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Posted by: Copper
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Posted by: christythompson
Jesus show her how to love her husband even as she sees his faults in action. God give her the grace to pray for him. Give her the wisdom on how to interact with him and make him feel so good that he desires her more tha ever. Help her to stay strong, stay comforted and stay at peace even in times of trouble. Bless her father and bring this husband home and renew their marriage.
Posted by: cgirl
Thank you Lord. I ask that you give her wisdom on how do deal with each situation. Give her peace and strength with joy as well in Jesus name, amen and amen.
Posted by: Copper
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Posted by: christythompson
Sometimes if you are loving, fun and just pull back a little they pull forward. You have been battling the same things for so long its natural to feel tired. So think, develop a plan of action, that always helps me to regroup, maybe it will help you. What can you do thats different? What can you do that you haven't to rejuevenate yourself? An aerobic swim class, new hairdo, an exercise program, something that will make you feel good about yourself and as a result, maybe more attractive to him. You shouldn't have to do that, but why not. If the marriage gets dusty, do something that will blow the dust off. The only thing you can really change is you.
Jesus touch her, Give her a renewed spirit. Lift her head and her heart. Give her direction and purpose right now. Let her have fun and care for herself and bring her husband home, anew man commited and loving.
Posted by: Kristie
Kimberly,
That is exactly what you should be doing, working for the Lord, serving Him now and when Tom comes home. But you should have really been putting yourself into that now, during this battle. The enemy will try to convince you not to, he will try to tell you that Tom will hinder you, and he will find ways to tie up your day to keep you from serving the Lord, but the devil is a liar, resist him and he has to flee. God is your first priority and just look to Him and serve Him and He will do the rest. :-)
God bless and love you sissy~
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Posted by: christythompson
It can't be like it was if you change....and in your changing. You will change him... Don't doubt the power of God...
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Posted by: cgirl
Aha! I knew this book was for you. PM me please with your mailing address.
In the meantime. When you feel that hopeless coming on or doubt or weariness rebuke it. You have authority over it. It is beneath you. When it tries to torment you again, resist it and watch and laugh while you see it flee from you and yours.
Lord God, I ask for strength. Give her peace of mind. Help her have her eyes on you and not on the situation so that she will not faint. All things are possible with you and in your name we call this man into repentance now. Whom the Son sets free is free indeed.
Posted by: Copper
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Posted by: MarkSentMe
Personally I feel this is happening because you are choosing one or the other. You CAN have both. You can love God and love your husband. It's necessary. It seems, to me, that when your husband comes around, you get slack in your devotion to God, when what you need is to strengthen your resolve and invite your husband to join you in your devotion to God. If you didn't love your husband and didn't want him in your life, you would not even try. But since you give it another chance after another chance is proof that you still love him. With God AND with love- all things are possible.
Be Blessed.
Sharyn
Posted by: spacecowby76
kimberly,
You know as well as anyone in here about the rollercoaster I was on.God is bringing him back into your life but satan is tricking you into letting the bitterness & resentments take root.I finally got to the point in my life where I truly let it go & gave it to God & then EVERYTHING changed.It happened at a men's prayer group I was at.Matter of fact,it was the first one I'd ever been too.As I listened to all the requests (especially the pastors) I became overwhelmed.My turn came to pray out loud & instead of asking for my marriage back I prayed for all those men & Robin's salvation.Of course it took me 5 minutes because I couldn't stop crying but it humbled me so much.
I haven't been the same since & God has blessed my marriage,family & my life in ways that go beyond mere words.
It's hard to let go of the past Kim but ya can't move forward if ya keep looking back.It's obvious to me Kevin is looking to you for strength & then satan whispers in his "You don't need her.Stay here with the OW!" That alone is proof God is working because if He wasn't,satan would keep his big mouth shut.
Next time he calls & then cancels just tell him you understand no matter what you're feeling inside.Trust me,Kevin will feel ashamed,guilty & a million other emotions.God will reward you for your patience.I had to do it,Kristie is doing it & I know you can.As I said,use my marriage as a springboard.Look how long I had to wait & it's not totally right yet but God will get it there.
Remember,faith,hope,love & GOD is all you need.We're all here for you!!!!!!
Rob
Posted by: cgirl
FROM---> http://www.ft111.com/p0000013.htm
February 3, 2005: You have experienced a minor setback; no reason to become discouraged or to lose hope. Quiet yourself and keep pressing through this time of difficulty. Don't overreact to your circumstances at this time. These are fleeting moments, and your overreaction will only complicate matters. Take a deep breath and wait this one out. Soon you will know for sure that you are on solid spiritual ground and that even this will work out for your good. Romans 8:28 "And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose."
Hang in there my dear!
I wanted to ask you. How much time do you spend in prayer everyday-alone?
Posted by: Kristie
Kimberly,
Sweetie. You know I love you so much sis, but honestly, I think you know that your battle has always been your own emotions and being tossed about on the ocean waves. It seems you never could stabalize your emotions and just dig into faith and root and stand strong. This is one reason your battle has went on so long, as you know I have lectured you about as well. People can pray for you til the cows come home, but ultimately, your emotions, thoughts, reactions, words that you speak, they will design how your battle plays out. You are the one in this actual battle, a spiritual battle with satan, and he takes every single slip and uses it against you, delaying, delaying and delaying. We have talked about this and how it is his only defense, if he can get you to toss about and delay this thing long enough, he can get you to give up, that is his only battle stategy Kim, and he has really worked you over through this. It never had to be this hard or long I dont think.
Can I get you to do something for me, and I mean really do it? Do want some Esther favor in this? Try working out your faith. I have found, the Lord impressed upon me about five weeks ago, and since has confirmed it over and over, twice now with new books coming out on what He had told me the key to breakthrough is, one by Tommy Tenny and another one by Steve Hill, announced last week on TBN. A evangelist to our church last week, my Pastor yesterday when God grabbed ahold of him going into service and told him no, dont do your scheduled service, I need you to teach this, and it was what God revealed to me weeks ago. Praise and worship Kimberly. You do not need to do anything other thing then to just praise and worship Him. This year, 2005, God is going to outpour Himself upon all the nations, it is going be like nothing ever seen before, the revival, the people who are going to actually come to know Him personally instead of just being religious. This year is a blessed year of a unbelievable movement of God upon this world, and He is saying to many obviously that the only thing we need to do right now, to have His favor, to have His power, is to praise and worship Him. Especially when you are in the midnight hour and do not feel like it, you have to get up and praise and worship him. Juanita Bynum spoke on this also, about getting into the inner court of God, where He is, that you cannot pray for anyone but yourself in the outer court, you cannot pray a loved one out of something, or to salvation, etc.; in the outer court, that you have to get inside the inner court. My greatest desire these past few weeks, my only intention and goal, is to get into Gods inner court, that has all I wanted. God can do things in wink of an eye, you have to get into His inner courts Kim. The way in is through holiness, consecrate yourself, make yourself as pure as you can, remove the things of the world, throw them down, and then praise and worship yourself into His inner court. Paul and Silas were cast into prison, this was after they had been flogged to the drawing of blood, they were then shackled in the inner most confines of the prison, deep in the heart of it, because when satan comes after you, that is where he trys to put you, in the deepest recesses of captivity. Paul and Silas although beaten, battered and bleeding, sore as can be, you know that, tormented and fearful in mind most likely, being captive deep in there, they began singing praises and prayers to the Lord in the midnight hour. When they did, the earth trembled and all the shackles broke off every prisoner in that prison and freed every man there. Just because they praised God in the darkest midnight hour and nothing more. They did not whine or complain, did not ask God why me, all they did was love Him and praise Him, and it broke the shackles off so many men. We have to break the shackles off our spouses, and so many other spouses out there in the same captivity ours are in. We can break all the shackles off all of them, if we just praise Him in the midnight hour, praise Him in the morning, praise Him in the afternoon, just praise Him all day long. Nothing else, just praise Him, love on Him. This is how Esther gained the favor of the King. She was humble and quiet, did not complain, did not whine or show her fear, she won the Kings attention and favor through love and honor for him. You are a daughter of Zion, His child, and He wants you to feel welcome to come into His inner courts and be close to Him, where you have His favor, His power. So I would ask you to just work your faith by praising and worshipping Him at least once a day for as long as the spirit leads you to worship. If you can, get access to your church sanctuary once a day, get someone to watch your son, or occupie him in some way there, and just put on praise and worship music on the sound system and praise and worship Him at the alter. Sing and dance for Him. Sing and dance like King David did. That is why King David, despite all his problems, including adultery, had Gods favor, was the king, when his brothers were much more suited for it, it was because of his love for God, because he sang and danced for God, he praised and worshipped the Lord. The battles of them on the battle fields, real battles against armys, armys much bigger then their group of men, they praised and worshipped, sang and danced to the Lord right there on the battle field and the Lord overcame their enemies when it was physically impossible for them to do it themselves. If you cannot do this in your church sanctuary for some reason, then do it at home. I get up at midnight now, even if I am dead asleep or sick, like I was last night, and I put on music in my bedroom and I sing and dance to the Lord for an hour. You would be surprised that being so tired or sick, had a headache, how much better you feel after doing so then before. Praise and worship will fix your mind Kimberly, that is the added benefit, no more tossing about, it will just bring a feeling over you that stays with you that no matter what is going on, or what is to come, it is beautiful, wonderful and blessed. That you are blessed and it does not matter what they blessing will be. And you just know in your heart without question that it is done already and you can release it. I still pray my scriptures over Kevin daily, because I believe in speaking the work of God out loud over him to let satan know it is done, to keep him pinned up, I bind him daily and all and he does not bother me any since I began praising and worshipping. As the word says, he cant, he has to flee. I have joy, I feel so much joy, I look the look of joy obviously since people remark about it. Praising and worshipping does so many things, and you need a stategy that you can work daily and it will honor God, because this thing needs to be done, you are right..and the completion is only going to come with you rooting in faith and peace.
I am just pasting this thing below in also, it came to me in email today, and thought it was kind of neat..
"Divine Delays"
Exodus 13:17-18
You pay a lot more attention to a story on the news when it may involve
someone you love. It was that way the night we saw a story about a major
rockslide that closed a stretch of Interstate 70 in Colorado. Our son and
daughter-in-law and little granddaughter were driving that very day
through that part of Colorado. The rockslide had shattered pavement and embedded boulders as deep as six feet into the highway and created craters in the road. Some of the boulders were said to be as big as a van. Obviously, it was going to take some time to get that stretch of the highway open again, which meant a 200-mile plus detour around the closure. That was okay with our family. In fact, my son said they saw some spectacular scenery they would have never seen any other way. Not long before the rockslide, a semi had jack-knifed just west of that area and the interstate was closed because of it. I've been in those miles-long traffic jams, and you can really get frustrated, aggravated, and ugly. But
because of that frustrating delay, there was no traffic on the road when that avalanche of rocks came crashing down. You've got to figure that that may very well have saved lives.
I'm Ron Hutchcraft and I want to have A Word With You today about "Divine Delays."
If you're like me, patience is one of those areas in which you are, to say
it nicely, under construction. We don't like to wait. Our lives are busy and
full, and we hate delays. Many times the delay is actually part of the plan to
protect you from something that could hurt you if you stayed "on schedule"
-on your schedule, that is.
You can see God's protective delays at work in our word for today from the
Word of God. While it's a chapter out of the lives of God's ancient people, it
may shed light on why God seems to be taking you the long way around right
now. The story is in Exodus 13, verses 17 and 18. The Jews have just been
miraculously delivered from slavery to Pharaoh in Egypt, and they're ready to be on the interstate to the Promised Land. Here's what happened and why. "When Pharaoh let the people go, God did not lead them on the road through the Philistine country, though that was shorter. For God said, 'If they face war, they might change their minds and return to Egypt.' So God led the people around the desert road toward the Red Sea."
So God's people are purposely slowed down by God, and then that longer road leads to what appears to be a disaster - trapped at the Red Sea with the Egyptian Army bearing down on them. Now it may be that God is taking you the longer, slower way right now. You were, like those people on the interstate that was suddenly closed, speeding full speed ahead. Suddenly, all you can see is an ocean of red brake lights in front of you. You're waiting, and you don't know why.
It's because God knows what's up ahead and you don't. And He's protecting
you from a battle up there that you're not ready to fight, from danger that
will hurt you, from a temptation or a test for which you are not yet strong
enough. Remember, He's promised not to let you face more than He knows you can bear. Maybe you have prayed these words many imes, "Lord, 'Lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.'" And the reason you're waiting or taking what seems to be a detour is because your Father, who art in heaven, is answering that prayer!
And if the delay and the detour bring you to a Red Sea, not to worry! He's
leading you, not into a mess, but into a miracle you'll never forget! So learn
to relax when God closes the road or suddenly slows you down. It's all about
His love for you, a love that knows what's best for you, a love that knows
what's going to happen if you keep going the same direction at the same speed. So don't sit there, pounding the steering wheel and fuming. You aren't late. In fact, you're right on time - God's time. And this isn't Plan B. This is what God's Plan A has been all the time. So trust the One who plans the trip and who protects those who belong to Him. If you could see what's up ahead, you'd be so grateful that God has made you wait.
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Posted by: Rachel R
Copper, I am so amazed by that.
I think I might feel the same way.
I hope I would have your courage if I were in your shoes.
Thanks for your honesty and reality.
Rachel R
Lord, I ask you to teach us all from Copper's stand.
Help us learn and grow in you.
In Jesus' Name, Amen.
Posted by: Copper
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Posted by: Standinginfaith
Dear Cooper,
I know you are frustrated and tired of this battle. I too got to that point hoping I could just not love him any more so it wouldn't hurt. But we do have to face this hurt head on. I just got stronger in the Lord. And as I got stronger in the Lord I began to love my husband in a new way. And I began to listen to what God was telling me. I began to forgive him for what he has and is and will put me through. I kept praying to God to help me to look at things thru his eyes. I am so afraid you are going to give up. I too trusted in my husband for my feelings that I should have been looking for in God. I have found my peace with God and am now ready for a new mature relationship with my husband. I believe we can't love anyone else until we first love God and ourselves. I feel like you are right where I was before things changed so miraculously for me and I began to truly have faith in God. I always thought I had my faith in him. But that was just hoping that he would do things my way. Now I have faith in him in that I know he is going to restore my marriage and I totally trust him to do it in his time. I am not saying that I don't still get discouraged. I do but every day that I have my feet planted firmly in the faith of God it gets easier for me to rebuke the feelings and get right back on track. I hope somehthing I have said helps. My heart is hurting for you because I know what you are feeling, but I also know that it is all going to be more okay than we could ever imagine.
Dear Lord I pray that you will give cooper the strenght that she will need to indure this trial. I pray that she find peace in you and she can see clearly your will for her life. I pray that you break the strongholds that the devil has on this marriage and return her husband to her. In Jesus Name. Amen.
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Posted by: Rachel R
This must be so painful.
Anger hurts so much.
It had to be so hard to write that email.
I am so proud of you for doing it.
Rachel R
Lord, I pray for Copper. Please comfort her heart and hold her close.
In Jesus' Name, Amen.
Posted by: cgirl
FAMILY SALVATIONS!
I have had you on my heart every day and have prayed diligently for you. 2005 is a year of great promise and blessing for those who are sold out to God.
This week as I was praying for you, I particularly was called to pray for breakthroughs for your families -- especially for your prodigals and unsaved relatives. This is a year of household salvations and I am going to continue to press in for you throughout 2005.
The following are some keys the Lord gave me to help you in believing for your loved ones:
1. Unconditional Love
Love is the most powerful force in the entire universe -- it is irresistible! Although love at times needs to be firm and set very strong boundaries, I believe the Lord is calling us to greater demonstrations of love towards our unsaved loved ones. If you ask the Holy Spirit, He will show you how you can demonstrate this.
Many of you have had to pass a great deal of "love tests" in certain situations, but you are drawing close to the heart of God in the midst of it. In the midst of all our resistance towards the Lord, He never withdrew His love for us. Let us love those who resist us with the same love.
I know that some of you have been deeply hurt through various situations that have taken place over the years in your families. I am praying for healing for you. Be careful not to let offense, un-forgiveness, or bitterness in, though. If there is any trace of these things in your mind or emotions, then ask the Lord for forgiveness and invite Him to fill you with His healing touch in those areas. Ask Him for an extra measure of "divine love" to help you love them in the way He is calling you to. (I realize for some of you that the Lord has shown you to put boundaries around your life...but He wants your heart free from offense, etc, so that you are not affected negatively in any way.)
2. Favor
Ask the Lord to clothe you with His favor in the sight of your family members. This is an undeserved, unmerited favor. The more you receive God's favor by faith, the more their eyes will be opened to seeing you in a new light. They will begin to watch your life with a new and positive outlook and they will begin to listen to the wisdom that pours from your lips.They will be ready to receive the light and truth that is in you. Without the operation of favor, they might close their heart.
3. Ask God for Wisdom -- to know when to speak and when to be silent.
To know when to act and when not to. He will give you keys to opening their heart as you wait on Him for wisdom and strategy.
4. Walk in Humility
If you have done them wrong in any way, humble yourself and ask for forgiveness. God will soften their hearts as you do.
5. Stand in Faith and ONLY Believe
The Lord's promises in the Word are sure. He assures you that your household will be saved if you believe (Acts 16:31 ). He also said to ask Him for the heathen and they would be given as an inheritance (Psalm 2:8). He promised that your children would be His disciples and their peace would be great (Isa 54:13 ). He promised that the Word that is in you and His Spirit that is in you will not leave your children or your grandchildren (Isa 59:21 ).
Stand on these sure promises, confessing them every day. Receive a new perspective according to these promises and see your loved ones saved through the eye of faith, even if in the natural they are still hardened to the truth. Do not waver in unbelief or doubt (James 1:6-8 ).
Remember, if you are standing in faith, it is impossible for your household to be lost -- even if it is in their last breath that they acknowledge Jesus as their Savior. Beyond a doubt, they are sealed for salvation. Stand your ground.
6. Affirm their Potential
Ask the Lord to give you eyes to see their potential in Him and then ask for wisdom on how to communicate the insights to them in a way that will be a blessing to their heart. Try not to focus on their failures and shortcomings -- look at them through eyes of faith according to their potential in Christ.
7. Ask God to Dispatch Angels to Minister to Them
Recently, I was ministering to a psychic. He asked me if I knew anything about angels. He shared that he had been having various "signs" in his life concerning angels. I responded: "I sure do know some things about angels!" I proceeded to explain to him that they are sent by God to serve those who are going to become Christians (Hebrews 1:14). I then said, "Do you know what that means?" He asked, "What? I responded, "That means you are going to become a Christian." He looked a little shocked but smiled at me with hope in his eyes. God wants to send angels to minister to your loved ones -- ask Him to assign them...tons of them! 
They are waiting to go to work on your behalf.
8. Ask the Lord to Send Gospel Workers to your loved ones to preach the life giving message of salvation in a way that they will embrace. Pray for these workers to have divine appointments with them. Believe that these kingdom laborers will be clothed with favor and anointing.
9. Binding and Loosing
In the name of Jesus, bind (tie up, bind up, fasten tight) the enemy's ability to influence your family member. Bind all deception, rebellion, disobedience, worldly mindedness, and blindness to the truth. Loose (release, open up, pour out upon) a spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of Christ (Ephesians 1:17,18) into their lives. Remember, they are only ONE revelation away from salvation. All they need is for the light to turn on within their understanding.
10. Pray in Tongues over Them.
The Spirit Himself will inspire your prayers in tongues and will make perfect intercession for their needs.
11. Make Scriptural Decrees of Blessing over Their Life
Remember that the Word does not return void but accomplishes everything it is sent to do (Isa 55:11).
12. Ask the Lord to show you ways that you can Bless Them in practical ways. And then...do
it!! Love them to life!
I am going to continue to pray for breakthrough in your families. Please send the names of your unsaved relatives to our prayer team at prayer*extremeprophetic.com and they will also stand in faith. Let's believe together for the BREAKER Himself to break through. He will!
We continue to receive great reports from our partners. God is moving on your behalf and we are happy for you -- in fact, we expect this! Continue to send us the reports and catch me at conferences if you happen to attend. Introduce yourselves to me -- I LOVE meeting you!
If you would like some resource to help strengthen your faith, the following might be helpful in the light of prayer outline above:
1. Single Tape on tongues
2. Decree Booklet and/or CD
3. Anointed with Favor CD
4. Extreme Prophetic CD or Tape set
5. The Goodness Revolution tape
All these resources and more can be purchased on line at www.extremeprophetic.com
Email prayer requests for your families to: prayer*extremeprophetic.com . Celia and her team are waiting to pray through for YOU!
SCOTLAND TRIP
Next month we will be drawing one of your names for the Scotland trip. I can hardly wait to see which one of you will be attending. All of our staff/team are also partners but we are not including them in the draw. If however, the individual who is pulled (by lot) is not able to attend, then we will add the names of our staff/team for the next draw.
NEW PARTNERS
Would you like to become part of our Breaker Team? Go on line now at www.extremeprophetic.com or call 1-866-765-5188 and sign up as a monthly financial partner. We would love to have you join the family!!!!
Blessings to each and every one of you! Keep us in your prayers,
Patricia
PATRICIA KING
Extreme Prophetic Television
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Posted by: Rachel R
I am so sorry this is happening to you.
It must feel like the end of it all.
Lord, comfort her and help her get through this.
Thank you, Lord, for our dear Copper.
Tell her that we love her, too.
In Jesus' Marvelous Name, Amen.
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Posted by: Rachel R
Dear Copper,
What a terrible encounter! Those things must just break your heart.
Tough love would never ever text message him. I hope you can withdraw completely. In my experience, the Lord can't begin his work until the partner's dynamic is removed.
Each time you return and tear open the wounds, the work may have to begin again.
I wonder if you can trust that God can work on him and focus on working on you. Who do you want to be? What is ahead for you?
Could you use this time to explore and develop? God knows where you have been and where you are going. He'll help you know what to do...
Rachel R
Lord, please help Copper get through this time.
In Jesus' Name, Amen.
Posted by: spacecowby76
Kimberly,
You are in my prayers & thoughts.Jusr back off a while & let God do His work.Do you know how many times I told Robin to get the papers? 20 at least...heck,I went & got them myself once & then threw them away.I heard the same words from her about obsessing & the "F" bomb thrown at me.Well,look at me now & look at my marriage.When I backed off...God took over.Don't give up
Posted by: Kristie
Kimberly,
I had responded to this with all in my heart, but I guess the devil did not like it and wiped it out when I hit the submit button. I cannot do it all again, but both Rachel and Rob are correct, and I really believe that the duration and the progress of your situation is founded on your struggle to let go and let God, and you know that we, you and I, have been here on this subject so many times. I wish I knew the right word, has some kind of miracle touch to make you just let go, but I dont. Again, I poured out my heart to you, but it is gone into oblivion now, but I just want to say this:
Psa 37:5 Commit thy way unto the LORD; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass.
I pray this over you. I know so many who have acted and then hoped for Gods blessing on their action, or prayed God bless what they have done, because it sounded like a good thing..it was intended as a good thing, like a reminder that you love them, or scripture, etc. But the fact is, unless God Himself shows up in front of you and dictates the message, it is not of God...it is more likely the devil in his angel of light costume, knowing what kind of reaction it is going to bring. You see, the key is, you pray for the annointing of God on something before you do it, you seek His approval of it before you do it, not after.
The scripture above says it all...commit thy way unto the Lord...you commit to His way of handling the situation..give it to Him, and let Him do it His way..let go of your own ways, give your way over to Gods way...and He shall bring it to pass.
It will never come to pass if you keep inserting your way and will into it, never. Everytime you do, Rachel is right, it is like you go back to the beginning again, and I know that I have said this same thing to you many many times. Like I said, I do not know why you struggle so hard in this area of things. I truly think that we need to pray that whatever it is within you, that hinders you in this area, be revealed and dealt with, that God cleanse you of whatever it is that keeps you from letting go, so that you truly can do so and this will come to pass for you. You have often said you are letting go, but it has been false starts, or a letting go in anger instead of in love and standing and letting go and letting God. It may be the loss of your parents at such a very young age, the wounds of such, that hinder you in this area, and maybe you need a spiritual healing within yourself so that you really truly can let go and let God help you. You let go of your parents that day, watched them drive off, and they did not come back. Maybe you are deep down afraid to take your hand completely off Tom and let him go, because you deep down fear that he also will never come back if you do. I dont know Kim, I wish I did. But humans will let you down Kim, sometimes by their own conscious choice and sometimes by things they themselves had no control over, like your parents, they had no control of that day, the events, and they loved you and they wanted to come back to you as much as you wanted them to come back. This is different. God will not let you down, Tom will, but God will not. He is the only one who can bring Tom back to you sweetie. I do not know if I am anywhere even near to what you hold within, it was just things that came to me in talking. I pray God reveal whatever it may be to you and heal you of whatever may hold you back from your being able to just trust and turn it over in faith and peace and joy, if that be the case at all.
All my love...your sis Kristie
Adding, sitting here listening to TBN and that Pastor Joel is on. He just said that if you keep on doing the same thing, the same way, you can keep on expecting the same results. True..time for a change in how we do things huh sis? :-) Time to stabalize our emotions to the good ones of unconditional love, forgiveness and a steady faith in God. You are not alone sis, it is the hardest thing in the world to do, to stop the roller coaster of emotions that consume you and just find a peace and trust in the Lord. But I guess nothing worth having will ever come easy, we have to fight for it unfortunitely. But someday the fight will end and the reward will be awesome! :-)
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Posted by: spacecowby76
Kim,
The one thing you have to remember is it isn't over until God says it's over."Nuff said!!!!!!!!!!
Love ya,
Rob
Posted by: Copper
that sounds like a song
lol
it is so weird, like all i can think about is how much i don't even like him, don't even want him back,
weird huh, i even called and found out how much adivorce costs,
i never thought i would even contemplate it, it is all i can think of, dating other people ect.
so weird, not even me.
i have rebuked satan, prayed, everything, and still the thoughts keep coming, i do't know if this is just me, or satan, he has to listen to me, maybe i really am ready to move on. maybe there is something in me, keeping my prayers from working>? i don't know. i just keep thinking about how nice it would be to never see him again, and how i would like to hurt him, emotionally that is. how i want him to feel what i feel. i have been so close to God through all of this, this is weird. i htink that is why i'm so upset, because i feel like i'm being pulled into my old ways, the old kim.
i hate it.
the old kim would dump him and find someone new. i would neve have put up with this.
i am doing the tough love deal though, just letting God do it, and i'm backing off, he at least needs to respect me, he can't talk to me that way, i'm his wife, not some chick.
anyway, thank you all for praying,
i truly appreciate it, i can't wait for this to be over, yet i know it would hurt if he actually did divorce me. so weird