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Posted by: Jay

I really don't know why I chose to come here but if God really cares I guess the best thing to do would be to ask his followers to pray for me because I can't myself. I must be missing something about this whole christian thing because I thought I was a christian but I'm just like any worldly person. Alot of things are going on right now that I don't know how to handle- I don't feel that I know Jesus even though I've prayed the prayer of salvation- I used to pray, read the Bible and sing and worship God...but it all went nowhere... i was same old me, doing the same old things... i've had sex (which is devastating to me- i never thought I would do that), if given the chance...i know I would be a party girl, do drugs, drink, and sleep around-thats whats bothering me- I'm making decisions now that are affecting the rest of my life. If this is all that life has to offer then i dont see why i'm here- all i do is cry.. i know i'm not the only person who has ever wanted to die...or has ever felt like this.. but i've been in this pit for months.. i'm 17 by the way.. and since I can't pray for myself.. i'm just wondering if you could for me.. lately I've been having to deal with my past... i have been abused sexually, physically, and verbally and I guess its taken a toll on me...I don't know how to deal with school work(which is pretty strenuous college prep)-- I'm losing the guy i love because of my parents... my life has been hell in the past..and the pain of it isnt going away...please don't just think i'm some selfish lil spoiled brat.. i just want this torment to go away and for my circumstances to change..


Posted by: Dreamweaver

Precious Lord,
We lift Jay up to you this morning. Lord, we ask that you protect and keep her close to you. Show her your love and shower an abundance of blessings upon here. In Jesus name. amen

Jay,
Please stay with us here on annointed, I'm sure you will be blessed and we all care about you and your life. I know that being 17 in this day and age are not easy especially if you have a problematic past. You came here for a reason and I don't doubt that God led you here so stay with us and we will work this through together, okay?

God bless you,

Jan


Posted by: sharonmc

dear lord, please put the right people in jays life that will show him what love and life really mean. please help this child of yours to be healed during this difficult time in life. please heal his heart and mind there are people out there that have alot of love to give and god will bring them there to him.please save this child in jesus name amen.


Posted by: lunar2

Dear Jesus, Help Jay in gaining insight into herself to understand that all life is sacred—even in its most miniscule forms. Help her understand that true Christians care for others and that the nexus of this bonding with others is where we truly experience God. Grant her serenity, tranquility, and a new wisdom to dispel the negative and traumatic experiences of her young life (a sacred life) and grant her a joyful journey into each new day with visions of a happy future. Amen


Posted by: JG

Dear Jay:

Millions are in the same place your are in right now.
Satan leads you down a path because you are lonely and want to be loved and accepted. As soon as he gets you where he wants you it hurts. You feel dirty, trashed and beaten up. Then satan says now you are unlovable even for God. The very demons that brought you to the party beat you up now with shame.

If you have come to this page, friend, it was probably not by accident.
Perhaps you are hurting, perhaps confused. Maybe you are ready to just end it all.
You feel like no one really knows or understands the war going on inside your heart.
I want to tell you something and I really want you to take a minute to think about it.
Jesus knows what is going on in your heart.
He knew you before you were born:
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. (Psalm 139:13 NIV)
And he cares about you very much.

Jesus really is the only help for today's heartaches.
We try to bury them in other pleasures, sex, drinking, drugs, pornography...but there is only one solution.
Perhaps you have lead a life of sin and you have never really known the Lord. Oh, you may know about Him...
but even the demons of Hell know about Him.

I'm speaking of knowing Him... like you would know your closest friend. Whatever you are going through, Jesus has the answer.
He desires to wash away the past and make you new. He can give you a new start.

Please take a moment to read the rest of this page and let me know how you feel.

1. GOD LOVES YOU AND CARES FOR YOU

John 3:16:
"For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life."

"Casting all your care upon Him; for He careth for you" (1 Peter 5:7)

"Jesus … said unto them, ‘They that are whole have no need of the physician, but they that are sick: I came not to call the righteous, not sinners to repentance" (Mark 2:17).

"For the Son of man is come to save that which was lost" (Matthew 18:11).


2. SIN HAS SEPARATED MAN FROM GOD

Romans 3:10:
"As it is written, There is none righteous, no, not one."

Romans 3:23:
"For all have sinned and come short of the glory of God."

Isaiah 53:6:
"All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned every one to his own way: and the Lord hath laid on him the iniquity of us all."

Man has chosen to disobey God and go his own way. Sin means missing the mark of perfection.

3. MAN'S EFFORTS CANNOT REPAIR THE DAMAGE CREATED BY SIN

"For we also once were foolish ourselves, disobedient, deceived, enslaved to various lusts and pleasures, spending out life in malic and envy, hateful, hating one another. But when the kindness of God our Saviour and His love for mankind appeared, He saved us, not on the basis of deeds which we have done in righteousness, but according to His mercy, by the washing of regeneration and renewing by the Holy Spirit" (Titus 3:3-5 NAS).

Neither good works, moral lives, religion, baptism, church membership, confirmation, philosophy, can bridge the gulf which separates us from God.


4. JESUS CHRIST IS GOD'S REMEDY FOR SIN
Romans 5:8:
"But God commendeth [proved] his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us."

Acts 13:39:
"And by him all that believe are justified from all things, from which ye could not be justified by the law of Moses."

Ephesians 1:7:
"In whom we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, according to the riches of his grace."

Acts 4:12:
"Neither is there salvation in any other: for there is no other name under heaven given among men, whereby we must saved."

Jesus Christ was the only One who ever lived a sinless life. He was willing to give His own life to pay for our sins when He died on the cross.

5. HOW TO ACCEPT GOD'S FREE GIFT OF SALVATION

Romans 10:9-10:
"That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation."

Romans 10:11-13
"For the scripture saith, Whosoever believeth on Him shall not be ashamed. For there is no difference between the Jew and the Greek: For the same Lord over all is rich unto all that call upon Him. For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved" ().

Matthew 11:28-30
"Come unto Me, all ye that labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of Me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke s easy, and my burden is light" ().

Ephesians 2:8-9:
"For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God: not of works, lest any man should boast."

Roman 4:5:
"But to him that worketh not, but believeth on him that justifieth the ungodly, his faith is counted for righteousness."

Acts 16:31:
"Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved."

There is nothing that you can do to earn salvation; you are saved by God's grace and grace alone. All you need do is turn to Him in faith and believe on Him. Specific words are not necessary. The following simple prayer may express the desire of your heart, but you can pray with your own words.

A Prayer for Salvation

Heavenly Father,
I come to You in the Name of Jesus.
Your Word says, "Whosoever shall call on the name of the Lord shall be saved" (Acts 2:21).
I am calling on You.
I pray and ask Jesus to come into my heart
and be Lord over my life according to Romans 10:9-10.
"If thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved."
I do that now.
I confess that Jesus is Lord, and
I believe in my heart that God raised Him from the dead.

I am now reborn! I am a Christian - a child of Almighty God! I am saved! You also said in Your Word, "If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children: HOW MUCH MORE shall your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to them that ask him?" (Luke 11:13).

Father I'm also asking You to fill me with the Holy Spirit. Holy Spirit, rise up within me as I praise God. I fully expect to speak with other tongues as You give me the utterance (Acts 2:4).

CONGRATULATIONS! You have just made the most important decision in your life! Jesus has come into your heart. He will be your best friend. Make time to talk with Him daily. Read His Word, the Bible, regularly. He will speak to your heart and lead you all the days of your life, if you continue to seek Him and let Him. Locate a strong Christian church in your community for Bible study and fellowship. And be baptized as a public profession of your new faith in God.

Begin to praise God for filling you with the Holy Spirit. Speak those words and syllables you receive - not in your own language, but the language given to you by the Holy Spirit. You have to use your own voice. God will not force you to speak.

Now you are a Spirit-filled believer. Continue with the blessing God has given you and pray in tongues each day. You'll never be the same!


ASSURANCE OF SALVATION

John 10:28:
"And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand."

John 5:24:
"Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that heareth my word, and believeth on him that sent me, hath everlasting life, and shall not come into condemnation, but is passed from death unto life."

I John 5:13:
" These things have I written unto you that believe on the name of the Son of God; that ye may know that ye have eternal life..."

All your sins have been completely forgiven. You are saved to the uttermost. The Holy Spirit, which has been given you, will never be taken away.

"If thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised Him from the dead, thou shalt be saved" (Romans 10:9).

"Who (the Father) hath delivered us from the power of darkness, and hath translated us into the kingdom of His dear Son" (Colossians 1:13).

"God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind" (2 Timothy 1:7).

If you desire to be baptized, this can be administered by any born-again believer. But if you are not able to, realize that the receiving of the Holy Spirit is not contingent on baptism.


AS A NEW CHRISTIAN

Romans 5:1:
"Therefore being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ."

Romans 8:15:
"For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father."

Romans 12:1:
"I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service."

Colossians 3:1:
"If ye then be risen with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ sitteth on the right hand of God."

Believe He will cleanse you and make you over again.
"But if we walk in the light, as He is in the light, we have fellowship one with another, and the Blood of Jesus cleanseth us from all sin … If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness" (1 John 1:7,9).

"Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away: behold, all things are become new" (2 Corinthians 5:17).

CONFESS HIM PUBLICLY AS YOUR LORD AND SAVIOUR.
"Whosoever therefore shall confess Me before men, him will I confess also before my Father which is in heaven. But whosoever shall deny Me before men, him will I also deny before my Father which is in heaven" (Matthew 10:32,33)

"Whosoever shall confess that Jesus is the Son of God, God dwelleth in him, and he in God" (1 John 4:15).

"For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation" (Romans 10:10).

TRUST HIM WITH SIMPLE CHILD=LIKE FAITH.
"And Jesus called a little child unto Him, and set him in the midst of them, and said, Verily I say unto you. Except ye be converted, and become as little children, ye shall not enter into the Kingdom of Heaven" (Matthew 18:2,3)

"But without faith it is impossible to please Him; for he that cometh to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of them that diligently seek Him" (Hebrews 11:6).

Abide in Christ and let His Word abide in you, and His Spirit will surely produce fruit in your life. As you read the Word of God, which is your foundation, the Holy Spirit will lead you and teach you the things of Christ. Walk in the light as He is in the light. This is what it means to be in close, intimate fellowship with the Lord Jesus.



If you have prayed this prayer please post a note letting us know you got saved. Or email me at jerr**anointed.net


Posted by: mayfieldsinlove

Lord we Lift Jay up to you right now. We bind every negative thought and force in Jay's life. We pray for positive people to come into Jay's life and become positive role models for her to follow. Reveal Your love, and forgiveness to her Lord in a mighty way. Father, I ask for you to dispatch legions of Your angels around her to protect, and minister to her daily as she is strengthened. In Jesus' precious name, Amen!
Jay Jesus loves you! God bless!


Posted by: ANOINTED WARRIOR

Quote:
Originally Posted by Jay
I really don't know why I chose to come here but if God really cares I guess the best thing to do would be to ask his followers to pray for me because I can't myself. I must be missing something about this whole christian thing because I thought I was a christian but I'm just like any worldly person. Alot of things are going on right now that I don't know how to handle- I don't feel that I know Jesus even though I've prayed the prayer of salvation- I used to pray, read the Bible and sing and worship God...but it all went nowhere... i was same old me, doing the same old things... i've had sex (which is devastating to me- i never thought I would do that), if given the chance...i know I would be a party girl, do drugs, drink, and sleep around-thats whats bothering me- I'm making decisions now that are affecting the rest of my life. If this is all that life has to offer then i dont see why i'm here- all i do is cry.. i know i'm not the only person who has ever wanted to die...or has ever felt like this.. but i've been in this pit for months.. i'm 17 by the way.. and since I can't pray for myself.. i'm just wondering if you could for me.. lately I've been having to deal with my past... i have been abused sexually, physically, and verbally and I guess its taken a toll on me...I don't know how to deal with school work(which is pretty strenuous college prep)-- I'm losing the guy i love because of my parents... my life has been hell in the past..and the pain of it isnt going away...please don't just think i'm some selfish lil spoiled brat.. i just want this torment to go away and for my circumstances to change..



*HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGG SSS*
Jay I am here for you if you need to talk, if you want my msn contact its saveveryon**msn.com..............other than that more *HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUG GGG*
you're going to make it through it will get better....your in the valley its ok I am always there to ...there just onr thing its how you see things in the valley that get you through....quit looking at the bottom of the pit and begin eating the vegitation thats there for you in the valley....by the way your not alone in your valley click here... http://www.dayspring.com/movies/webmovies/forgiven.html the vegitation I am talking about is the strength of the Holy Spirit that is in you to help you through these hard times...you can cry but cry on the chest of Jesus...He longs to comfort and hold you know matter what you have done....I will let the whole world know what I just did just before I prayed for about 1 and a half.. I commited sex sin with myself...but do you know what, I am not going to let it stop me...I will keep going towards the goal no matter what...I say what I say to you about sex sin because I am getting a lot better now,but I do fall into sin...but every time I fall, I look up and see Jesus face and his hand and he is saying I LOVE YOU....and keeps me going on the right path...his mercy is awesome and grace beyond words....so I hope this encourages a lot of people ...keep going and dont give up...Jesus is always beckoning us forward with him to the finish line....God Bless...


Posted by: Bjork

[QUOTE=Jay]
Jay, I believe that the Lord brought you to this place for a reason. He does care so much about you, he knows your pain, everything you have gone through - and he understands completely, in fact he knows more about you than you know yourself. But he came to heal you - he loves you too much to want you to stay in the place you are right now. He wants your pain, he wants you to give him your burdens - every one of them. After you recommit your life to him - talk to him, cry out to him, write to him. Believe me, he is there with you, he was all along. If you only knew the love he has for you ! So take his hand - and walk with him.

Father, I pray you will lead andl gently hold Jay. CLeanse with your pure water, make Jay sparkling clean. Make Jay new in you. Be her LOrd, be her Savior, be her comfort and healer, be her fortress and refuge. In the precious name of Jesus I pray.


Posted by: jsustaita

Dear sister, do not worry! Jesus is standing right beside you, knocking on the door to your heart. He love you so much, don't ever consider suicide, for his sacrifice was so that you would be forgiven. And that you are Jay, you ARE forgiven of all your sins, so long as you believe. Saying the prayer to salvation is nothing without Faith . I know it is hard to believe, and I will pray to God for you to have Faith. Trust him in all things. He loves you so much. Each of us here love you Jay, we want you to come home.

Father, in the name of Jesus, TOUCH Jay, let her feel your loving grace and the comfort that only you can give. Father you love us SO much that you gave your only son for us. We have been steeped in sin since our first knowledge of right and wrong. We have constantly ran away from you, for that is the nature of darkness. We have chosen darkness because we are sinners, but you dear lord Jesus, are the light. You took our sins upon the cross, and because of that, you WHO HAD EVERYTHING IN GOD, were TORN FROM HIM!! You cried, "My God, My God, Why have you Forsaken Me!!!" You Loved us so much, that you were willing to be torn from God, though you were part of him. But by doing so, you have pierced the darkness of our hearts and show us the way to Love. You show us the hope and life within your blood. The precious lifegiving rivers that flow from you, that true fountain of eternity lies within you. Salvation lies in you, and you alone. Your love is a rock in dark times. You always know precisely how to talk to us, exactly which way to caress our cheeks. No matter how many sins we have committed, you took care of them ALL. Fully, wholly, and painfully. But Hallellujah, you were ressurected, and you live Again. We await your return Jesus, the day when your promise shall be fulfilled. It is only a breath away in eternity, and we shall be patient upon Earth. Father, please comfort Jay and send your Holy spirit to her to minister to her. Guide her and show her that though her life may seem to be on verge of destruction, New Life is possible in You. All that you ask, EVER, is Faith. In Jesus Christ name we pray, Amen!!!


Posted by: MeSing4him

Jay,

I want you to know that I was once in a similar place where you now stand. If it were not for Gods grace and love I would not be here at this moment. I know how lonely and painful things may seem at this moment but most of all Jesus knows. I want you to know that he loves you and longs to be near you. Tell him what is in your heart, honestly. He is there ready to listen and help you. I know he will bring you through.

Heavenly father, I ask that you will touch Jay now and bring healing into her life and I pray that she will feel your loving arms around her.
In Jesus name,
Amen


Posted by: anniewilly

Heavenly God I have faith in you that you always hear when your children are calling you. I believe you will show your miracles to her and give her a new meaning of life. I return Glory to you in Jesus name
Amen.
Quote:
Originally Posted by Jay
I really don't know why I chose to come here but if God really cares I guess the best thing to do would be to ask his followers to pray for me because I can't myself. I must be missing something about this whole christian thing because I thought I was a christian but I'm just like any worldly person. Alot of things are going on right now that I don't know how to handle- I don't feel that I know Jesus even though I've prayed the prayer of salvation- I used to pray, read the Bible and sing and worship God...but it all went nowhere... i was same old me, doing the same old things... i've had sex (which is devastating to me- i never thought I would do that), if given the chance...i know I would be a party girl, do drugs, drink, and sleep around-thats whats bothering me- I'm making decisions now that are affecting the rest of my life. If this is all that life has to offer then i dont see why i'm here- all i do is cry.. i know i'm not the only person who has ever wanted to die...or has ever felt like this.. but i've been in this pit for months.. i'm 17 by the way.. and since I can't pray for myself.. i'm just wondering if you could for me.. lately I've been having to deal with my past... i have been abused sexually, physically, and verbally and I guess its taken a toll on me...I don't know how to deal with school work(which is pretty strenuous college prep)-- I'm losing the guy i love because of my parents... my life has been hell in the past..and the pain of it isnt going away...please don't just think i'm some selfish lil spoiled brat.. i just want this torment to go away and for my circumstances to change..



Posted by: Dreamweaver

Good Morning Jay,
I hope you are feeling better. Look how much everyone on here cares for you and your salvation.

Precious Lord,
We lift up Jay to you again this morning. Lord, guide her and protect her through this difficult time. Show her your love and blessings and we give you the praise in JESUS name. amen


Posted by: StarChilde

I have been posting this, a I feel led to share this book!

I have been seeking God for some time now using praying and fasting, and learning wonderful lessons, getting breakthroughs, and it is awesome~! I feel led to leave the following here, it is from a book I found on the net, and I would pray that ALL who come to this prayer board would read it, there is THAT much in there, that we should read~!
The whole book can be found at http://www.christian-faith.com/bibl...blessings1.html
and I hope the link comes out ok this time..ok just previewed and it isn't, so where it says bibl...blessings1.html, replace JUST THAT PART, WITH THIS: /bible-studies/cursestoblessings1.html OR PUT THIS TOGETHER: http://www.christian-faith.com THEN ADD /bible-studies/cursestoblessings1.html TO THAT, AFTER THE COM PART... AND i WILLPRAY IN THE SPIRIT RE: your prayer request~

THE CURE
THE SOURCE OF THE CURE IS GOD.
THE ONLY WAY TO THE CURE IS JESUS.
DEATH ON THE CROSS WAS AND IS THE ONLY PRICE THAT WAS PAID FOR THE CURE.
HOW TO REMOVE CURSES
In Deuteronomy 28:1-2 we have the promise that if we shall hearken diligently to the voice of the Lord, we shall have the blessings overtake us. However, in Deuteronomy 28:14, it says, “if thou wilt not hearken unto the voice of the LORD thy God, to observe to do all his commandments and his statues which I command thee this day; that all these curses shall come upon thee, and overtake thee.”
I exhort you with all my strength and heart to read from verse 15 until the end of Deuteronomy 28. If you see any of these curses in your life or in your family, pray to God in Jesus’ name and repent for any unforgiven sins that you or your generations before you have done to cause these curses. Command the curses to be broken in the name of Jesus Christ and speak blessings to replace the curses in the name of Jesus. We have written out the entire passage in Appendix 1, so that you can logically and constructively deal with these matters that have had destructive consequences in your life.
This is not a religious experience. It is a spiritual preparation for you to serve your God, to be good parents, to be good spouses, and to be a great witness to a world that is dying in its curses. As these blessings start to minister to you, day-by-day, you will see changes. You will feel stronger, your confidence in your relationship with the Lord will be stronger, and your family ties will be sweeter. Financial blessings generally take some time, but as you are faithful to do what the word of God calls you to do, you will also see blessings in this area.
My prayer for each person that is reading this book is for his or her life to change, to move closer to the center of God’s will, to be that witness that we are asked to be in God’s Word. Our confidence in God will continue to grow until we can say to that mountain, “Be thou removed,” in the name of Jesus and see it come to pass.
Please allow me to pray with you: Heavenly Father, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, we come before you with praise and thanksgiving for the marvelous work that you have done for us. You gave your only-begotten Son, our Savior, to die on Calvary’s cross and to suffer such torture, so that we could be your children. You paid the price that it cost for all of our sins and the disobedience that we continue to do in our lives. Thank you right now for breaking the power of that sin in our lives and setting us free from any curses that have held us in bondage. We ask this in the name of Jesus for ourselves and for our families. We repent for the sins of our ancestors and of our nation. We ask that you will cleanse us with the blood of Jesus Christ as white as snow. Thank you that you will remember those sins no more. We humbly ask that you will help us to continue to obey your word, to seek your face, and to love and love some more. Thank you for all of the wonderful blessings of rest, health, prospering in your way, being able to bless those who curse us, being able to forgive and be forgiven. Thank you for encouraging us to speak your promises against any problem that we have. Give us faith that is greater than our problems. Help us to forgive those we have not forgiven, even if they have cursed us. We repent for any occult or occultist practices in our lives and in our families, or anything that we have permitted to get into our lives that have led us away from making your Son, Jesus, our Lord. Give us the strength to glorify your name in all situations, to give the sacrifice of praise and thanksgiving in place of complaint and discouragement. We thank you, Heavenly Father, for all that you have done in our lives and are going to do, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.


Posted by: Frederik

Jay,
I'll pray for you.
If you said the salvation prayer and believe in Jesus with all your heart and believe that he died for you and the cross and rose on the third day then you are saved and you have the Holy Spirit.
Everybody makes mistakes, Jesus already forgave you, so don't let your past drag you down.