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Alone and Desperate

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Posted by: leeannt

I've been struggling to provide for me and my 4 children since my husband walked out 4 months ago. I've been praying and waiting for my marriage to reconcile, but I feel that things are just getting worse. My husband is still commiting adultery and living in sin, but the hardest part is that the kids and I are struggling by, even with welfare and watching Brandon, my husband, take his girlfriend out and buy her things. My car is leaking oil and I've been in trouble on my job for having to take off for the kids. I am overwhelmed and I feel totally alone. The one person that was supposed to stand by me and take care of our family has turned his back. My children cry a lot wanting a father and don't understand why I have to be gone all the time working. Today, has been a day where I feel ravaged spiritually. I just need a breakthrough so much. I need this time of waiting and struggling to end. I just want to be loved and to be able to lean on someone. I just want my husband to open his eyes and see what he's doing to all of us and be accountable. I keep praying for God to remoe everything in me that might be preventing me from a breakthrough. I need prayer.


Posted by: Trinity

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Originally Posted by leeannt
I've been struggling to provide for me and my 4 children since my husband walked out 4 months ago. I've been praying and waiting for my marriage to reconcile, but I feel that things are just getting worse. My husband is still commiting adultery and living in sin, but the hardest part is that the kids and I are struggling by, even with welfare and watching Brandon, my husband, take his girlfriend out and buy her things. My car is leaking oil and I've been in trouble on my job for having to take off for the kids. I am overwhelmed and I feel totally alone. The one person that was supposed to stand by me and take care of our family has turned his back. My children cry a lot wanting a father and don't understand why I have to be gone all the time working. Today, has been a day where I feel ravaged spiritually. I just need a breakthrough so much. I need this time of waiting and struggling to end. I just want to be loved and to be able to lean on someone. I just want my husband to open his eyes and see what he's doing to all of us and be accountable. I keep praying for God to remoe everything in me that might be preventing me from a breakthrough. I need prayer.


Oh leeannt,
I feel your pain in this post. You need to lean on Jesus more then ever. You might be suffering now, but think about this Heaven is going to be where our awesome joy begins, when I think of how unfair this world is it crushes my heart and spirit. Christians seem to suffer more then unbelievers. But please try and remember this that Jesus has an awesome plan for your life, and this seems to happen in Complete Surrender to Him. It took me a while to be content in our circumstance, but when you surrender unto God and lay it all at His feet, oh, the relief that comes... What your husband did to you was a very heart wrenching thing. Have you forgave him? When we forgive this gives us a brake free from the hold of satan. He just loves to hold us in like a tank of unforgiveness. But once we forgive, we might not forget, but if we have forgave but still hold bitterness this eats at us up... to loose that hold forgive and give it to God if you haven't already, but if you have continue daily to forgive, everytime your husband hurts you. And boy you are going through a hard thing. Try your best to read your Bible everyday, fill up on Gods word. Let your husband see you "glow" in Christ... Pray daily for God to convict your husband of these sins, and also to save his soul from hell. The more we look at these kinds of people as they will be in hell if they don't repent, the more compassion we can feel towards them. It takes alot of strength through God though.
I'm praying for you and your family,
God Bless and hang in there,
Trinity


Posted by: Pickle

Lord, I ask for a healing in this marriage. Fatherm please convict Leann's husband of his adultery. Bring him back to you and to his family who needs him. Open his eyes to the hurt he has caused. Provide for Leann during this painful time. Please meet all of her needs financially and for taking care of her children. Comfort her and make her a woman who is full of faith in You. Guide her and do not hide Your face from her. In Jesus' name, Amen