decent woman with good values and tons to offer. please pray that i am strong, ans find peace and happiness.