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Cut off from God
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Posted by: lanac
I've been trying my very best to endure this trial, knowing it will only last a season, and not to complain. The last few days have been very tough, though. I praise God for all the good he's done for me in this time, even though I don't deserve it. But I feel cut off from Him now. I plead with Him to tell me what to do. I feel like I'm missing something (besides my husband,) but I don't know what it is. I got some more papers regarding the divorce, and that's what pops into all my thoughts. I can't get rid of it. It's hard to stop wondering if this divorce is going to go through or if my husband will return before then. I just want to be prepared because right now I feel like I couldn't handle it. In this desert I'm in I really feel for the first time that I can't go on. It's all happening so fast, but while things are going on around me I feel stalled. I pray and pray and praise the Lord for His promises. Why can't I stop wondering when? or Will the divorce go through?
Please pray for me and for everyone who's feeling this way.
God bless!
Lana
Posted by: faithstander
Dear Heavenly Father, I lift Lana up to you and ask you to pour your love upon her and hide her in the shadow of your wings. You know her pain, and I ask you to send your Holy Spirit upon her to comfort her in the name of Jesus. I rebuke all spirits of heaviness, depression, discouragement and fear and doubt from Lana in the name of Jesus. I rebuke the spirit of divorce off this marriage now and claim it for your purposes and your kingdom dear Lord. It is written that you hate divorce and what God has joined together, let no man separate. Lord God, I ask you to fill her with your Holy Spirit of peace and give her the faith she needs to trust and believe you Father. We thank you and praise you Lord for stopping this divorce and bringing her husband home.
Lana, tonight I heard a couple on TBN and the Lord used it to minister to me in several ways. The wife of this pastor has written a book called "Don't sign for the package or it's yours", and she is talking about how throughout our lives satan tries to bring things into our lives that are not of God and we need to refuse the package, just like a UPS delivery that is wrong. She and her husband both hated one another. He was physically and verbally/emotionally abusive in their marriage even for a time after he was saved. They both confessed they did not love one another or even have any physical attraction toward each other. They basically hated each other. They both began to pray to God. God told him to start saying that he loves her even though he doesn't and that he would restore their marriage and the love. God did restore in a very mighty way! Now they pastor a church together and have much love for one another. He of course has been completely delivered of his past and abusive behavior now. There is NOTHING God can't do. The enemy is trying to steal your faith and your peace. Refuse the package! IT's not from God! Refuse the lies he's feeding you, refuse the divorce. We know these things aren't from God. Stand on GOd's word regardless of your feelings. They will pass. I have felt similar to yourself where I was doing eveything I knew to do including prayer and fasting and not feeling like I'm hearing from God. BUt it passed. God wants us to just trust him and learn not to go on feelings.
Posted by: MASZOO
Lord, I pray that you will be with Lana. Give her peace and encouragement as well and strength and wisdom. Let her know that you are there and that you have it all under control. Help her to trust You no matter how hard it is.
Amen
Posted by: Mrembo
I am praying for you my sister. Godbless you.
Posted by: bookgirl
Lana,
I know how your feeling and Father I just lift my sister up to you Lord and ask that you hear us cry out to you for our husbands! Whatever is getting in the way from our prayers reaching you we ask that you tear it down. Send your might angles to take our prayers up to you. We ask for your support and strenght as we go through this pain of our husbands giving us divorces, we ask that you would do a miracle and stop this from happening. Transform they're hearts and minds dear Lord give them the mind and heart of Christ. Let them feel our pain! We ask Lord that when we feel like we can't go on that you would pick us up in your loving arms and carry us the rest of the way.
Posted by: anneo
I pray in agreement with bookgirl-please lord lead our husbands back to where they belong-in you lord-please bring them to you to make them the men we want in our lives-and then back home..I ask this in Jesus' name
Posted by: Kristie
Lana sweetie, listen to me, you must not speak any doubt or negativity. I rebuke and bind all that you have spoken in doubt about a divorce going through in the Name of Jesus Christ, and turn it around now. No more wondering if the divorce is going to go through, no more. From this moment on, we declare that the divorce will not go through. From this moment on we bind the spirit of divorce from you in the Name of Jesus Christ, in the authority of Jesus Christ, in the blood of Jesus Christ, and we pour out His precious blood upon your marriage and your husband. There will be no divorce, the spirit of divorce is bound and cast out and never to return in the Name of Jesus Christ! Every single time satan puts a single thought of divorce in your mind, I want you to say this out loud, "I bind you spirit of divorce in the Name of Jesus Christ, in the authority of Jesus Christ, in the blood of Jesus Christ, I bind you and cast you out and you will never return in the Name of Jesus Christ! What God has joined together, no man shall separate! Amen
Now...no more speaking in the enemies favor, you are the daughter of God, you have the power of God within you, and Matthew 18:18 tells you that you have the power to bind and loose, use it. Let the devil know you mean business, as well as loosing the angels of God to perform His word, as the angels hearken at the voice of Gods word. Know who you are in Christ, know your power, He gave you the power to tread on scorpians, to cast out demons and heal the sick, use it. The devil has no legal right to you, no authority over you..and he has no authority or power over your husband, because you are one flesh with him, and you can speak for both of you.
No more sitting down and crying and doubting and wondering, know Gods truth, His word, and your power that He gives you, and use it! Start backing the devil up now.
God bless.
Posted by: lanac
Thanks all 
I knew I was being wrong and I was trying so hard not to do that and to stop wondering and going by feelings. That has been my hardest point so far, but I'm back to where I was supposed to be all along. Total faith and trust in God's plan for my marriage. He doesn't need my help. I'm content now to just read the Word, listen to praise music, and talk to God. He's done a lot of amazing and wonderful things for me and I was silly to ever feel the way I was feeling. I knew better.
Thank you God for being here with me, for all the things you've done and will do. Thank you for the fellowship on these boards and the wisdom and encouragement from all of these wonderful brothers and sisters in Christ.
If I ever make another post here that sounds like that one up there everyone feel free and please smack me back to where I belong.
Thanks again God bless you all!!!
Lana
Posted by: Kristie
Well, we all probably would have to be smacked back to where we belong all the time, because you are not the only one girlfriend! lol! I did the same thing last weekend, not the divorce thing, but Gods will for me in this, and I have done the same thing today. I have went through the divorce paper thing, ever since the 19th of January when my husband called me the last time and said he was filing. The enemy has tormented me with it whenever he can. But that is what I said to you, I have to rebuke and bind it. I do the same thing, find myself thinking, even visualizing us in court, and I catch myself and have to start rebuking and binding. It is just the devil dear, cluttering your mind, trying to drag you down, and if he can get you to buy into his lies, he can make them come to pass. Likewise, Gods word is truth, and if we can declare what God says in counter to what satan says to us, Gods word will come to pass instead, because His word is the truth.
I heard a Pastor on TBN put it this way, when the devil comes in and tells you something, you should stop right there and say, "Okay devil, but before I listen to what you are telling me, I just need you to repeat that one more time to God for me, I need you to take it past Him first". He said when he started doing that, before long he found that the devil stopped talking to him.
And a very good illustration of such a thing is when satan tempted Jesus on the mountian and everytime satan spoke to Jesus, He just responded with what God said about it, and satan had to just slink away with his tail tucked, it got him no where, and that is what we have to do with satan, send him off with his tail tucked and not let him get nowhere with his lies, and we can do so because we have Gods truth as our weapon of warfare.
:-)
But...trust me, you are not alone, we are all dealing with it, and we all get tangled sometimes, I have, and have come here just like you and asked for prayer from all of you. I did it over the weekend when I asked for prayer for Gods will. By Sunday night, God had shown me several times His will for my marriage, but here I was right back today asking again. Today satan attacked me from another angle, he made me feel like I was hopeless, that there was something wrong with me, that I would never have victory in my marriage because I have sin that I am too stupid to even know I have, and it ruins all my prayers. He had me digging at myself hard, and telling God that I was just hopeless, that I would never be able to get this right, so what is the use, I may as well just quit. He had me so down trodden that I did not want to praise and worship, and I just kept saying, "God, I may be hopeless and I may not feel like praising and worshipping you right now, but I am going to do it anyway, and I hope you accept that I am doing it when my heart is not really in it, because I am the one who preaches that when you do not want to do it, in your darkest hour, that is when you do it the most, so here I am Lord, even though I feel totally lethargic in it." But I was back on the hopeless thing, because I am not good enough, maybe I am not even close to Gods favor, maybe I am so blind that I do not even know that I am lost. These have been all my thoughts for the day, and just wanting to sit down and say forget it.
So, we all do it. Here I was feeling that way but was able to speak to you and say, NO! lol! But see...I know the truth of God, and the truth has no bearing on if I am messed up..that was why. I guess that is having full faith in God, full trust in God, but not trusting myself, that is what is going on with me most of the time. Questioning if I am off track and deluded, decieved in God will for my life. I found myself just saying God if you do not want me to stay in my marriage, then just send those papers to me and I will know they are from you as a sign. But see, we must rebuke and bind in this case too, because God was not the only one who heard me say that. Fact is, no getting around it, What God has joined together, let man not separate, and that means me and my mind too. I rebuke myself! lol!
Posted by: lanac
It's funny how you end up in a situation you recently talked someone out of. The same wise words from God you give this other person are the same ones that apply to you. That's exactly what happened here. I knew what was going on and that I shouldn't let myself feel that way. I wasn't firm enough telling the devil to get lost I guess. It's just so weird to know it's wrong and what you should be doing while you're going through it and still feel trapped.
You're a blessing, Kristie, and the devil doesn't like that. In Jesus' name he will not retaliate against you for the help you're giving others.