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I am exhausted.....
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Posted by: 1onfaith
My husband and I have been married for 9 years. I am a Christian woman and about four months ago, my husband accepted God into his life.
During a six month seperation, because of relocation, my husband confessed to me that he had been unfaithful several times in our marriage. I knew immediately when he told me that I was to remain with him, to work together. My daughter and I were finally able to move to be with my husband and he was still incredibly depressed, mean, and disrespectful, I began to question my decision to stay, and shortly after this I found out about another recent infidelity, in our new town, with a woman he works with. I felt so discouraged, but he agreed to go to counseling, finally, and started going to Church with me, on Easter he broke down and asked God into his life. I never imagined the changes I began to witness, he began to pray, he attended church regulary, read the bible, was respectful. Things were still difficult, and I was okay with this, I know that change takes time.....however, he has recently gone back to old ways....he is mean, disrespectful, and quick to "run". He has just recently said that he can't do this anymore and doesn't think he wants to be with me anymore....he knows that he loves, but feels that God can not want it to be so much work.
He says that he is "meant to be alone"....that "I am better off without him". I have tried talking with him, but he laughs at me, accuses me, and is cruel. It is as if, he is looking for things to argue with me about. I know that he is stressed about work and our financial state (because of which, we could not live apart, if we wanted too-I've been looking at this as a blessing, but anymore I don't know).
I am starting to questions, whether or not this is where God wants me. I feel so alone, and I feel like I am going to snap.....I worry about our 5 year old daughter...she sees her Dad leave everytime he gets mad and I know it is not healthy.........I AM SO EXHAUSTED.... I don't think I can do this anymore.....I am tired and I am so confused........
I worry for him. I know his behavior is so destructive, the type of person I am doesn't give up easily, but I don't think I have it in me anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted by: drey1
Lord, we ask that you help 1onfaith with the strength and dedication needed to help keep her family together. Also, we ask that you enlighten her husband to keep your ways - and be a husband to 1onfaith and a father to his children. Amen!