Last week I tried to reschedule for last Thursday but they said they were booked. I told them to make our appointments for this Thursday. Rachel had informed me that she had run out of her medicine. I felt awful! I told her how bad I felt about it. I started getting angry at myself. I was so Ashamed of myself for the scheduling mishap. She had also reminded me of the time when I was low on medicine and scheduled last minute appointments with her coming along so she could see the doctor too. 
Yes, she was avoiding me. In fact when I called her last night at 11:30 she refused to pick up on her call waiting. I called right back and finally she answered. She told me how she was not speaking to me. How it was not right what I did. Full of bitterness, coldness, and unforgiveness. I asked her about the appointments. She said she was having her other girlfriend bring her even though we have always gone together! Can you believe that!? She was going to go ahead and go to her appointment without telling me the time for my appointment. 
I had to ask her a couple of times what time so I could just go there directly for myself before she gave me the time for mine. I humbly knew I was geting what I deserved. I continued to say how sorry I was. I even offered out of true kindness to drive her home from the appointment since her girlfriend does not wait (She see's the same therapist as me too.) Its the least I can do to show that I truly care for her, whether she thanks me or not. She agreed to allow me to take her home but told me how she was not going to be speaking to me on the way back. I asked her if she had listened to my answering machine message. She said she listened to some of it but then hit the delete button before she heard all of it, because she couldn't stand it! Hearing that was a stab in the heart! 
I put a lot of effort into that message expressing my true regrets. Oh well! (Yes, I have been turning cold towards her) She once again rubbed in my face how she went with me to the doctor when my meds were low, putting a guilt trip on me. 
She was telling me how I was just so nasty! I tried to humbly express my regrets, saying how I can't blame her for being angry and that she had every right to feel how she was feeling. But she would not listen. She just said she would see me at the doctors office, then hung up.|
Originally Posted by rocker
Hevenly Father, please bring this matter with Rachel to a complete resolution. Please clear up any misunderstandings Rachel may still have and destroy the works of the enemy in this matter. Thanks, in Jesus Name amen.
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{{{HUGS}}} Love You Peter.|
Originally Posted by Remnant7
God Bless you as you struggle through your emotional stresses caused by the bi-polar condition you both have. As you wrote, you and Rachel are both suffering from it and so it stands to reason that she will over-react when out of medication too. I pray that you stand your ground when you cannot financially help her, but let her know you love her as a best friend. She'll come around. May God deliver you both from this disorder and deliver you both to your right minds always... I feel for you both, having a mother who is bi-polar... God Bless you.
Lauree aka Remnant7 |
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Originally Posted by christythompson
Jesus help and bless Janet.
Lord show her how to modulate and control the tone in her voice. Sometimes its not the words we speak but how we say these words. Lord, Janet has a good heart and is a loving person Help this friend to see that and forgive. Bless Janet with wisdom Bless her in the work place and with all of her relationships. Help her to use her work time wisely and ethically Free her conscience and lift the financial burden from her shoulders. Jesus remove the pressure and heal her... Heal her in every way |
Thank you for taking the time to read my story! God Bless You both sisters! I told the psychiatrist what was going on that I was under stress, moody, irritable, drained and worn down and she changed my medication. It is being filled at the pharmacy right now. It is supposed to help me to feel more at peace from day to day and not be anxious or worried. Anyway Rachel and I were heading home. As I told you all above, I had recalled having said part of a sentence and that she had taken it the wrong way. I was close. Rachel told me how she felt. She explained that she was just asking me for a couple of things and that I was nasty thE way I said "I don't know!" Then I remembered what is was I was tryingt to say. I was trying to say "I dont know why I made that horrible mistake of scheduling our appointment on my first day of class like that. I feel so bad for it. I forgot that it was my first day of class." The words I don't know were the three words that came out when she interrupted thinking I was saying something I was not. That's when she had hung up. But everything's fine now. We both told each other that we were best friends still and that we loved each other. Praise the Lord! 
Thanks for listening. God Bless You All!