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Posted by: alexx

today it was beautiful outside....but i am so deep in depression that i want to be in a dark room.....my mind is so tormented with the fact that my husband is with this other woman and that they are enjoying their life and today they have the boys and are going to a big fireworks show tonight....danny and i always went to this together...i feel like i have just been so easily replaced and if i was dead he would just be so happy....right now im so lonely and i ask and beg god to just bring me a friend here local that would just help me overcome this...ive lost so much...my husband...my house....my job...i just feel worthless and sometimes i feel like if i wasnt here the kids wouldnt be torn.....everyone has said all they feel they can say to me to help so i cant ask anymore...what is wrong with me...am i not worthy of true and faithful love.....this is the second time for me....my first husband cheated and left me and my three daughters....is it me.....god needs to just show me what im doing wrong.....danny and i prayed together...we prayed for a son...god gave us 2.....why did he leave..how did he ever let himself fall in love with someone else...i dont know..i really just feel so worthless...like i will never be truly loved by anyone


Posted by: The Anointed One

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Originally Posted by alexx
today it was beautiful outside....but i am so deep in depression that i want to be in a dark room.....my mind is so tormented with the fact that my husband is with this other woman and that they are enjoying their life and today they have the boys and are going to a big fireworks show tonight....danny and i always went to this together...i feel like i have just been so easily replaced and if i was dead he would just be so happy....right now im so lonely and i ask and beg god to just bring me a friend here local that would just help me overcome this...ive lost so much...my husband...my house....my job...i just feel worthless and sometimes i feel like if i wasnt here the kids wouldnt be torn.....everyone has said all they feel they can say to me to help so i cant ask anymore...what is wrong with me...am i not worthy of true and faithful love.....this is the second time for me....my first husband cheated and left me and my three daughters....is it me.....god needs to just show me what im doing wrong.....danny and i prayed together...we prayed for a son...god gave us 2.....why did he leave..how did he ever let himself fall in love with someone else...i dont know..i really just feel so worthless...like i will never be truly loved by anyone

Father, in the name of Jesus, I thank you for another opportunity to trust Your Word. I do thank You, my Father, that, The Bible declares in HABAKKUK Chapter 1 and verses 2 and 3, that, "O Lord, how long shall I cry, and thou wilt not hear! even cry out unto thee of violence, and thou wilt not save! Why dost thou shew me iniquity, and cause me to behold grievance? for spoiling and violence are before me: and there are that raise up strife and contention," in the name of Jesus, and it goes on to say in PSALM 37 and verse 17, that, "Lord, how long wilt thou look on? rescue my soul from their destructions, my darling from the lions," and based on that, Father God, and in the mighty name of Jesus, I pray that You STOP THIS LAWLESSNESS and rebellion right now, in Jesus' name. And Lord, Your Word says in 1 CORINTHIAN Chapter 7 and verse 3, to, "Let the husband render unto the wife DUE BENEVOLENCE....," in the name of Jesus, and Lord WEBSTER'S NEW AMERICAN DICTIONARY defines "BENEVOLENCE" as "The disposition to do good; charitableness," in the name of Jesus, So Father I ask you to hasten Your Word to perform it as outlined in JEREMIAH 1:12, in the name of Jesus, AND BRING THIS WOMAN'S HURT TO AN END, RIGHT NOW, IN JESUS' NAME. AMEN AND THANK YOU GOD!


Posted by: jeremiah184

Jesus, only son of GOd, I ask in YOur Name for you to move and break this adultry for her husband, In th ename of Jesus, with the sword of the SPirit, the word of God IT is Written, "what Godhath put together let no man put asunder," Jesus by th epower invested in me as a believer in Jesus Christ, I ask for you to remember Your words, and bind up the broken heart of this wife and mother, Jesus I ask that You comfort her and console her and help her to find or be found by a seasoned and Godly woman prayer partner that can bring much wisdom and spiritual direction to this woman. Jesus, Lamb of God, please have mercy and forgiveness upon this woman an drestore her heart and I askfor You to heal and give her a sound mind. Jesus I ask in Your name that You block the paths of this adultress husband and let him not catch his adultress and that You block his paths with her and bring the HOly SPirit's conviction upon him and like Namann, produce a need in this husband that can only be met by You. Jesus I ask for You to send a troubling spirit to these two like You did with Saul. I ask that You do not let any of our adultress husband's or wives have any more pleasure in their sin but to bring them to repentence, to turn from their transgressions and ask for a new heart, spirit and mind in You Jesus.
Jesus, please help this wife and give her Your grace and healing and provision. I thank You Jesus for being a loving and trustworthy God..let her know that You have a plan in all this and that she just needs to keep with You pelae help her and encourage and strenghthen her to just keep looking to You for salvation, for healing, for her everything. Help her to let go of her husband into Your hands. Give her rest and peace Jesus, please Jesus. I thank You for Your lvoe and kindness Jesus. I thank You for Your loving us. Please have mercy and forgiveness upon us and deliver this wife all wives, all husbands dealing with adultry fromthe hand of the wicked and form temptation...help us all go through this trial and please You. Thank You Jesus. Thank You.


Posted by: Nessa

Lord, bring this lady out of her depression. Show her that her joy and her salvation, her trust and her dependence is on You and Your love, not her husband and his love. Strengthen their relationship, bring them love again for each other. Lord separate him from this unrighteous adultery. In Jesus Name. Amen.


Posted by: MarkSentMe

alexx, you need to grieve for your marriage. Just like grieving for a person whom has died or a beloved pet, the death of a marriage is just as traumatic.

Father God,
Thank You for alexx. Thank You for her sons. Thank You for her husband taking the boys and spending time with them. Please comfort her grieving heart. Please releive the anger, bitterness and resentment which is polluting her heart. Please shine a light for her path. Please send an angel to guide her. Please help her to bear this burden and please give her the strength to endure. Thank You, Lord. You are the Great Counselor and the Great Comforter. Amen.

Sharyn


Posted by: Sulten

Dear Lisa,

You are going through a greiving process right now that is very strong and overwhelming. Prayer and working through this confusion and pain can help you build a closer, deeper relationship with the Savior. He will be the most important person in your life right now to heal you from within and give you the sense of true self worth of who you really are and your divine potential. He will help you to see yourself in a true light. He sees what you don't see, or when your judgements about yourself get cloudy and lose perspective, because you are feeling unworthy of love right now. There is so much hope of you finding someone who will truly love and appreciate you for who you are when you are healed. Do you know that I never found the right man in my life until I was 47? We both came out of bad relationships. Let me tell you, I had some really bad painful relationships that when I look back now, though I remember feeling the things you describe about my own self at the time, it is now after meeting my husband and being married to him for many years, I realize how the Lord brought me a person who would love me and want me and appreciate me for who I am. I remember in my other relationships how my boyfriends were always trying to change me and making me feel inadequate. My point is that now you are going through a process of healing and in time, the Lord can restore your sense of who you really are and build your confidence in yourself and heal you. He can also lead you to someone who will not let you down. I asked him specifically for that blessing. I remember going to him with tears streaming down my face and telling him I just wanted someone who wanted me and would love me always. I needed time to heal after an extremely painful relationship before I was whole enough to give to another one. The Lord is the one who will teach you how to love yourself and believe in your heart again that you are worthy of love. Turn to him and tell him your feelings like you would a friend. He will hear your pleas and answer. He will bring you peace and comfort and build you back up again. You have no idea the blessings the Lord has in store for you, when you turn your life completely over to him.
I will be praying for you.

God Bless,
Bonnie

Dear Heavenly Father, I lift Lisa up to you and ask for a miracle of healing and strength in her life in every way she stands in need. I pray that You will bless her with discernment and inspiration in ordering her life and pulling her back up and I ask that these dark clouds and oppressive feelings will begin to lift and she will feel of Your perfect love for her and Your influence in every way she stands in need. Build her up within and help her to see herself as You see her. Prepare a way and a new life before her. Prepare a man who would be worthy of her and treat her the way she deserves to be treated as Thy daughter. Use this time to build and strengthen her faith in You and raise up friends and influences to give support and understanding and friendship. I pray for a miracle of restoration in her life and healing. Every blessing she stands in need of, I ask in the prayer of faith, in Jesus Holy name amen.




Posted by: Frederik

Hi alexx,
I'm sorry that your situation is so bad.
I do not think that you're to blame when your husband falls in love with another women. I hope that you'll find a friend who shows you that you're not worthless.


Posted by: firekracker

Father, i lift up Alexx to You. Provide peace and comfort like no man can provide. Help her to realize her value.. Rest her mind and help her to feel and know evidence of You working in her life. In jesus name. Amen.


Posted by: ryna

Alexx dear, I feel very sorry for you and understand exactly what you are going through having been in a similar situation one time. I encourage you to be strong and stick to prayer. There is nothing impossible with God.Also try to keep yourself busy with friends and family so as not to give the devil a chance to rejoice when he see's you so low.


Heavenly Father, I lift Alexx up to you. Lord, I trust and believe that you know whatever she is going thru right now. The thought of rejection and loneliness is so painfull Lord. Father I pray that you look down upon her and answer her prayers. May you comfort and guide her during this very difficult moment. Help her oh Lord to understand that there is nothing wrong with her and that you love her so much and will take care of her situation. Father give her strength to go through the situation that the devil has put her in and help her to come out of it feeling much stronger. You said it or Lord in Psalms 49 that those who come to you for help will never be disappointed. We believe with Alexx that you have heard our cry for help and that you will not disappoint us. Amen.


Posted by: FriendOfGod

O my dear Lisa! I can imagine hard hard this must be for you being Labor Day weekend, the first without your husband, and being home alone on a beautiful day. Sometimes when it is beautiful outside during a time when you are grieving, it only makes you feel worse, especially as you see the golden sun shining on trees and houses during the late afternoon. I may not have lost a husband, but I have experienced grief when it was pretty outside. My heart goes out to you sister. I know it hurts.

O dear gracious God, please flood Lisa with your peace. Give her the hope, and strength to get though all of this. Please show her your love. Help her to feel your presence. Help her to know you for who you really are. Please soothe her and comfort her O God. Let her know that you are hurting with her. Help her to overcome. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

Hang in there sister! I love you.

Your sister in Christ

Janet


Posted by: alexx

i can only once again say thank you to all who have prayed for me.....god knows my heart and he knows that right now the words of encouragement that i have gotten from all of you have been a bright spot in my day...i know god will bring me through this...its just im so tired of crying....so many are hurting and in much worse shape than me and i need to be praying for them and doing what i can to help them but i cant seem to crawl out of this depression and get outside of my own selfish needs.....i have my arms...my legs...my eyesight...food...water....my children...and my friends here....thank you god.....thank you for all these blessings...and turning my eyes away from what ive lost.....and to all who lifted me up in prayer..thank you from my heart


Posted by: christythompson

Jesus
be with Lisa today
Hold her and keep her mind from feeling all the pain of rejection.
Steady her hand and head.
Lord show her what to do regarding her kids
She know that her husband and this woman are using drugs
perhaps in fairness the right decision may be the hard one.. to say No.
No to the boys staying with these influences dad or not.
Time to start saying no to wrong and yes to right
so she may be trampled no more.
She has been stepped on and used.
God raise her up
give her confidence
Be her strength because she has none of her own right now.
Let her speak the truth, all of it.
Jesus send people to help her with comfort
Send work to her and show her where you want her.