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Posted by: believer_of_god
I am embarrased to write this, but need guidance. I feel hopeless and do not feel like living. I try to think of what God has blessed me with, but it is very difficult. I know I cannot receive what I desire. It is something most people are blessed with. To me this is the only thing that is worth living for. I do not feel like I am asking for something huge either. Additionally, I have no friends and am constantly made fun of. It is a very difficult life. I know I will never be happy on earth so I want to die and be with God. But I worry He will send me to Hell. Is it so wrong of me to not want to live? This is the only reason keeping me from killing myself. I do not want to just be physically alive and lingering around waiting for death. It is a hard feeling to describe. I do not really think it is from depression either, as I feel the same on medication. Medication does not cure my problem. I have tried killing myself before and it did not work. My life isn't going to change ever so therefore I feel like commiting suicide is the answer. My question is if I do commit suicide will I go to hell? To me I live in hell everyday.
-Please write back
Posted by: JeriRose12
The seventh commandment is "You shall not kill." The Bible says murderers will be in hell. Suicide is just murdering yourself. DON'T DO IT!!!
I have no idea what you are asking God for, but if you have GOD, you need nothing else. Believe me when I say that God can bring you to a place where you love life SO MUCH, because you love HIM so much. To wake up knowing that God is going to walk with me though my day is THE MOST AWESOME feeling anyone could EVER have. Today is one more oppurtunity to walk and talk with Him. What could be more wonderful or exciting?
I don't have money.
I don't have a honey.
I don't have good health.
I ask God continually to give me all three....Yet, all three are not yet mine. Still, I walk through my days with satisfaction and fulfillment, because I know that I have HIM , and when I have Jesus I have EVERYTHING!
Do you have Jesus in your life? If so, pray to Him to be your joy, your satisfaction, your fulfillment, your happiness, your peace.... He will become all these things to you, as you work on building a relationship with Him.
Whenever I start to focus on what I don't have, I then change my perspective to: "But I have You (God/Jesus), and that's all that matters." Shortly, I am focused on Jesus and thanking Him for His goondess & love.
Father, remove this spirit of suicied, NOW, in Jesus Name! Pour the blood of Jesus over Jena that NO WEAPON FORMED AGAINST HER WILLL PROSPER! I pray the blood of Jesus covers her mightily and speaks against Satan. Right now, in Jesus Name, I release the devil and his demons from their assignment against Jena. I prray for angels to surround and protect her. Do not let her be able to lift her hand against herself. Keep her ALIVE, that she may live and not die and tell the good things God has done for her!
~JeriRose~
In HIM in 2007 
Posted by: believer_of_god
Jerirose-
How did you find my name out?
Posted by: JeriRose12
I checked your profile in the members list. That is how I find names out, so when I post it's not impersonal and you know someone cares.
And please don't forget how much God cares!!!
Posted by: MarkSentMe
Jena,
When I was a teenager (from 13-19) I spent every waking minute trying to die. At one time I put a loaded gun to my head and pulled the trigger. The bullet jammed sideways and I did not die. I cursed God for not letting me die. I dared Him to let me die. To no avail. I even joined the Army with a death wish and hoped I would go to war and die. When I was in 9th grade my science teacher asked the class who would not live past 25; I raised my hand. When I was 25, I found myself in Desert Storm.
My life when I was in high school was horrid. I had few friends. My family basically ignored me and I grew up feeling unloved, unwanted and unwelcome. At my high school graduation, no one came. My brother was there to pick me up. When my name was called to cross the stage and get my diploma, you could have heard a pin drop. All the other kids had tons of family hootin' and hollerin'. My family was home drinking coffee.
I grew up in church, but did not know Jesus. Yeah, He was on a cross in our church and He got a mention here and there, but there was no relationship with Him. Church was not about Him. I knew that He died, but really didn't know why. We did not read the Bible; that was discouraged, so I did not have the Good News or the hope that comes from being rooted in the word. Things would come up and I was devastated. And so, I wasted a lot of good time trying to die.
But it does not have to be that way for you! There is hope!
The Bible tells us that suicide is wrong: "You are not your own, for you were bought at a price; therefore glorify God in your body." (1 Corinthians 6:19-20)
This verse also applies toward sexual immorality, but the Truth remains- JESUS DIED FOR YOU! If you were the only one on the planet, He still would have gone to the cross in your place! YOU WERE BOUGHT AT A PRICE!
God does not want you to die! He has plans for you! Suicide is not in His plans. Did you ever get up and leave a theatre before the end of the movie, only to get detained and kick yourself for not just being patient and watching the movie to the end? Suicide is like that. We miss the end of the movie! We cheat ourselves out of what might have been and more importantly- we cheat GOD out of the opportunity to grant us a blessing!
Satan lies to us and tells us that things are much worse than they are and that things will never get better. Satan deceives us to think we are unloveable, unworthy, unforgiven, unreconcilable. Satan is a liar! Satan knows our weaknesses and our vulnerablilities. He preys upon them and tells us that even God would not want us and that is why we cannot die. Satan is a liar!
I serve a living, loving, forgiving God. Nothing is impossible with God. He parted the sea, He made man out of dust. He spoke the world into existence. He forgave me my sins and put my sins as far away from me as the east is from the west.
And He proved His love for us in this way:
"For God so loved the world (feel free to replace "the world" with your name) in this way: He gave His One and Only Son, so that everyone who believes in Him will not perish but have everlasting life." (John 3:16)
Don't squander another minute worrying about what or who you don't have. You have a Saviour Who loves you! He's crazy about you. He's waiting to hear from you!
Father God,
Thank You for Jena. Thank You for not letting me die. Thank You for all of the angels You sent to watch over me. Please watch over Jena. Lord, please send a witness who will share Your Word and Good News with her. Please shine a light where there is now darkness. Please comfort her during this lonely and desperate time. Lord, You have plans for us, please reveal to jena where You can use her best. Thank You, Lord. In Jesus' Name I Pray. Amen.
Sharyn
Posted by: believer_of_god
thankyou for your replies and prayers. Amazingly, I am starting to have hope. I realized, maybe through God's help, I am spending too much time thinking about what I cannot have, so it hurts more, but if I spend as much time on thinking about what I can have, it will bring me as much joy of what I desired because I put so much energy into it (not sure if this makes much sense). I know I can have what I want it is just not in the way I wanted it. I have decided to look at the other joy of receiving it in a different way. I know it will be a struggle, but with God's help maybe I can get through this. God Bless all of you.
Posted by: Christian Commando
Jena-
Maybe you haven't realized this, as I hadn't when God kept me from suicide attempts as well... that God kept you alive for a reason. Now, maybe this is not clear to you right now, but know, if God did not love you or want you to live, suicide would have worked before and satan would've won instead of God.
And yes, as the others have said, suicide is killing, thus murder, even if of yourself, thus, you cannot repent and be forgiven after you have physically died, for that sin. Because of that, you would go to Hell for such a sin.
Lord-
We pray for Jena, that you uplift and strengthen her spirit to live and seek you fervently and replace this hopelessness with a renewed understanding of your plan for her and her need to live for you. In Jesus name- Amen!!
God Bless!!