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Originally Posted by ashmo17
I am new to this website. My prodigal husband and I divorced last october against my will. We were together 15 years (since I was 15 years old) and have 2 children. Almost 2 years ago, he became involved with a 19 year old married child at his work, who also divorced her husband. I know that my Lord has called me to stand in the gap for the restoration of this marriage and chris's salvation. I am beginning to feel myself get weak and exhausted at times during this journey. Almost 4 years ago, he left for 5 months saying "he wasn't happy" and I later found out he was having an affair with someone at his work. He came home, but never repented and the marriage never had a chance from then on. This time, not only did he divorce me, but I had to file bankruptcy because I couldn't afford to maintain everything so I lost our family home and have had to move to another town. I also lost my job at the same time. God has provided for ALL of our needs so I am very thankful. The struggle for me is that he is still with her yet he will tell you to your face he is unhappy. He is encouraged by all the changes that the Lord has made in me and has over the last few months been talking to me more, coming over, etc. Even in the times where he is hurting me (especially when he has the kids and him and her do things with them), I just continue to show agape love that my Lord is enabling me to do. I would love for anyone to stand with me and help me through this time. I am being completly honest with everyone right now...it is hard to be a friend only expecially when you love that person and I just feel exhausted. Our visitation is different than most, we only live 12 miles apart so he sees the kids every other day and every other weekend. That is what makes it hard, too. There is no closure or grief time for me because I always see or talk to him daily. Please, someone...help me to stand stronger on the Word that I KNOW is true. I know that God is in control- I have no doubt. I'm just finding myself tired and I'm ashamed to admit it. Someone hold me accountable and don't let me fall.
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