This makes me feel like a hypocrite. And then there are these people which tell you: What? You're asking for a sign? You will not get a sign from God!

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Originally Posted by Frederik
This is from me!
I don't understand this. You said even though you believed and served God you were not saved??? How can this be???? How is this possible???? This is exactly the stuff which scares me. If you were not saved then maybe I am also not saved. Oh man. And now the whole thing starts all over again. ![]() I'll go to bed now. This is exhausting. Really, I am so sick of being scared of maybe not being saved and all this. I did what I could do. If I'm not saved now then how shall I ever be saved? You cannot do more than repent and aks Jesus into your heart. |
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Originally Posted by Frederik
What shall I do now? Try to be happy?
Don't you think I'd like to have more faith and trust in God? Of course I would! I also pray about these things. But somehow nothing changes. And where does Aka wanna know how much I have grown? Can you tell me this? I think I know much better where I am and I don't feel like I've grown very much. |
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Originally Posted by Christian Commando
Your silly and unacceptable childish responces of- "I'm not in the mood" and more are clear enough proof you do not want to do it.
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| And I really don't understand why are there people like you or Stacy which experience all this stuff and other's don't? Somehow I feel like I've already become one of those christians which you described which have a hard time accepting such things which you talk about cause often I also ask myself wether these things which others talk about are real or maybe imagined. |
| Is God funny for example? Does he have humor? |
| This would mean that people like Benny Hinn or whoever hears from God and sees stuff are less blessed than a regular church goer who experiences nothing. |
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Originally Posted by Frederik
Oh man, you don't even understand what I mean when I say I'm not in the mood. You come off very judgemental. Who gives you the right to say that I don't really want it?
* Remnant I have tried to seek God but I really didn't know what to do. I felt so dumb. I tried to talk to God but it led nowhere. I wanted to finally achieve something but I achieved nothing. I don't even know what to expect. What happens when you actually FIND God? A flashing light? A booming voice? What can I expect? Anyway, the problem is I really didn't know what to do. I cannot pray for hours. It was so frustrating! I was really hungry but in the end I didn't know what to do. I didn't last longer than 1 hour. I talked to God and prayed my usual stuff and that was it. After 1 hour I had no more ideas and I was frustrated. Imagine you want something and at the same time don't know how. This is how I felt. I tried this during the holidays for a while. Every night I took my time and I would have had a lot of time. I would have loved to spend time with God for hours cause like I said I had the time and I was hungry but after about 1 hour I was done with my stuff and didn't know what to do now. Maybe God also wants to show me that I am not the one who determines when something happens cause I always thought that as soon as I really start searching for God something will happen. I always thought this way cause I heard from others that they seeked God and then something happened. But you also get so very different advice. Some people will advise you to spend a lot of time seeking for God and others will advise you to not do this cause this would mean you try to earn getting into his presence. So it's not even clear what to do about it. And there is also a danger. If you seek for God every day and invest a lot of time for this then you'll also have huge expectations and if God doesnt show up then you might become angry. I would become angry, I know this. I easily become frustrated and angry. This also happened to me during the holidays. I started and was totally enthusiastic but after a few days the fire was gone and I became frustrated and then I stopped seeking God and then I tried to motivate myself again and asked God to motivate me to get back into this routine of spending time with God but somehow it didn't work. I did not really achieve much during the holidays even though I wanted to. I had a lot of time but I didn't really reach anything cause time is not even the crucial factor. The dumbest thing is wanting to seek God and not knowing how. And now I'm gonna read Mark and Stacie's replies cause first I wanted to reply to you two. |