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Do You Love Him
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Posted by: anthony
My Friends,
Please gather round and give me your ears for a season, for I have a story to tell. I don't know where to start, so I will just start, and fill in the gaps as best I can. First, I want to let everyone know, I AM human, and I have been in the struggle of my life. For what? To get rid of three thigns in my soul: Anger, Pain, and Darkness. I know I'm doing something wrong, but each time I start to feel shame, my Loving Father bears me up and give me a hug, saying, "Be ye not ashamed, for you still try." That tells me something: I will get it right one day... But until then, I am still human, and yes, I do tend to get angry, feel greivious pain, and I still have a dark side to me. I fight them daily, and I will not cease, but let me get on to the story....
Picture this: A man who seeks God just as you and I tells his wife one day that Satan is about to test her. A few moments later, a young man walks in their front door to visit. The wife stand up full of rejection and judgement of the young man, and declares that he must "GET OUT!" three times. The man, knowing the young man well, as a friend, voices to his wife this suggestion, "Bear him a moment, that we may hear what he has to say." To this, his wife is filled with rage, and storms into the other room, slamming the door behind her. The man, filled with grief at the situation, lowers his eyes to the young man, and stalks around the room. The young man inquires what was wrong with the wife after returning personal items of a friend to the house. The man replies, "The day has been long, and the sun appears to be rising yet." (Its been a long day, and its about to get longer.) "It doesn't have anything to do with me, does it?" In quires the young man. The answer was "yes." Good said the young man, and was then spoken to this word, "Goodbye." It was a gentle was of asking me to tarry elsewhere, and being a friend of the man, I accepted the words, with pain and understanding, and left.
You see, it WAS a test of Satan, but the young man, myself, was NOT the test, nor do I feel like I was rightfully granted my land. I felt as if I was condenmed in collusion with satan. For a man like myself, this hurt. Not my pride, but my heart. It ached with remorse that someone would say or think such a thing, but then again, have we not done worse when other times we are tested? To my point, it was a test, and the test was this:
DO YOU LOVE HIM (GOD THE FATHER) ENOUGH TO LOVE ME? (THE YOUNG MAN?) Do you Love God enough to Love me, even if in your eyes, I am the abhorrance of desloation and darkness? If I am unclean? If I am posessed? If I am a sinner? IF I AM A HUMAN?
Job 31:5 If I have walked with vanity, or if my foot hath hasted to deceit;
Job 31:6 Let me be weighed in an even balance, that God may know mine integrity.
Job 31:7 If my step hath turned out of the way, and mine heart walked after mine eyes, and if any blot hath cleaved to mine hands;
Job 31:8 Then let me sow, and let another eat; yea, let my offspring be rooted out.
That was the verses that poped up, and I am not sure they fit, but it was no accident, so here they are...
Does the Bible not teach to love our enemies? To feed them, LOVE them, clothe them, ect? It doesn't teach to reject them, and cast THEM out, but yea unto the demons be casted into the sea.
You know, as a human, that rejection became a test for me. Yes, it hurt, and still does... satan would that I revenge that pain ten times in full, but I have with my Father spoken, and thus He has said:
Feed them, Love them, clothe them.
SO, there WAS a reason for the test, yes? There always is. At first, I did not understand, and my ignorance fed the anger, pain, and darkness within me, however, when I was lost, God found me. I ran to Him, and He showed me that the test was for a blessing or the spirit to be found of that household. What was it? It was the Rod of Aaron. Do I know what that is: NO CLUE, but My Father tells me that for their future battles, it is a blessing they will earn. Few people understand their reasons and lessons, and this gift proves (provides proof/gives account of) their annointing, and verifies the Truth within their mouthes.
I am struggling with what to do... First, I am not sure how I am supposed to play into their receipt of this blessing, nor do I understand the grounds on which to present it. I also do not know to which occation I would give due this blessing...
So, Even tho I don't know much, I ask everyone to pray this prayer with me:
Oh Father,
That you would open my heart and eyes unto your divinity: the steps set fourth, and show my Father, how to walk them, for I am human, a spirit with a soul within a body, and I know not. Father speak to my heart that I would have no doubt of yoru request, and due more even tests, that I would glide through into the fire of Glory, until they receive the blessing you have set fourth. In the honorable Name of Jesus Christ I pray, Amen... Glory be unto you Father, I magnify your name with Love.
I love you all!
Anthony
Posted by: anthony
Father, I love them, bless them just now. I love you Father, allow me to be a blessing unto You... Amen