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"Disappointed" in God

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Posted by: pray4God2blessmewithababygirl

Please pray for me. I am absolutely balling right now. I am "disappointed" in God - notice I have disappointed in quotes. I know that God ONLY has GOOD for me, but I have been praying for this VERY SPECIAL BLESSING so long, that it hurts. I asked God to do something today and He didn't. I realize today is not over, but things aren't pointing in that direction either. I shouldn't put time limits on God, but sometimes we have to be very specific and I was trying to be specific - I asked God to please allow my VERY SPECIAL BLESSING to happen between April 1and April 7. Well, I realize that April 7, is not here yet, but I feel that fear is taking over and that once again, God is not going to do it for me. I don't like feeling "disappointed" in God, when I know He loves me and would never do me any harm, but I just want this so bad, that I can't stand it. Please help me - pray for me!!! I feel bad even typing this If I could only stop crying...


Posted by: ninababy73

Keshia, God's ways are not our ways and His timing is not our timing. Just because we want something does not mean that God is going to give it to us. So many people expect God to do what they want, when they want and how they want but God is not like that.

He is not a genie that we can rub His belly and ask 3 wishes of. He is God Almighty and we should honor Him as such. God answers each and every prayer that is presented to Him with a sincere heart. Sometimes He answers "no" because it is the BEST thing for us. We need to appreciate and praise God for the "no" because He does that out of love. He knows all and sometimes what we want is not best for us and because God loves us so much He protects us by saying "no".

When we pray it needs to be in accordance to God's will as God will answer according to His will for us. God sees the beginning and the end and knows what is in store for us. Perhaps, God has something bigger planned for you and your husband. Perhaps, He has another route planned. I don't know but I do know that God does and getting upset because God is not answering this prayer the way you want and when you want is not right.

Again, I say God's timing and His thinking is not like mine or yours. When I go before the Lord to pray, He hears my prayers. He sees my needs. He sees my worship and communing with Him. He sees all and He knows all and He has everything ALREADY settled.

You need to decide how you are going to handle your situation. You need to decide whether or not you are going to trust God and His timing or continue being “disappointed”.

My prayer for you is that you will get up from your bed and stop feeling sorry for yourself and praise God that He has blessed you and will continue to bless you and your husband. Take time in prayer and seek God. As I have said before, maybe God does have another route in store for you and your husband in regards to children. There are a lot of children that needs homes, so perhaps adoption is what is in store. Again, I don't know but I do know that God does.


Father, forgive Keshia for this attitude. Remove it from her. I pray for joy and peace despite the answer for You are always faithful. May she remember that always and trust You for Your answers. I pray. Amen


Posted by: Jon Henry

Dear sister Keisha, sister nina is right, God will answer your prayer. His answer right now might very well be, “ not yet” , but be encouraged because you are a daughter of the most high God and He will not let you do without any of the blessings He has waiting for you. He knows your heart, and your desires and your needs, even before you do and He will provide all those things and more in due time.

You have gone to Him to ask what you wanted in fervent prayer.

Try going to Him and humbly asking what He wants for you. I trust it will be far greater than anything we could imagine and it will be a thousand times more than you would wish for.

Finally, search yourself and make sure there is no unconfessed sin or disobedience that is blocking this blessing from coming to you. Ask the Holy Spirit to bring to mind anything you need to take to the cross of Jesus and ask forgiveness for. Then seek the peace that He gives that defies explanation and You will find His will.

I ask our Father in heaven to be merciful and generous and gentle to you. I ask that His will be made manifest in your life and through your life to the glory of His kingdom, both here on this earth and in the eternal life afterwards. In Jesus holy name I pray. amen


Posted by: diamondcreates

Dearest sister in Christ, in all situations in life we must pray on it and give it up to God and NOT worry about it. Because if we WORRY and STRESS out about it, then we are not allowing God to handle it in HIS fashion. Stop, Breath, Pray, give it up and let it be, and know that it is in the BEST possible HANDS, God's hands. HE did not forsake HIS only begotten SON, why would HE forsake you? Give it up to God, and let HIM take it out of your hands and into HIS and allow HIM without any DOBTS that HE will work things out according to HIS will not YOUR"S. Release it from your shoulders, and your heart, and your mind and give it up to God and allow HIM deal with the situation properly. Be bless dear sister and go now and wipe those tears of sadness because blessings are indeed coming your way, just trust in HIS holy name that HE will make it right.


Posted by: MarkSentMe

It took me 8 YEARS to get pregnant with my son! My husband and I went through all of the invasive tests (X-rays, uterine lining samples, etc) and we could not conceive. It seemed that everybody and their sister was having babies at the time. Every time I turned on the TV or picked up the newspaper, there was a baby in a dumpster. People who were committing adultery and having sex outside of marriage were popping out babies left and right- yet we could not get pregnant. We did fertility drugs, but I had to quit after 2 months because the side effects were awful.
Well-meaning people who tried to witness to me only made me feel worse.
I prayed, cried, and walked away from God before I got pregnant. Walking away was NOT what caused me to get pregnant; realizing that God is in charge, not my hormones, not the fertility drugs, not anything else- only Him. I had to realize that their ability to get pregnant had nothing to do with my inability to get pregnant.
Now...suppose instead of the baby girl you are desiring, God chooses you to have a son, will you be disappointed in that too? When we tell God what we want and stamp our feet demanding from Him like a spoiled child, He tunes us out- just like I do with my 3 year old. God does not jump to our beckon call. He does not owe us. He GAVE us the best gift any Father could ever give His children- everlasting life through Jesus Christ. Jesus died for us. God's ONLY Son, died for all of us. Jesus paid our debt IN FULL! God's answer to my prayers was "wait". That gave me time to put things in order.
I read a book during my waiting period- "What to expect when You're Experiencing Infertility". It was truly a sanity-saver. I borrowed it from the library. If you are on fertility drugs (like Clomid) this can be why you are crying uncontrollably.

You did not mention a husband. Are you married? Perhaps God does not want you to put the cart before the horse. Are there other areas in your life which need adjustment and refocus? Do you need to dedicate your life to Him or maybe rededicate your life?
The wait for my son was excrutiating; like I said 8 long years- I was 35 when I had him, my husband was 45. I kept thinking back to Abraham and Sarah. Who wants to be 90-something having a baby? But God worked it out for them and He will work it out for you...IF you let Him.
My son is a great little boy- he is now 6 years old. He is smart, funny, sweet and he knows the Lord!
How about you? Are you in a personal relationship with Jesus? Or is He a magic genie to be called on when you want something?
The Bible states that just because we call on Him, doesn't mean He knows us.

Father God,
Thank You for our sister Keisha. Lord, You do things in Your time frame, not ours. Sometimes the wait and anticipation is hard, but through You we can do all things and endure all things. Thank You for Your Son Jesus Christ. Thank You for the sacrifice He made so that we can have a relationship with You. Thank You for my son Matthew. Thank You for not sending him when I wanted him, but when You knew the timing was right. Lord, thank You for all the children You send to our home and entrust us with. Thank You for the strength to tend Your lambs. Thank You for watching over each and every one f us. Lord, please bring peace and calmness to keisha's situation. Lord, please comfort her hurting heart. Please send a witness who can share the Good News with her. Lord, whatever Your plans for Keisha are, please help her to understand that You only want what's best for us. Lord, I ask whatever Your Will is for Keisha. Thank You, Lord. In Your Name I Pray. Amen.

Sharyn


Posted by: BrendaMagana


Isaiah 65:24

And it shall come to pass, that before they call, I will answer; and while they are yet speaking, I will hear.

Sister Keshia,

You do not need to worry. Trust with child-like faith in the Sovereign God.

Do not stress yourself. Refrain from shedding tears! Rejoice instead in the Lord.

Your prayers have already been heard in acordance to God's own promises.

You will have to however wait because the timing is the Lord's, not ours.

And His CLOCK TICKS SO differently from ours.

But the answer has already been given and it will POP OUT at the APPOINTED TIME.

Thank You Lord that at the appointed time Your will fulfil Keshia's heart desires. Give her the strength and patience to wait for Your answer. Amen


Posted by: pray4God2blessmewithababygirl

Wow, thanks so much EVERYONE for all of your kind words and prayers. I appreciate EACH and EVERYONE of you very much. I read every word of each of you all's posts and they ALL BLESSED me in one way or another. Thank you ALL so much, I appreciate it more than you all will ever know. My tears have ceased and I am putting my mind on other things - I know that God wants me to think on those things which are above and not beneath. I would love to reply to each of you all's posts individually and tell you all how your post personally touched my heart, soul, spirit and mind, but it would be a never-ending reply, so as much as I can say it, THANK YOU! THANK YOU!! THANK YOU!!! I will be praying for each of you too!!!


Posted by: Rachel R

There is an unanswered question floating here.

Is there a husband?

How does HE feel about this?

Rachel R


Posted by: ninababy73

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Originally Posted by Rachel R
There is an unanswered question floating here.

Is there a husband?

How does HE feel about this?

Rachel R


You know, Rachel, I have been assuming that there is a husband. I pray that my assumption is not wrong as that completely changes things


Posted by: FriendOfGod

Please bear in mind that God's time is not our time. His delays are not his denials. Please don't get mad or impatient with God. Focus on His goodness and trust in Jesus to work out everything for your best and benefit. Please relax and calm down and let Jesus hold you. Abdie in God's love. God Bless You Sister!

O dear God, please give this hurting person peace and hope. Please wrap your loving arms around her and help her to focus on You and Your goodness and to trust in Your perfect will and Your perfect timing. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

Your sister in Christ

Janet


Posted by: FriendOfGod

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Originally Posted by Jon Henry
Dear sister Keisha, sister nina is right, God will answer your prayer. His answer right now might very well be, “ not yet” , but be encouraged because you are a daughter of the most high God and He will not let you do without any of the blessings He has waiting for you. He knows your heart, and your desires and your needs, even before you do and He will provide all those things and more in due time.

You have gone to Him to ask what you wanted in fervent prayer.

Try going to Him and humbly asking what He wants for you. I trust it will be far greater than anything we could imagine and it will be a thousand times more than you would wish for.

Finally, search yourself and make sure there is no unconfessed sin or disobedience that is blocking this blessing from coming to you. Ask the Holy Spirit to bring to mind anything you need to take to the cross of Jesus and ask forgiveness for. Then seek the peace that He gives that defies explanation and You will find His will.

I ask our Father in heaven to be merciful and generous and gentle to you. I ask that His will be made manifest in your life and through your life to the glory of His kingdom, both here on this earth and in the eternal life afterwards. In Jesus holy name I pray. amen


Amen!


Posted by: Rachel R

I hope your silence isn't our answer.

Rachel R


Posted by: pray4God2blessmewithababygirl

No, I am not married. I said that "I" wanted a baby, not my husband and I. I do know that I am 32 yrs. old and that my biological clock is ticking. I do know that almost 3 yrs. ago, a very strong desire to have a baby came over me - so strong that it will not leave. I do know that I have asked God to give me peace about this, being that I am not married. I know that it is not the will of God, for a woman to have a baby out of wedlock. I know that God is not the author of sin. I know that having a baby out of welock, is not the perfect will of God. Believe me, I know right from wrong. What is puzzling to me is that God knew when He created me that this OVERWHELMING desire to be a mother would come over me. I never knew this would happen until it did. I can't understand why God, not saying this in a bad way, just seriously wondering...why God would allow me to go through this. I'm not saying this is a bad thing, but it is very taunting. Some people might think, just put your mind somewhere else...just do this...just do that...I have tried, but somehow this DESIRE continues to stay settled down within my soul. It will not leave. I don't think my desire to have a baby is wrong - that is a natural female thing. God created us to procreate. I know that having the baby through sin is wrong, but a baby, no matter how they get here is not a bad thing. Children are a heritage from the Lord - children are a reward from the Lord - the Bible says that children bring Joy, make a joyful mother to those who do not have children. My honest reason for wanting a child is a natural desire. I have no selfish reasons for wanting a baby - just want a child(ren) to love. Once again, I know that having a child out of wedlock is sin. I know about God's perfect will, I will be honest and say that I was just praying that God would allow this although it is not His perfect will - I was just hoping that God would allow it in my life and work it all out. Everyday around me, I see young teenagers having babies, without regard to God. Not only teenagers, but unmarried women in general having babies, without regards to God. Alot of these females even go around saying look what I did. I'm thinking, don't they know that God is the one who skillfully created the child that you have - don't they know that the child belongs to God. I say to God sometimes - I know that this is not your perfect will and this is not what you would want and how you would want it, but at least I acknowledge you - at least I realize that a child is your blessing and not my own doing - I even know to "give" - dedicate my child back to God for His use. So there you have it, no I am not married; however, this does not stop my desire to have a child. If someone would have told me years ago, that I would want a child, regardless of marriage or not, I would have rebuked the devil - I would have never wanted to do things out of God's will and deep down inside I really don't want to now - I just feel my biological clock is ticking and I also don't want to adopt. I also don't know if God even has a husband for me. Even if he does, just hypothetically speaking - the man that God has for me - we might date for 2 to 3 years, want to experience marriage by ourselves for 2 to 3 years and then have a child, by that time I would be 38 yrs. old. I would like more than 1 child and I do not want to be an older mother. I have nothing against adoption - I have an adopted family member, it's just not my desire. I would like to experience being pregnant as a women. I'm not saying that I would never adopt, but I don't want to adopt because God didn't bless me with a baby. This is a situation that I have been "wrestling" with God about for some time - nothing new to God - nothing shocking to God. It may shock some of you, but not God. Like I said, He knew all about this before I was created and I know He has the situation handled. For me, it's not about the sexual sin - I don't even care about pleasing my flesh - I just want to have a baby of my own, naturally. I have been honest and I know that no one will "cast a stone" at me - he who is without sin, let him cast the first stone. Thanks for your honest concerns and prayers. Please feel free to respond - I am not offended by the truth and I would appreciate good Godly wisdom, guidance, understanding and knowledge as long as it is done out of AGAPE LOVE - God's love. Thanks again!!!


Posted by: Rachel R

I hear the pain in your heart!

What an awful position to be in!

My only comment would be that it wasn't right to ask us to pray in good faith not knowing your situation.
Lord, I ask you to clarify your will for her life.

Help her hear your voice and see your face.

Please surround her with all the help and comfort she needs to get through this.

We trust you to lead her clearly in the way that she should go.

Please send her all the wonderful and fulfilling blessings that you have for her.

In Jesus' Name, Amen.



Posted by: Lynn7

Good morning sis,

First I would like to say that I understand your desire. We all have desires that we have to deal with everyday. As we grow in Christ we understand that if that desire goes against God's will we learn to focus our attentions through the grace of God on other things. I understand that when we pray according to God's unfalible word that He is more than pleased to take attention and bless us with our requests. Over the past couple of years I have really studied prayer. I wanted to know the ins and the outs of why sometimes it appeared as if He said "no" and sometimes He quickly said "yes" and sometimes answers seem to be delayed. Sis I am going to tell you that your request is either going to take Him impregnanting you through supernatural means or with the aid of a doctor. The other alternative is through sin. I have also at times looked on nonChristians and have asked God "why is that they can so and so and they do not serve You and I serve You yet it seems like my requests is being delayed. Something that I have grown to understand (and I pray that you too will understand this and gain peace from it) is that God sees the beginning and the end. Our steps have been ordered. You have to take the step A that He has preordained for you before you can take step B. Do we always know what step A is, NO we do not. Also you do not see the reprocussions of those other people having what you want out of God's order. We have a way of making other people's lives look wonderful on the outside without knowing the struggles that they have to go through. Yes, God knows exactly what you are going through. He is listening to you and His answers are clear. When my friends call me or ask me about praying for them and it is against what I know that God's word says my heartbreaks for them. The world tells us that somethings are okay even when they are not. Sister you have to do things in Godly order and in His timing. Maybe you should volunteer in your church's nursery or do some volunteer hours in the nursery at a local hospital. Take your own desire and bless someone else. God will put your mind on other things while HE guides through the steps of your life that will lead to Him granting the desire of your heart. I hope this helps you. God bless you sweetie.


Posted by: Jon Henry

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Originally Posted by pray4God2blessmewithababygirl
No, I am not married. I said that "I" wanted a baby, not my husband ......
Beautiful beloved sister, I can’t ask God to condone you committing sin. Regardless of the motivation or intent, God will not answer prayers outside His will.



I ask you to consider this. I’m almost at the end of my life here on earth and so I’ve seen a lot of people struggle in life with “desires” that seemed perfectly wholesome, but were not inside the will of God. Sometimes He allows the desires as a test of our obedience. In 1Sam: 22-24, Samuel explains to Saul that God values, cherishes and respects our obedience above all other sacrifices. I feel led to share with you, that this may very well be your sacrifice. To wait until you can have children inside the will of God in obedience.



As far as your bio-clock ticking, I’m sure you know the story of Sarah and Abraham. When God is ready for you to have a child, if you’ll be obedient to him, it will be the right time, no matter how old you are.



May our God in heaven bless you with His peace and quiet your heart. May He bless you in everyway and everyday, according to His perfect will.



I pray these things in Christian love and in the precious name of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.Amen


Posted by: Rachel R

I have been praying for you and I just begin to pray for 'birthing'.

So I am praying for birthing to begin in your life.

I am praying that you are 'pregnant' with the next new thing in your life.

I pray that there is a thought an idea or a concept that surfaces in your mind and your spirit.

And that you will be so thrilled to help it live!
Lord, I ask you to help her.

Comfort her heart and lead her as she reaches out to you.

Bring her satisfaction, fulfillment and purpose, please, Lord.

Thank you for her passion and her heart to nurture.

In Jesus' Name, Amen.
I remain in prayer for you,
Rachel R


Posted by: pray4God2blessmewithababygirl

I just wanted to say thanks to everyone who responded - each of you responded with the Love of God and I appreciate that. Thanks for telling me what is right - although I already know - I just need to hear it again and let righteousness take root in my heart. Thank you Rachel R for understanding the pain in my heart and praying for me to be "pregnant" with the things of God. Thank you Lynn7 for confirming some things in my spirit - like working in a children's hospital - I was just talking with my mother about volunteering at a children's hospital this summer. Thanks Jon Henry for opening my eyes to the fact that my sacrifice might be that I have to wait until I can have children inside the obedience of God. As christians, we can receive the truth from one another and not feel condemned - brotherly love is honestly correcting a brother/sister-in-Christ and not allowing them to error, so once again I really appreciate the responses.


Posted by: Christian Commando

Lord Jesus-

We pray for this woman, that you would help her not only to understand and acknowledge your Truth, but now to act upon It. We pray that you settle her heart in realizing particular Blessings fall within specific guidelines, and that if we ask out of context to your Will, it will never be heard, as is not inline with God.

Settle her heart over this turmoil Lord and bring peace to her about this and let it go into your hands and help her not to dwell on such things. We pray she realizes such situations are influenced by satan to get us to do and want, wrongly in your eyes, so satan can try to hurt you God, thru our negative thoughts and actions.

Lord, we pray for her to accept the Truth's of yours she has heard from all these people sharing It and will turn away from this intentional sinful thinking and will come back fully to seeking you and following you by your Word, in you, thru Christ and by the Holy Spirit. In Jesus Name- Amen!!


Posted by: pray4God2blessmewithababygirl

Thank you so much Christian Commando for your prayers - the prayer was powerful. I am standing in agreement with you that I will not only acknowledge the truth, I know the truth, but I need to ACT upon it. I do acknowledge that going outside the Pefect Will of God, will hurt Him. Thank you again!!! Once again, I have no problem with the truth, I know the will of God - it's just like you said, I must ACT upon the truth, not just acknowledge it.


Posted by: Rachel R

What a great truth! Good job, CC!

I'm going to use that in my own life and TODAY.

Rachel R


Posted by: BrendaMagana

Romans 8 :26
We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.

Father since You alone knows why pray4God2blessmewithababygirl at 32 is not keeping house and is still not a mother, please provide a way out off this situation.

You ways are much higher than ours.

Lord God this being one of those difficult issues to pray over, I hand it over to Your Holy Spirit to intercede for Your daughter.

Spirit of God intercede as You deem fit for pray4God2blessmewithababygirl.

Amen


Posted by: pray4God2blessmewithababygirl

...just a simple, but heart-felt THANKS!!!


Posted by: diamondcreates

Dearest sister in Christ,


I do agree with my fellow brothers and sisters whom posted here about you having a baby and your clock is ticking.... Instead of praying for a baby that you might not be quite ready for, sit still in a room that is quiet and have a deep heart felt conversation with God and ask HIM what is it that HE wants you to do right now? Ask HIM to show you the path that HE wants you to be on, HE might have something something so totally awesome for your life right now, that if you have a baby right now in this point in your life you won't be able to give your attention fully to what HE has in store for you.

Father God, bless my sister in Christ with a vision of understanding where is it she is suppose to be at this point in her life Dear Lord. Grant her peace of mind and peace in her heart and know that YOU have your hand all over her and in her heart and that YOU already knew what her heart's desires was before she even asked prayers for it. Father God, grant this woman a peace of mind and peace in her heart and allow her to become focused to what it is that YOU and only YOU want her to do and be at right now. This I pray in YOUR holy ever lasting name Father God, Thy's will shall be and will be done for my sister's situation of child bearing and focus. Amen,AMen,Amen...


Posted by: pray4God2blessmewithababygirl

Thanks diamondcreates!!!


Posted by: diamondcreates

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Originally Posted by pray4God2blessmewithababygirl
Thanks diamondcreates!!!


I pray that my testimony was uplifting to you and encouraged you not to think things are at a 'dead end' in life. Because God always makes a way and makes things better in our lives. Amen. Be Bless