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still lost but alive
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Posted by: elisha
hello it is me Elisha from cpnp. i just wanted you to know i am still alive and alive. I am not spiritualy alive thoe. i just dont understand my self. it is truly like I want it I try to live the way i am supposed to but i fall faster and harder each time. I know what is true and i know what i right.so i have come to a conclusion i am just dumb. I have not one GOOD reason why i am not walking with god. i know he wont hurt me i know that in the past it was me hurting me not god hurting me. I am just a sad misrable person.plus to top it off my father who molested me when i was 7 is now talking to my little brother and sister and they are talking to me about him and he wants me to talk to him but he wont admit what he did to me or any one. and I am fighting with my daughters dad about seeing her, plus every time i look in the mirror i see somthing i cant look at so I dont look in the mirror any more i have started not eating again i think i have eaten once this week and it is easy. i am not proud but i have to be honest in order for some one to help me from me.I am not a safe person to me if you can understand that. i am moving in march to alaska. not sure if that is smart but i feel I need to get away.Please pray fro my mom she is being such a strong woman she is praying soo much for me and my family and I know she is getting tired she feel like spirituly she fighting satin for the whole family and we are not caring but i do care I just am selfish I guess.look i dont know why I wrote you . I would be getting tired of me if i were you and god. but Iam still here alive and running.a lot of people have said this and they are right but maybe some day i will be smart enough to STOP.ok bye
Posted by: JeriRose12
You should be tired, not us! It is time to do as Jesus said in the Bible:
28"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." (Matthew 11:28)
Come to Jesus and lay it all down. Find rest!
~JeriRose~
Finding YOU in 2006 