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depressed/stressed/a financial mess

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Posted by: brighteyes

I just logged on and found this web site. I am in need of prayer. I have been working as hard as I can (59 hours last week). Earlier today I found my upstairs toilet leaking thru the floor (just above the living room). I have no money to repair it, no family or friends to help, heck I dont even have the funds to simply purchase the needed supplies if someone could repair it. My boyfriend is not mr. handyman. I also have a 93 car with 133k miles on it with a blown head gasket and a cracked or warped head. its not worth putting the money into it to repair it. Over the past 6 years since my mom died lots of "so called friends" took adavantage of me and my grief. I have no money left, no savings at all. I spent it all taking care of them, ( I forgot to take care of myself). Last year I had to file bankruptcy (complete) so now my credit is ruined. I tried to refinance my house (no luck) in hopes of lowering my payments so that I could get a (newer) used car. I would try to sell my home but in my neighbor hood alone there are over 2 dozen homes that have been up for sale for nearly a year. homes are just not selling in my hometown.
I really need a sellers market. I am so depressed all I want to do is sleep but yet I have been working so much, that I dont get nearly enough sleep. My dad died in 94, my only sibling in 84 and my mom in 96. I am a 42 year old orphan. I earn more money than my boyfriend so he can't really help out much. I have no family to turn to. What am I to do? How do I hang on to hope........to have faith? Why is life so hard for me? If I helped so many others, why is there no help for me? What have I done so wrong, to suffer so? It's bad enough that I will forever me a "non-mom". I hate, hate, hate not being a mother. I love kids, and I am great with kids, but yet I am denied being a mother. It is just not the same babysitting or being an adopted "auntie debbie" or a fake "mama smith". My heart and soul are still empty. I would love to adopt but there again is the financial problem. If I can't afford to care for me, I can't not afford to care for a child. So I live an empty life, I carry daily with me a void that will never ever be filled. Plus I must struggle each day to make ends meet, and now I must worry about my home and car falling apart. If I don't have a car I will not be able to get to work ( I drive 40 miles round trip each day). and if I can't get to work I wont get paid and then I cant pay bills. Its a never ending cycle of struggle/worry/stress.
Please pray for me. I dont know how much more I can handle. I am so stressed out, I am emotionally, physcially and mentally exhuasted. All I want to do is cry until I fall asleep. PLEASE PLEASE PRAY FOR ME. Thank you, Debbie (bearsbab**donet.com)


Posted by: cgirl

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Originally Posted by brighteyes
I just logged on and found this web site. I am in need of prayer. I have been working as hard as I can (59 hours last week). Earlier today I found my upstairs toilet leaking thru the floor (just above the living room). I have no money to repair it, no family or friends to help, heck I dont even have the funds to simply purchase the needed supplies if someone could repair it. My boyfriend is not mr. handyman. I also have a 93 car with 133k miles on it with a blown head gasket and a cracked or warped head. its not worth putting the money into it to repair it. Over the past 6 years since my mom died lots of "so called friends" took adavantage of me and my grief. I have no money left, no savings at all. I spent it all taking care of them, ( I forgot to take care of myself). Last year I had to file bankruptcy (complete) so now my credit is ruined. I tried to refinance my house (no luck) in hopes of lowering my payments so that I could get a (newer) used car. I would try to sell my home but in my neighbor hood alone there are over 2 dozen homes that have been up for sale for nearly a year. homes are just not selling in my hometown.
I really need a sellers market. I am so depressed all I want to do is sleep but yet I have been working so much, that I dont get nearly enough sleep. My dad died in 94, my only sibling in 84 and my mom in 96. I am a 42 year old orphan. I earn more money than my boyfriend so he can't really help out much. I have no family to turn to. What am I to do? How do I hang on to hope........to have faith? Why is life so hard for me? If I helped so many others, why is there no help for me? What have I done so wrong, to suffer so? It's bad enough that I will forever me a "non-mom". I hate, hate, hate not being a mother. I love kids, and I am great with kids, but yet I am denied being a mother. It is just not the same babysitting or being an adopted "auntie debbie" or a fake "mama smith". My heart and soul are still empty. I would love to adopt but there again is the financial problem. If I can't afford to care for me, I can't not afford to care for a child. So I live an empty life, I carry daily with me a void that will never ever be filled. Plus I must struggle each day to make ends meet, and now I must worry about my home and car falling apart. If I don't have a car I will not be able to get to work ( I drive 40 miles round trip each day). and if I can't get to work I wont get paid and then I cant pay bills. Its a never ending cycle of struggle/worry/stress.
Please pray for me. I dont know how much more I can handle. I am so stressed out, I am emotionally, physcially and mentally exhuasted. All I want to do is cry until I fall asleep. PLEASE PLEASE PRAY FOR ME. Thank you, Debbie (bearsbab**donet.com)


God bless you dear one, in Jesus name!

Dear Heavenly Father I ask that you provide good things for your daughter Debbie. If there be any sin, take it away. Let her confess and repent. Lord God, take away the stress that she is in, restore her completely. Give back everything the enemy has stolen. Please bring a quick answer to prayer and surround her with favor, in Jesus name, I pray, amen.


Posted by: jesusluvsme

Hi, you mentioned a boyfriend a couple of times. If he is living with you and you are both doing what should be done in marriage, then God can not bless you or him in that kind of a situation. He says we are to love Him with all of our hearts, soul and mind, and then all of His things will be added into us. If you are not living with him and loving God with all your heart, soul and mind, then why not contact the Pastor in your church and ask him if he knows someone who may be able to help you out. You can always also eventually adopt a child but as long as we keep living in sin, we are foolish to expect God's blessing through His Son Jesus Christ to us.


Posted by: MiSHa

When your life is full of "when it rains, it pours" it is hard to see the rainbow.

I agree with "jesusluvsme" that you need to make sure your house is clean, so to speak. Also, remember that everything that happens in life is not always just a blatant punishment for something done wrong. It happens because it's life. Sin entered the world with a piece of fruit and has blossomed into where we're at today. That doesn't mean it's fair or makes sense, but it is how things are.

Jesus didn't promise us a struggle-free life. God actually allows it sometimes for the simple fact that He wants us to place our faith and dependance on HIM. Of course, that doesn't make us feel any better because it doesn't answer our questions or pay our bills. But we have to learn to believe and take Him at His word, no matter how it feels or looks to us. And back to Jesus, He came to overcome the world and tells us to take heart.

Our only true hope lies in God through Christ. If we give up on that, that is when we truly have nothing. It is not our circumstances that define our faith, it is what we do with them.

I pray you will be blessed as you receive all our prayers for your situation and that God will reveal a new hope and peace to you through your situation. God bless you. In Christ's Love.... MiSHa

From Billy Graham...
We are sometimes at a loss to know why difficulty is permitted in our lives; however, God has not promised us lives of ease. As a matter of fact, God allows such things to happen that we might be awakened to our need to live in greater dependence upon Him, and in due time God will reveal His greater purposes in our lives. We trust you will allow these trials to be a means of leading you to make a personal commitment of your life to Christ as Savior and Lord (Romans 4:5, Ephesians 2:8-9, and John 1:12) or of drawing you closer to Him. Then you will find that His comfort and love will more than meet your need; read Ephesians 3:20.

Never feel that God has forsaken you, for He is unchanging in His love and grace. The Bible says, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you" (Hebrews 13:5b). Remember, His love is constant and everlasting, as God has revealed to us in the gift of His only begotten Son, Jesus Christ. May your faith be grounded in Christ Himself that you may know His will James 1:5, 3:17


Posted by: sewart

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Originally Posted by jesusluvsme
Hi, you mentioned a boyfriend a couple of times. If he is living with you and you are both doing what should be done in marriage, then God can not bless you or him in that kind of a situation. He says we are to love Him with all of our hearts, soul and mind, and then all of His things will be added into us. If you are not living with him and loving God with all your heart, soul and mind, then why not contact the Pastor in your church and ask him if he knows someone who may be able to help you out. You can always also eventually adopt a child but as long as we keep living in sin, we are foolish to expect God's blessing through His Son Jesus Christ to us.







Dear Brighteyes, I pray that God will reach down and HELP you - guess what??!!! He has brought you to this very time so He can show you how great He is!!!??? Continue pouring out your heart to Him!! I will bet you are already feeling a little better!!! jesusluvsme mentioned that you should NOT be living with your boyfried. This is true, as it is called fornication, which is a sin. God hates it, just like He does Homosexuality, and other sins. Get things straightened out. I think even if "shacking up" is kind of accepted at this time, we know it's not right! But, I believe God will help you to straighten out this sticky situation, He is a loving God who desires to help us to want to obey Him. He loves you!! I would definitely begin dealing with your live in situation - (if this is truly what it is) we may be wrong - forgive me, if I am.....love you!


Posted by: sheshere

Sorry you are not having much success financially. I get that way too but if you take it one step at a time, you will get back on your feet again. Keep trying.

I will say a prayer for you and hope you will say one for me.