I didn't do it on purpose! I wish she had told me not to tell Paulette like she had told me with previous secrets that I did not tell Paulette! I love Rachel to bits! I would never hurt her, not in my wildest dreams! I cherish our friendship very dearly. One of the reasons why I admire her so much is because I see Jesus in her! I used to be insecure and codependant and obsessive. Spending time with God and making him my best friend, hince my screename, is what got me over that. Our friendship used to be very shaky back in 2000-2002. Joyce Meyer's teachings among other Christian books and teachings and talks with God have helped me to really be the true friend she needs, and I have had confidence in my worth to her. I had been doing so good not getting upset if she is less than enthusiastic about seeing me. I know my security is in Jesus and I know not to be a people pleaser. But what just happened hurts so bad, becuase I did something wrong. I shouldn't have told Paulette, but I only told her because I thought she knew. I made a mistake. I know that only God can speak to her heart and let her know that its ok and that I just made a mistake and reveal the truth and memories of all the times I've been there for her. I know that my security and worth is in Christ. Its all about God, not the people. But I do know that we love people in fellowship as fellow brothers and sister in Christ. We are all members of Christ's body. Jesus said that if you do unto the least of these, you have done it onto me. He died for us all! We are all but filthy rags. We have all fallen short. Only Jesus lived without sin. There is no human that can be trusted 100%. Our rightousness is not in our own efforts but by the blood of Christ. Please pray for the restoration of Rachel's trust and confidence in me as someone she can turn to. God Bless You All!
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Originally Posted by StarChilde
Janet, I wanted to reiterate, that I know it was not anything done maliciously or spiteful in sharing with Paulette. You may have told her to not say anything, but she didn't heed that...she felt hurt that she was not included in knowing this bit of info. You feel hurt perhaps by Paulette's telling Rachel after you asked her not to. It started a cycle of hurting, Jesus Christ can heal. Each needs to forgive the other & learn from this.My grama used to tell me; good intentions pave the path to hell. I always hated when she said it, yet she was right. You had good intentions in sharing this news, yet look at all the ruckus it has caused.
I will pray that ALL friendships affected by this are restored in and through and by our Saviour Christ Jesus~ |
Than you all for the prayers!
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Originally Posted by Beverlyjoy
Thank you Lord for restoring this friendship. True friends are hard to find.
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