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Really Bummed Out and Moody

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Posted by: FriendOfGod

Hello Everyone. My mood has really been altered. I know I should not allow my joy and peace to be taken, however I suffered a great dissapointment and it will take time to adjust. I had to cancel my trip to my Godmother's on December 9th. She has to take care of her ailing mother in law. I will not be able to introduce Peter to my Godmother until spring when it is almost time for our wedding anyway. I am very low in spirits today. It is very important to me that I introduce my Godmother to the man I am to marry. My Godmother has been a vital influence to me since I was a baby, the most important in my life. She moved to Pennsylvania from Maryland in 1998. Since then, I have only seen her 3 times. I have not seen her in over 3 1/2 years. (Since April 2002) I really miss her. I really wanted to enjoy the holidays in part by partaking in this special Holiday Vacation with Pete to see my Godmother. It is because of her taking me to a Christmas play on my 13th birthday that I got saved. My Godmother was really big on celebrating my birthday during all of my years growing up. (From age 1 all the way to 21 and beyond!) With this year being my 30th birthday, a really big deal, as well as this being the Christmas of my engagement, I really thought this special trip would be the best way to celebrate. I had an awesome time visiting her in up in Pennsylvania in December 1998 after she moved for my 23rd birthday, for example. Now I am crushed and suffering from the holiday blues.

I called my Godmother while I was with Pete yesterday on my cell phone for continued arrangements of the visit when she informed me of the bad news. I was so depressed last night that I didn't feel like being affectionate with Pete. Pete held me in his arms on the couch and I fell asleep for three hours instead. Pete tried to cheer me up, but we know that only God can cheer me up. It feels like my life has lost meaning. I know I am not to base my beliefs and actions on my feelings. This is something that really meant a lot to me, however. You all know I have Bi-polar. It is really acting up due to this painful cancellation of this special trip. It would have been so beautiful. Now, it seems like I have nothing to look forward to. Pete said that he would come up with something really special for me for my birthday, perhaps even a weekend getaway somewhere. I really hope he does. I know my thought processes are messed up right now. I am not myself right now. I am having trouble functioning. I have to trust God in all of this. God may have better plans. God knows best on how to best celebrate my 30th birthday and Christmas of my engagement. I pray that God will bless me with best birthday ever no matter what! I do really want to concentrate on feeling God's love this Christmas and remaining in joy and peace, still making the best of this Holiday Season. I will do my best, once this dark cloud leaves me. I have other plans in December, but the trip to my Godmother's was a major part of my plans. I don't mean to be selfish, but when I am moody like this, it is hard not to be self-centered. Please pray that God blesses me with an awesome extra special Holiday Season and Birthday that will maximize my happiness. Pray that God fills me with peace, hope and comfort in the meantime. God Bless You All!


Your sister in Christ

Janet


Posted by: jeremiah184

Jesus I ask You to place a loving hand upon her and comfort her in this dis-appointment. Jesus, You know the feelings of loss that have come up like a wave in her and I ask that You help her to experience these feelings and cope with these feelings in ways that honor You. Bring her into safe harbour with these feelings and let her understand that You know her and You are in control and while the reason for this change of plans is not clear and painful, that You can take her through this loss.
Help her to give You thanks in everything because that is when we affirm You and Your loving characteristics. ANd when we affirm Your character Jesus, we are reassured that we can trust in with everything.
Give her the grace of comfort she needs from You Jesus. Be the presence she needs now.

Thank You Jesus.


Posted by: bluecatkeeper

Lord we ask for healing for Janet in her spirit and in her heart. Please comfort her as she gets over the dissappointment of this setback. Please enable her to enjoy her holiday with her family and Pete. Please bless her on this her 30th birthday and her upcoming marraige. In Your name, Amen
Bless YOu Janet, cheer up. we love you!
Lori


Posted by: FriendOfGod

Hey Jerimiah and Lori! Thank you so much for your awesome prayers of support. I realize that I am to have a continual feast regardless of circumstances. It is hard on my flesh. I am trustung in the fact that God's ways are higher than our ways and that everything is coming about according to his perfect pleasing will. God Bless You Both!


Your sister in Christ

Janet


Posted by: rocker

Lord, please comfort Janet in this time of loss. Please recompense Janet for this loss yesterday. Let Janet feel Your comfort and joy. Fill Janet's life with positive fulfilling things in Your perfect plan. Please lift all this heaviness away. Thanks in Jesus Name amen.


Posted by: FriendOfGod

Quote:
Originally Posted by rocker
Lord, please comfort Janet in this time of loss. Please recompense Janet for this loss yesterday. Let Janet feel Your comfort and joy. Fill Janet's life with positive fulfilling things in Your perfect plan. Please lift all this heaviness away. Thanks in Jesus Name amen.


Thanks Honey, I needed that.


Posted by: Sulten

Dear Sister, I just wanted you to know that I really appreciate you! You are an example to me in the way you live your life always trying to do what is right. I remember when I was engaged the highs and the lows. I also deal with depression and I know something about that. It takes some time for your emotions to catch up with what you know in your heart and mind. Be kind to yourself and give yourself some time to come around. I think the Lord will go to work on each problem and it will be answered in due time. I know you know this. You have everything to live for. Your wonderful fiance and life is a head of you. Remember the problems help you build strength and closeness in your relationship. You will continue to grow in your love for each other in this way. I didn't think it was possible to learn to love my husband any more then I did when we first got married. Now I love him even more and it just continues. I will keep you in my prayers dear Janet.

Dear Heavenly Father, I pray that this situation will work out in the best possible way for Janet and Pete to meet Janet's Godmother. I pray that You will help Janet to feel peaceful and calm and help the serotonin in her brain to be balanced. Help her to have the strength to deal with the ups and downs and put things into perseptive and not be too hard on herself. Bless her in every way You see she stands in need, I ask in Jesus Holy name amen.




Posted by: MarkSentMe

How far away from your godmother do you live? Perhaps you and Pete could drive up sometime after Christmas day (like the 27th or 28th) and spend the day with her instead. Get up at about o'dark thirty, take turns driving up, introduce her to Pete, catch up on lost time, have some coffee, take her to lunch (giving her some respite from caregiver duties), chat some more, and then head back. This way you get to see her, she gets a break, you don't have to put Coal in a kennel or disrupt his life.
Being a caregiver is stressful and add to it having to clean the house up for company, cook, bake and decorate the house....it's a lot.

BTW: My parents met my husband on the day of our wedding! Our military schedules, me in Korea and he in the Virgin Islands and the wedding in California with my parents flying in from NJ, the week of the earthquake in 1989

Dear Lord,
Please comfort our sister Janet.
Please comfort her godmother as well. Please give her the strength to care for her mother-in-law and bless them both with good health. Please intervene in this situation so that Janet and Pete can go and visit, even if it's only for a short time. Please ease the stress level of this situation and may Your love shine. Thank You, Lord. Amen.

Sharyn


Posted by: JeriRose12

Lord, I ask that You would deliver Janet of bi-polar disorder. I pray that she can be totally delivered from all need of medication. I am praying for others along this line, and I pray that all of us can see our loved ones with bi-polar be set free!

Give Janet peace. Help her to cope with this. I pray that she is not down for days, but that You touch her brain so that the serotonin is replenshed.

Father, it makes me sad when people have bi-polar, because it effects people in such drastic ways. Your ways our higher than ours, and we have no concept why Your children sometimes have this, but, Lord, please deliver Janet of bi-polar for good, for once and for all! I so desire to see her totally free of this disorder! Lord, help us to understand how to pray and Your plan in letting Your children deal with this. I ask for a miracle, and I also ask for patience. In Jesus Name, amen.

~JeriRose~
Finding YOU in 2005


Posted by: firekracker

Father, I ask you to bless Janet and lift her spirits. Be with her and Pete to help them have a great Chrsitmas and great celebration for Janet's birthday. Help Janet's mood to stabilize. Father, I pray that you bless her Godmother and the special relationship they have. In Jesus name. amen.


Posted by: FriendOfGod

Quote:
Originally Posted by Sulten
Dear Sister, I just wanted you to know that I really appreciate you! You are an example to me in the way you live your life always trying to do what is right. I remember when I was engaged the highs and the lows. I also deal with depression and I know something about that. It takes some time for your emotions to catch up with what you know in your heart and mind. Be kind to yourself and give yourself some time to come around. I think the Lord will go to work on each problem and it will be answered in due time. I know you know this. You have everything to live for. Your wonderful fiance and life is a head of you. Remember the problems help you build strength and closeness in your relationship. You will continue to grow in your love for each other in this way. I didn't think it was possible to learn to love my husband any more then I did when we first got married. Now I love him even more and it just continues. I will keep you in my prayers dear Janet.

Dear Heavenly Father, I pray that this situation will work out in the best possible way for Janet and Pete to meet Janet's Godmother. I pray that You will help Janet to feel peaceful and calm and help the serotonin in her brain to be balanced. Help her to have the strength to deal with the ups and downs and put things into perseptive and not be too hard on herself. Bless her in every way You see she stands in need, I ask in Jesus Holy name amen.



O my dear Bonnie, thank you so much for your awesome support and prayers. God Bless You Sweetie.


Your sister in Christ

Janet


Posted by: FriendOfGod

Quote:
Originally Posted by MarkSentMe
How far away from your godmother do you live? Perhaps you and Pete could drive up sometime after Christmas day (like the 27th or 28th) and spend the day with her instead. Get up at about o'dark thirty, take turns driving up, introduce her to Pete, catch up on lost time, have some coffee, take her to lunch (giving her some respite from caregiver duties), chat some more, and then head back. This way you get to see her, she gets a break, you don't have to put Coal in a kennel or disrupt his life.
Being a caregiver is stressful and add to it having to clean the house up for company, cook, bake and decorate the house....it's a lot.

BTW: My parents met my husband on the day of our wedding! Our military schedules, me in Korea and he in the Virgin Islands and the wedding in California with my parents flying in from NJ, the week of the earthquake in 1989

Dear Lord,
Please comfort our sister Janet.
Please comfort her godmother as well. Please give her the strength to care for her mother-in-law and bless them both with good health. Please intervene in this situation so that Janet and Pete can go and visit, even if it's only for a short time. Please ease the stress level of this situation and may Your love shine. Thank You, Lord. Amen.

Sharyn


Hey Sharyn! Thank you for your awesome prayers. God Bless You!


Your sister in Christ

Janet


Posted by: FriendOfGod

Quote:
Originally Posted by JeriRose12
Lord, I ask that You would deliver Janet of bi-polar disorder. I pray that she can be totally delivered from all need of medication. I am praying for others along this line, and I pray that all of us can see our loved ones with bi-polar be set free!

Give Janet peace. Help her to cope with this. I pray that she is not down for days, but that You touch her brain so that the serotonin is replenshed.

Father, it makes me sad when people have bi-polar, because it effects people in such drastic ways. Your ways our higher than ours, and we have no concept why Your children sometimes have this, but, Lord, please deliver Janet of bi-polar for good, for once and for all! I so desire to see her totally free of this disorder! Lord, help us to understand how to pray and Your plan in letting Your children deal with this. I ask for a miracle, and I also ask for patience. In Jesus Name, amen.

~JeriRose~
Finding YOU in 2005


Hey Jerina! Thank you for your awesome prayers! God Bless You Sister!


Your sister in Christ

Janet


Posted by: FriendOfGod

Quote:
Originally Posted by firekracker
Father, I ask you to bless Janet and lift her spirits. Be with her and Pete to help them have a great Chrsitmas and great celebration for Janet's birthday. Help Janet's mood to stabilize. Father, I pray that you bless her Godmother and the special relationship they have. In Jesus name. amen.


Hey firecracker! Thank you so much for your awesome prayers! God Bless You!


Your sister in Christ

Janet


Posted by: FriendOfGod

Hello Everyone. I am feeling a little better today. Pete had mentioned when we were out wanting to do something special for my 30th birthday. He suggested a special overnight trip either in place of the trip to see my Godmother, or on my birthday itself. Pete is not as internet savvy as I am. He doesn't like to post here much. I have to coax him and often tell him which threads need prayers. He told me to search for a place online (driving distance) where I would be the happiest so that he can then book it. I came up with the idea of going to the beach, since nobody will be there and the costs will be low with rooms available. He is taking me to Ocean City Maryland on December 9th-11th in celebration of my birthday. The hotel has an indoor pool and hot tub. It's not the same as seeing my Godmother, but it is a way to make this holiday being the year of my 30th birthday and our engagement really special. Perhaps the Lord wants us just to have a day trip to see my Godmother in the spring sometime. Pray for our trip to the beach to go well. Once again, thank you all for your prayers. God Bless You All!


Your sister in Christ

Janet