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Posted by: Standinginfaith
I am asking you all to pray for me. I am very ashamed of myself and my actions. I had been standing for my marriage but about 2 weeks ago I gave up. I quit coming here, I quit praying and I totally shut God out. I was ready to move on with my life and never look back and never take my husband back even if he asked. Needless to say I have been totally miserable since. My husband and I have actually been getting a long better when we talk but I believe that is b/c the devil wants me to think that giving up on God is the right thing to do. My husband has continued to go to church but I have not been in 2 weeks. I am so ashamed of myself. I don't even feel worthy of coming back to God and to this place with you all to fight for my marriage. But I can't help but think this is what God wants. My husband has a son from a previous marriage and we get to claim him on taxes every other year and 2004 was our year. For 9 years we have never had trouble claiming him but this year the irs rejected our return b/c my stepson had already been claimed. We got it all worked out but we have to mail in our return now and it will be about 2 months before we see any money. My point of telling this is that we were going to use our refund to pay for our divorce. Now it will be 2 months before that can happen. I fell so stupid for not seeing God working right in front of my face. It is a miracle my husband is still going to church. Not just Sunday morning but Sunday night too. He can't go on Wed b/c he works. What was I thinking. I was beginning to try to tell myself that I didn't even love my husband and I even spent some time with someone else. I am so miserable now and crawling my way back to the Lord. Please pray for me, and for my marriage. I do love my husband and want him to come home. I am so afraid of the attacks from the enemy after turning it all over to God again. I have enjoyed the times I have talked to my husband and we got along. And my little boy is really struggling sometimes with this whole thing. He has been getting in trouble at school and just at times seems so depressed. Please pray for us.
Thank you
Posted by: ninababy73
Johna,
I am so glad to see you back on annointed.net. I have and will continue to be praying for you and your marriage. 
Posted by: michellejane
amen. Lord we ask that You will help this lady to be blessed by the Holy Spirit in all that she thinks. Help her in her dreams and hopes for the future and save her marriage if this is Your Will for her life. Give her her daily bread and forgive her her trespasses and take any unforgiveness towards her husband away, to leave her with a clean and cleansed body. Help her in feelings of unworthiness and build bridges in their relationship. we thank You Lord for Your timing and we know that You love us so much.
Jesus loves you
Posted by: HopeNFaith
Johna we all make mistakes, i have made som doozies in my stand, but the cool and awesome thing is, is God is right there to take your hand again and bring you back to HIM, he loves you and Jesus died for our sins, no matter how many mistakes we make how tired we get, he is there for us to cling to. He loves us and will never ever forsake us. My son too has turned for the worse through all this, he is so mean and hateful and its all my fault in his eyes, all i can do is pray, this sepration divorce thing is so hard on us but moreso on our kids, Right now I just ask our Father to take our children and hold them, guide them and let them feel his love. Because to be honest right now, im pretyt unlovable due to my own pity party and backsliding. But I know that I know God is right here for both of us, all we have to do is ask him to hold us again and he will. I love you sweetie
Christi
Posted by: FriendOfGod
O dear gracious God, please mercifully bless this situation. Please have your will and your way in this situation. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.
Posted by: czynka
You dear sweet sister,
You stop feeling guilty right now !! God has long forgiven you because He knows your deepest emotions and He understands your heart. He sees you through the blood of His Son, you are pure and dressed in white.
I am so thankful that the Lord has blessed you with a glimpse of His plan for your marriage. Its wonderful about the tax thing! Keep it sealed in your heart sweetie, because it will be a wonderful source of encouragement to you.
You know that sometimes God allows us to go on in our own strength. We tell ourselves that we have everything under control and that we are doing just fine.
Then suddenly the dam bursts and all the emotions spill out, yet still we tell ourselves that we are okay, and we even believe it.
Then we realise that we cant do it on our own.
We realise that we need the Lord.
Then satan comes along right away and hurls guilt in our minds, because all he wants is to keep us at a distance from God....and the further the better.
But remember this : There is NO condemnation for those who love Christ !!!
Thankyou Father for my sister and the gentleness of her spirit. You are blessing her for coming back here and confessing her mistake because You honour her humility and honesty.
This is the moment You have been waiting for Father. Here is Johna, she is all Yours.
Thankyou that You forgave her even before she asked, because You understand her deepest feelings. Thankyou that she is forgiven and washed clean by the blood of the Lamb.
Thankyou that this is the beginning of a deeper relationship with You, You are strengthening her, pouring faith into her.
Thankyou that You are restoring this marriage even at this moment....that it will be even better than it ever was, and with You as the cornerstone.
Thankyou that Johna's husband is still going to church....that he will emerge as a true man of God...and that they will soon be going together.
Lead my sister, guide her steps....help her to hear Your soft voice.
Be her comforter, her refuge and her hope.
And Lord, comfort her little boy in the middle of all this. Give him eyes to see what You want him to see, ears to hear what You want him to hear. Comfort him and love him, hold him tightly in Your Father arms and let him know how much he is loved by You and his mummy and daddy.
Let him bear no scars from all that is going on, but let this be a testimony to him of Your love, because you WILL bring his mummy and daddy back together again.
In Jesus mighty name. Amen.
Bless you Sweetie, we love you xxxx
Posted by: Rmartel
Father I thank you for StandinginFaith. I pray that she would know that neither you or I condemn her. Please let her know the power of Forgiveness
and your Love for her no matter what she does. I would ask that you strenghen her as well. I ask for your Holy Armor to be upon her which is knowing you Jesus as each part of the Armor. We plea your precious blood over her life. Amen
Rmartel
Posted by: christythompson
Jesus annoint her head her heart and her home in Jesus name
Posted by: Standinginfaith
Thank you all so much for your thoughts and prayers. It is so comforting to know that I have a place to come to and feel so welcome. You are all in my thoughts and prayers.
Johna
Posted by: akabezalel
Father, I stand in the gap for Johna and her husband. Lord forgive Johna of her sin and hear her voice once more. Holy Spirit touch her with the love of God and erase from her heart the fear and feelings of unworthiness. Show Johna her husband as You see him. Show her husband how You see Johna. Through Your eyes. Show them the love You hold for each of them and their sons. Hold the children in Your arms and raise them up through the emotional hurts and pain of this period in their lives as their parents find their footing in You and with each other. Let Your Love and Forgiveness shine in their lives and bring peace to this marriage and an end to the talk of divorce. Thank You Lord. AMEN!
Posted by: MarkSentMe
It is when we think we have shut God out that he is closest to us! The renewed communication between you and your husband is God working! The delay in your tax refund is God working. Even your son's behavior, is God working. He is working you and your husband from all angles. You have to be a united front for your son and therefore, MORE communication is going to have to take place. Now is the time to LET GO AND LET GOD. It is time to lay all of this at His feet. It is time to surrender every aspect of your life to God.
You have nothing to feel ashamed of. Every Christian goes through a time where things seem hopeless. That is when we need to hang onto God for dear life because we are vulnerable to Satan's deceptions and society's idea of perfection. They all lie.
Stay strong and Be Blessed. EXPECT A MIRACLE!
Sharyn 
Posted by: Blessedjdd
I will pray for you and your husband. I have commited the same sin. I have a husband that forgave me, tells me that he wants me to forgive myself, delights in seeing me do my Bible study. It can happen, he can forgive you and come home. Keep the faith. Trust in the Lord, let him lead you. Pray, Pray, Pray. Stay forcused on the Lord and God Bless You.
Posted by: Ferrari
Oh Father God You surely are at work here in this womans heart. I claim in Jesus name that You create a synergy of hope & restoration & the desire to fellowship together as family. Break the walls of hardened hearts completely down Father God, hard hearts created by ourselves from hurt,pain & rejection. Restore selfrespect with Your Grace & Mercy that You graciously give to the humble & repentant. Lift her up & hold her Father, fill her with a boldness to step out in faith amidst the fear of hurt, soften her heart & fill her with only Your desires, restore this marriage & her precious sons heart, fill her son with Your confidence let them feel Your comfort of when You so Graciously hold them in Your loving hands, in Jesus name I pray Amen
Posted by: Sheila Stone
I think we all come to a time that we feel we are crawling back. I think God loves the crawlers. He knows we are but mere men and women. He knows the enemy and how he attacks the mind. Thank God he loves us as he does. I have found that I have walked away and have crawled too, but he has never moved. Just standing and waiting for my return, and when I do he showers me with love. May his love fall on you. God take this woman's shame and put it under the blood. Amen
In Jesus Holy name I pray