Prayer Board Requests - Happy New Year My Friends 2005 Pray in the blessing

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Originally Posted by wnstitus

Dear Jerry,

A Very Happy New Year to You and Your Family.
May the Lord Bless You and Keep You and Yours.

I want to thank you for being there this year when at was at my darkest searching for something to keep me going in my despair. I know the Lord, but seem to have lost him in all the crazinest that has happened to me in these last years. This site gave me hope and your notes and others prayers lifted me up when I was down. On a seperate note, Jerry unfortunately the Devil has tried already to invade my New year by a horrible family fight that should have never even happened. I have a 20 & 24 year old sons. And they for some reason rear there ugly heads and start huge family fights every so often. My husband who is not there father, but took them in as his own at the age of 24 when he was young and had no responsibilities, the boys were just 3 and 7at that time, but he has tried to raise them and help me to bring them up right in this crazy world. For some reason now that they are older they feel when they get angry they can challenge him and want to fight him and are so disrespectful to both of us. Yesterday was just that type of horrible seen. I had my husband holding my 20 year old at bay at arms length, with my son swinging at him saying all type of ugly things. My oldest who was there, who wasn't even envolved, was standing and wouldn't let me in the kitchen.(mostly because I am very ill and have multilple health problems and am struggling with massive pain, migrains, neck and back pain). Then my younger son, charged at him and they ensued fighting. My husband then broke them up as I tried to and got hurt of course and then it went outside. It was so horrible you can not even imagine. My heart is breaking Jerry because I did not raise my boys like this. I have two young girls at home having to witness these horrible acts of rage and violence. I told them to stay in the room but they can still hear it. The are ages 6 & 9. Elizabeth the youngest and Christina the oldest are being torn and don't understand. We try to go to church as a family, lately not as often because of my health, and we are trying to raise them as good christians as we did the boys. How, Jerry can this end????? My heart is torn but my sons are ruining my marriage and my family life with the youger children. How can one be so selfish and self centered and think only of ME!! I have given every thing I could to them all of my life. My husband, Wade, gave them a home and tried to be a father to them and gave up the fun of being a single man with no worries to taken on a ready made family with 2 young boys. We all were baptised as a family long ago, and we all use to go to church together when they were younger. But as they got older they stopped going and started doing their own thing. Could you please pray for my family and ask for the Lord to do some intervention. I don't know if I can take much more. Of course , I didn't mention to you that I am severely depressed myself because of all my ailments which started from an auto accident 3 years ago. I have had 3 surgeries in a year the last one in Oct. and have gone through 16 or more procedures for the pain. I have to go get injected with needles and get blocks to help me with all the pain. I am having to endure fighting with my insurance company and have many appeals going on with them because they authorize procedures and then deny them and don't pay them. I owe thousands of dollars now because of this. I need another surgery that they won't pay for and I will be losing my insurance in about 4 months. I am on Cobra from my last job. I have so much to deal with and have a very hard time just functioning getting up and trying to deal with the daily goings on. I have a hard time trying to keep up on the bills and have memeory problems and forget things probably due to either my injuries or medications. I have to try and work on fighting these appeals to try to get the insurance to reverse there decisions and pay for procedures and surgeries that were authorized and then reversed or partially paid for. I barely have the energy to do work on these things and take care of my girls the best I can which of course I feel is not as good as I should be doing. I can't continue to go through these goings on and need the Lords intervention in my Life. PLease pray for me Jerry!! Please Pray that Joe and Will , my sons, will change and find God or at least stop all this craziness. I thank you for listening and sorry for writing such a desperate and devastating letter at the begining of a New Year when things should be as fresh as the 2 feet of snow I am looking at outside right now.

Sincerely,
Stephanie T.