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Saved By Grace

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Posted by: Reserved

My journey with the Lord is an awesome one. I was an abused child. Shunted from foster home to orphanage to foster homes where I was sexually abused. I was used as a maid. I was verbally abused. But as a child I heard the story of Jesus and although I didn't know love, I was grateful to God for my toes, my eyes, my health. I didn't know God loved me - He did because He pulled me out of suicide and set me on the Rock of Jesus. I had always believed in Christ but I was mentally ill from all the abuse. I had several stays in mental hospitals. I was also told by two hospitals that I would never have a child and that depressed me greatly.

After I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior, I became pregnant and God blessed me with a beautiful baby boy. I began to understand that God loved me and I dedicated my heart to the Lord and I dedicated my son to Him.

The enemy of God was lurking and worked through my husband to hurt me through my husband beating me and being unfaithful. I wish I could say that I had the strength and love of God to endure the trials and tribulations that I encountered but I didn't hold up with the persecution. I never stopped believing in God, but I was a lukewarm christian following my own way. I even got involved in astrology, tarot and palm reading. I used to read the stars, I used to read the cards, but now I read the Bible.

My Savior never gave up on me and came to me and told me to stop smoking pot. I also stopped smoking cigarettes. I have now rededicated my life to Christ and I am amazed at His mercy and grace. Last week my son got married and it was a fairy tale wedding in front of the ocean. God is so good.

I have one desire of my heart and that is that my son turn to the Lord. I know this will happen one day and I know that I did not bring my son up correctly and opened the door to confusion when I was dabbling in the occult. I trust that the Lord will bring my son to Him just as He remained faithful to me even when I was not faithful.

I hope that who ever reads this testimony of how Jesus pulled me from the pit of suicide and cleaned me off and set me on the rock of salvation can gain some strength. I'll be happy to answer any questions that anyone has.

Please pray for my son, Nelson and his wife, Kathleen, to turn to the Lord and that the Lord will draw them to Him in a gentle way.


Posted by: lizzie1007

[What a beautiful testimony to our Lord and the amazing way he loves us. Being in law enforcement I have seen my share of abused Children; the horror stories seem to never end. How they make it...is a miracle in itself. I am so happy that you kept coming back to God. I pray that your son and daughter-in-law will find the Lord and begin their lives with his amazing blessings. Thank you for sharing your story. I humble myself before our Lord and thank him for giving you amazing strength.....blessings.....Lizzie


Posted by: Reserved

Hi Lizzie: Thank you for your words of encouragement. I am very happy that a lady of compassion like you is in a position to make a difference in the lives of children that are abused. I am sure you understand that many delinquents are acting out a rage from their hurt. God is so good and is so awesome. I know it is not His will that little children suffer. There are many good parents but sometimes I think the tragedy is that kids who are delinquent and abused end up having a negative influence on kids from good homes. The real problem is that the kids were not given the nuturing and guidance to begin with but even the good parents end up suffering when they see all their good work derailed.

I pray for your safety in your work for working with the public in your capacity requires a lot of bravery.

I was reading Matthew today and read, "Blessed are the merciful for they shall obtain mercy". Lizzie, I had so much forgiving to do - even to forgive myself...but God has been very merciful to me. He calls me His "little soldier".

The fact that I am alive is proof in the existence of a good God but only people who know of the saving grace of Jesus Christ can truly understand what I mean.

God bless.